Risk (The Men of Matiz 1)

"I want to discuss something." I meet her gaze. "I'd like this to be exclusive, for now. I'd very much like if we could agree not to date other people."

"You mean you want me to agree not to date Liam and River."

Of course, I mean I want her to stay away from those two clowns. They're both circling her waiting for a chance to pounce. I want a barrier in place that they can't cross. I need to explore this without the added anxiety that their presence will bring.

"I mean any man who wants you."

"I just got out of a serious relationship a few months ago." She takes a deep breath. "Jumping into something exclusive might not be the best thing for me right now."

"My cock is the best thing for you right now." I square my shoulders. "The rest of me too, but you have to admit, the sex was stellar last night."

"That ego, Nolan." She waves her finger in the air at me. "You need to tame that down."

I laugh. "I'm just telling it like it is, Ellie."

She chuckles softly, her hand smoothing back her hair. "So you want us to date only each other for now?"

"Yes, that's exactly what I want," I tell her without a beat of hesitation.

"When was your last serious relationship?" She glances toward my office door. "Was it with Shelby?"

"Shelby? That wasn't a relationship. That was a mistake that never qualified as anything."

"So it was before her. When did your last serious relationship end, Nolan?"

I scrub my hand over the back of my neck. I've never been ashamed to admit this. We all have strengths, each of us owns a weakness or two. Mine happens to be relationships. "I've never been in a serious relationship, Ellie. I've only ever had two girlfriends in my life and both of those were when I was fifteen-years-old. When they found out they were both my girlfriend at the same time, I stopped having girlfriends."

She doesn't laugh. There's no rush to scold me for teasing with her. Instead, she purses her lips.

"Why make this exclusive? We can date each other without labeling it."

No, we can't. That leaves the door open for any other man to come strolling into her life and that's a complication I don't want. "I have no interest in dating other women right now. I'd like to date only you with the understanding that you're not seeing other men."

There's a long pause. A fucking long pause as she stares right at me, into me. "I'll agree to date only you, Nolan if you agree to date only me. I can't promise how long I can do that for, but for now, I'd like to try."

Great. Good. Ellie Madden is dating me. She's only fucking me.

She stands and I follow. I reach for her, wanting a kiss, a touch, anything before I open my mouth again to tell her the one thing about me that defines who I am.

I cup her delicate face in my hands. I lean down and kiss her. It's soft at first and then urgency rushes over the connection and before I realize what I'm doing, my hand is on the back of her neck, insistent, coaxing, pushing her lips into mine. My body wants to seal the deal and cement her to me before she learns the truth. I want this and I want what I have at home. I want it all. I need it all.

She circles my waist with her hands, her fingers crawling under my suit jacket to clench the fabric of my shirt. I'm erect, hard and wanting. I want too much. I need to stop. I have to fucking stop.

"Ellie." I pull back from the kiss, but only enough that my lips skim over her lips when I say her name. "You have to know. I need to tell you."

"Tell me what?" She pops up to her tiptoes to claim my mouth again.

I give in because the need to taste her lips is stronger than my resistance. I run my hands down her back to cup her firm ass. I squee

ze it, pulling her against me so she can feel what she's doing to me.

"You're hard." She smiles against my mouth. "You're right. The sex was stellar. Your cock is too. I admit it."

"Wait until you taste it." I tug her even closer, the hard ridge of my erection pressing against her. "I want to see these lips around it."

My pulse races when her hand drifts lower and then lower still. She grazes her fingers over the front of my pants, the touch electric. My dick throbs from the promise of her touch. "Now, Nolan?"

Yes, now. Get on your knees and take it down your throat. All of it, until your eyes water and your pussy is on fire from sheer need.