Whispered Prayers of a Girl

Sick? Yes, absolutely. But it was either that or crawl into bed with her, which wasn’t an option. I’m not up to getting thrown in jail for breaking and entering, or taking the chance of her finding me out. Fuck no. I need her too much. I need her to know and accept me first, without making a mess of things.

It wasn’t until recently that I’d gotten myself into a position where I could approach her the way I want to; however, I’m not ready just yet. I’m having too much fun with my current game— a game she knows nothing about, but still participates in. Hell, who am I kidding? This isn’t a game, it’s more of an uncontrollable obsession. I love watching her, knowing she’s oblivious to it. It turns me on more than anything, or anyone, has before.

I think it may be time to change things a bit—make them more thrilling—before I lose my patience and snap, giving into what I want too soon. The timing needs to be perfect.

I have a key to her house and frequently visit her while she sleeps. When I can’t be there in person, which has happened too much for my liking, I can always pull up the video feed I have on my phone and computer. Yes, I have cameras in her house as well. The woman has completely taken over my mind and there’s not a damn thing I can do to stop it. Not that I want to. Poppy’s mine, she just hasn’t been made aware of it yet.

Some might say I’m sick and demented, that I should be locked away for my obsessive behavior. That may be true, but I’m not a kidnap, rape, or torture kind of stalker. I have no desire to hurt Poppy. I won’t force her to do anything she doesn’t want to do, but I’ve embraced my obsession and will use every damn thing I have in my power to prove to her that she belongs to me, and only me. She will know that I’m the only man for her and that I will love, cherish, and worship the very fucking ground she walks on.

I’ve also been keeping track of the dating site she uses. After three months, I’m actually surprised she’s still active on it. After all, every date she’s been on has turned out to be one disaster after another. Of course, that could be because I hacked into the site’s system.

But I digress. That’s neither here nor there.

I shift in my seat, trying to gain more room in my slacks for my growing cock as Poppy lets loose on the prick still planted in front of her. I still can’t hear his words, but his actions show he’s quietly trying to get her to see reason. I sneer at the desperate look on his face. If the fucker thinks she’ll forget he’s still married, then he’s more stupid than I thought.

Fucking idiot.

I watch as the asshole slinks away with his head down and his shoulders slumped, looking like a defeated dog. The only reason I’m not following him home and rearranging his face is because he never touched my Poppy, except to place his hand on her back to guide her through the doors. I knew tonight was going to end the way it did. I made damn sure of it.

There’s not a computer program I can’t hack into, no firewall high enough I can’t scale, and no software I can’t disable. A few keystrokes here, a few broken passwords there, and I was in SoulMate.com’s system—the dating site Poppy uses— within minutes. After browsing her profile to discover her likes and dislikes in men, I did an extensive search, finding what I decided to be the ‘perfect fit’ and put them in contact with her. Dating guys you meet on the Internet can be very deceiving. Lies are easily told, embellishments are made, and omitting the truth is commonplace. The men Poppy thought were her perfect matches were actually scumbags in disguise: self-centered, pricks, and lowlifes, or married, as the case is tonight.

A few minutes later, I quietly get out of my car, walk to the side of her house, disengage the automatic spotlights at the corner of Poppy’s house, and pick the lock on the tall privacy fence. She uses sheer curtains. On one hand, that pisses me off because some perverted asshole could easily peek in at her. Yes, I’m doing the exact same thing, but I’m not a pervert or an asshole. Well, a pervert, I’ll grant you that, but I have no nefarious plans. Okay, wait. Maybe I am being wicked, but I’m certainly not a villain. I just like to peek in on my future wife from time to time.

On the other hand, I fucking soak up the fact that I can see Poppy in her natural habitat, without any outside influences, and it’s not through a monitor.

I spy Poppy in her bedroom through her window. She looks agitated as she takes the pins from her hair and carelessly throws them on her dresser. Her thick, beautiful brown hair falls around her shoulders. I want to wrap my fists around it to hold her in place as I fuck her from behind. Or have it surround us in a curtain as she rides me from above. Have it tickle my abs and thighs as she takes me deep into her throat.

So many possibilities that will soon become a reality.

My body tightens in anticipation.

Poppy’s hands move to the first button of her shi

rt and slips it through the hole. She moves to the next, and with each button released, it exposes more of her cleavage. When she makes it to the second to last button, she slips her feet from her heels. Finally, on the last button, I hold my breath and grip the windowsill tightly. I groan quietly when she turns her back to me and makes her way to the bathroom, slipping the silky material down her arms and throwing it in the hamper outside the door. Her tanned back faces me, and I can see the gray straps of her bra. When she finally turns back to me, I notice she’s wearing one of my favorites. It’s lace, and it plumps up her breasts nicely. It doesn’t hurt that I can damn near see her nipples through it.

