Reckless Love (Cowboys & Angels 7)

“Are you sure?” I asked, chewing on my bottom lip. Trevor reached over and pulled my lip from between my teeth, causing my entire body to zip with electricity.

Damn him. Damn him. Damn him.

I wanted to hate him. A part of me did. He had played around so much with my feelings, I wasn’t sure I was ready to be alone with him. Maybe he’d drop me off first, and then Cord and Maebh.

“Good. I want to talk to you,” Trevor stated, giving me a slight smile.

Looking away, I gathered my things and turned to the three of them. “Do y’all mind if I change really quick?”

“Good idea!” Maebh stated, following me into the house. When we were in the guest bedroom, I tried to pull in a few deep breaths.

“Are you okay?” Maebh asked.

“No,” I replied. “I’m not sure I’m ready to be alone with Trevor. I’m not ready to tell him.”

She took her hands in mine. “Scarlett, he deserves to know. The longer you put it off, the harder it will be, lass.”

Nodding, I fought the tears that threatened to spill. “I know… I’m just not ready for how he’ll react.”

With a frown, she let out a breath. “Don’t wait too long. If he finds out from someone else, it will destroy him.”

“Like who?” I asked.

Maebh shrugged but didn’t answer.

Sitting in the truck it hit me how exhausted from being out in the sun and all the activity at Amelia’s place. Trevor and Cord were talking about the ranch in the front seat, and Maebh had fallen asleep not five minutes after we left. It didn’t take me long to feel my eyelids growing heavy as I drifted off to sleep in the back of the truck.

A gentle movement lulled me back as I inhaled deeply. His smell filled my senses, causing me to relax even more.

Trevor.

He was carrying me.

His cologne engulfed me, instantly making me press into him. My body was exhausted. I didn’t even have the energy to open my eyes. When I felt him climbing the stairs, I knew he had carried me into my house.

When he placed me on the bed, I grabbed my pillow and snuggled into it. Then the bed dipped, and I felt his presence. I didn’t move, except to continue my slow breathing.

Barely cracking my eye open, I found Trevor sitting on my bed staring straight ahead. His shoulders sagged. He looked defeated and an ache grew deep within my chest. The urge to sit up and hold him was strong, but at the same time, I wasn’t sure I wanted to keep opening myself up to him. I gave and he took. I couldn’t take any more of that.

Trevor dragged his hands down his face and let out a soft exhale, then he spoke so softly, I struggled to hear his words.

“I don’t know what to do. I love you, Scarlett. You deserve someone better than me. I’m so fucking scared and confused.”

My breath caught in my throat, and I had to force myself to close my eyes and breathe.

Oh. My. Goodness. Trevor said he loved me. He loves me!

I wanted to scream out. Why could he only say this when he thought I was asleep? What was keeping him from telling me how he truly felt?

“Please, God. I just need one more chance here to get this right.”

His voice sounded desperate. I opened my eyes and went to talk, but the bed moved and Trevor stood. For some reason, I shut my eyes again, making him think I was still asleep. I needed to process his words before I did or said anything.

I felt a blanket on top of me. He gently kissed my forehead and butterflies took flight in my stomach like they did every single time this man touched me.

“Sleep good, angel.”

I immediately felt the loss of warmth when he walked out of my room. My eyes stayed shut as I listened to him go down the steps. When the front door clicked shut, I sat up in bed, hugging my stomach. I stared at the now-empty doorway, trying to wrap my head around what I’d just heard. Trevor said he loved me.

My head dropped back, and I stared at the ceiling. Tears quickly pooled in my eyes and released in a rush down my face.

The push and pull of Trevor Parker was taking its toll on me, and I wasn’t sure how much more of it I could take.

I needed to tell him about the baby, and I needed to do it soon.

Cord’s Place was packed, and I couldn’t seem to keep up like normal. My mind was all over the damn place. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Scarlett. Scarlett dancing in that damn two-piece bathing suit. Scarlett walking into Lilly’s for breakfast. Scarlett running down Main Street as I walked into the bar. She was fucking everywhere.