Please, Daddy (Love, Daddy)

As I heave and pant, screams burn my throat, Merrick drawing my overwhelmed clit back into his lips and the pleasure turns into a desperate pain.

“God, please, stop!” I bellow, my lungs desperate to pull oxygen from the air. But they fail, and I’m suffocating. Kicking at him, slapping at his head. “I can’t breathe…” I manage, pulling at the fabric under me, panicking, my eyes unfocused on the ceiling which seems to be undulating like I’ve entered some decadent, sexual version of Alice’s crazy wonderland.

“You’ve made such a beautiful mess, little one. You make me so happy.” I hear Merrick’s voice like it’s far away, calling me closer, urging calm into my body. I’m not even sure how much time has passed since I lost myself in the vortex.

An hour?

A day?

A split second and an eternity all at the same time. I’m trying to make sense of time and space again as it exists here on earth and I realize, I’m still engulfed in a cloud of lust.

I want something else.

My body needs something else.

“I want you inside me, Daddy,” I manage, my voice small, playing another part as I heave in and out, hot breaths searing my lungs as my skin feels feverish. Hot and cold at the same time, as I finally focus, looking down and seeing Merrick on his knees between my spread legs, his face slick with my juices.

“I’m going inside of you, baby. You’re the most perfect, beautiful thing I’ve ever seen and I’m claiming all of you. Your cherry is mine, but more than that, your sweet, virgin cunt is going to take me raw. All of me. For all of you.”

A flutter of new pleasure bolts through me and I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster, the car chugging toward the top of the tallest peak, the ride surging forward; there’s no stopping, no getting off. It’s too late as your belly flips and the ultimate free fall awaits just in front of you.

He braces his arms on the sides of my body, leaning down for his mouth to consume mine. I taste myself on him as he feeds me his tongue and the tension builds inside of me again. I wasn’t lying when I said I wanted him. My body is desperate to feel him pushing inside me, and his enormous weight on top of me gives me that wonderful, dangerous, helpless feeling, like he could do anything he wanted to me and I would not be able to stop him.

But even as the forbidden fantasy tantalizes me, somehow he feels like home. Like I’ve finally found the person, not the place, that gives me roots. Something I’ve never had.

Our tongues lash and twist together. He’s demanding in his kiss, aggressive and unapologetic, as he centers his weight on top of me then pulls back, looking into my soul with eyes I remember from my dreams.

“You filled my mouth with your honey, little one. That made Daddy very happy. Now you’re going to have to be brave, you’re going to make me happy again. My cock is going inside that tight little hole of yours and I’m not sure I’ll be able to go slow.”

There’s pain in his eyes, his face looks twisted and conflicted as the tendons in his neck stand out.

I draw a sharp breath as he reaches down and the first brush of his cock is at my entrance. He shifts, hands behind my knees, pushing my legs upward, wide, wider, as he struggles to get his massive form into position.

“Daddy loves you.” His words stab into places I’ve kept hidden for so long as his shaft stabs into my virginity, a blaze of emotions engulfing me along with the pain of his entry. “Fuck, baby. Jesus, I’m sorry. You teased me too much. I can’t stop. Daddy loves you.”

He says it again as I scream his name and he rips through my resistance. Arrows of white-hot pain spear outward in every direction as his forest-green eyes control mine with a look of such power and reverence I feel like a priceless treasure, sent here as an offering to a devil.

The pain is buckling inside of me as he holds my legs wide and he strains to push forward. I don’t know what to do with my hands for a moment, finally bringing them to rest on his jaw.

I feel the hard flex of the muscle, the vibration as he grinds his teeth together, and I’ve never wanted to please someone as much as I do right now.

“Fuck me,” I bite out, surprising myself with the filthy request. “I want you to fuck me, Daddy. Make me yours, all yours. Your special girl, always and forever.”

“Fuck, baby.” His hips drive forward on a grimace. “You are so perfect. I can’t stop…fuck, fuck, fuck.”