She reaches back and unclasps it, but before I can get a glimpse of her tempting breasts, she closes the door, blocking out my view. I drop my head and take a deep breath. I don’t bother with pulling out my phone to watch the video feed. The bathroom is the only room I don’t have a camera in. Even I have my limits. I don’t want to take away all her privacy.

Watching Poppy always gets my blood pumping. I don’t know what it is about the woman, but she drives me crazy, in body and mind. It’s like my soul recognizes her as it’s other half and it’s fighting desperately to get to her. It’s sounds corny as shit, but there’s something about her that calls to me. It has from the second I laid eyes on her. I knew right away that I would have her. It’s not often that I don’t get what I want, and I don’t plan to start now, especially with Poppy. I never intended to take this long to make my intentions known. It was only meant to last until I was in a place where I could pursue her. But when that finally happened, I was already ensnared. Watching her became my addiction. The thrill was overwhelming, and I had no intention of stopping. Poppy’s mine anyway, so I don’t see how it’s a problem.

I stand outside her window for another fifteen minutes, contemplating as to how much longer I can restrain myself from touching her, when she finally opens the bathroom door. She appears in a white robe with steam billowing out around her, making her appear like an ethereal angel. Her hair is piled on top of her head with a few wet tendrils falling around her face which is scrubbed clean of makeup, just the way I prefer to see her. She’s naturally stunning.

She walks on bare feet to her bed, and I move to the other side of the window to keep her in view. Holding my breath, I ready my body for the sight I know is coming. Just as predicted, with her back once again to me, she lets the robe fall down her arms and lays it on the end of the bed. Seeing her smooth, plump ass, I imagine myself squeezing it in my hands as I hold her up against a wall and pound into her. The thought has my cock testing the strength of my slacks.

She sits on the side of the bed and applies the citrusy lotion to her hands and arms before crawling beneath the sheets and comforter. I love that she sleeps naked. It’s just another thing we have in common. It’s hot as fuck, and I’ll never have to worry about clothes getting in the way when I want to sink into her pussy. And I know it will be something that will happen numerous times throughout the night. I could never get enough of her, but it’ll be fun as hell trying, and very satisfying, I’m sure.

She fiddles with her phone for a few minutes before she puts it down on the nightstand and turns the lamp off. The room darkens, except for the small night light she has plugged in beside the bathroom door.

I give her forty-five minutes, and when I haven’t seen her shadowed form move for a while, I pull my key ring from my pocket and walk to her back door. Soundlessly, I unlock it and walk through it and into the kitchen before closing it behind me. The room is lit by the light above the stove, showing everything in its place. I noted a while back that Poppy is a neat freak.

An uncontrollable need to see her drives me forward down the hallway that leads to her room. I pass by the half bath, spare bedroom and linen closet before stopping in front of her door. I fist my hands before I push it open. This shit is pure torture; seeing her and not being able to touch her really tests my restraint.

Once I have myself reasonably under control, I step over the threshold and my eyes immediately zero in on her. I keep them there as I walk slowly to the side of the bed she’s on. She’s lying mostly on her stomach with the sheet down to her waist, exposing her bare back, and one of her bent legs. The tattoo of a burning rose she has right above her left ass cheek peeks out at me. It’s in contrast to the Poppy I know and proves there’s an inner vixen she hides from people. My mouth waters when an image of me licking that damn tattoo pops into my head.

My eyes roam up her back and over her shoulders until they land on her face. Even in the darkness, I can see she looks relaxed in her sleep. Her thick lashes rest against her cheeks, hiding her beautiful jade green eyes from me. Something pulls at my heart at her content look.

I barely suppress the urge to crawl into bed with her. Soon, I tell myself. Soon I’ll allow myself the freedom of actively and openly pursuing her. My need for her is growing, and as much as I enjoy watching her in the background, I know I won’t be able to keep things like this much longer.

I get down on my knees beside the bed and take in her features up close. Her thick, dark lashes rest against her cheeks. Her mouth is open slightly, and I can hear her breathing. I lean closer and smell the minty freshness of her toothpaste. Her hair is still up in a band, but a small portion has fallen on her cheek. Knowing I shouldn’t, but unable to stop myself, I tentatively reach out and brush it away. She releases a small sigh, and I still as she adjusts her position. Seconds later, I release a quiet breath when she rolls more to her side, showing me a glimpse of her generous tits. I’d already taken my tie off in the car, so I reach up and release a couple buttons on my dress shirt, making my rapid breaths come easier.