Into the Darkness

“Thanks. I think I just squirted more out after that comment.”

“Wow, you sure know how to make a prom dance romantic.” He chuckled.

I grinned and kept my mouth shut. It was time to enjoy this moment. This was the end of an era, time to move on and live life as a woman. To new beginnings, I thought. I watched the lights flickering against the Eiffel Tower, my mind lost in the lyrics that consumed me. There couldn’t have been better moment to bring up the question that burned within me, the one question that would make or break us.

“Alex—”

“Sshh…one day, my Charlotte, we will be in Paris dancing with everyone watching. I promise you, one day it will be our turn. I meant what I said in that room. We cannot be apart, Charlotte. Never.”

And so in that moment he promised me a life together, promised me the world. I closed my eyes, imagining it was now, that people around us meant nothing and we were free. Free to show the world how much we loved each other and that nothing could tear us apart.

Chapter 30

Charlie

This weekend left me questioning everything I believed in, everything I said I wouldn’t fall for again. I know I said nothing’s off limits but I meant sexually. This other attachment that sort of fell into place, well I didn’t expect that. I mean the hand holding, the tender kissing, stroking of the hair type gestures, and the constant questions about marriage. Fuck, it scared the shit out of me. I was drunk when he put that ring on my finger and I was happy to play along with the game but somewhere in the past few hours it went from fantasy to reality. He asked me if the problem was that I didn’t trust him. Did I? Of course he could have anyone he wanted and anyone who had a pussy wanted him. My insecurities were getting the better of me and I didn’t l

ike it one bit.

As the magic show played in the background, I sat there dazed trying to put my thoughts together. This was a little too much. I watched him intently until he noticed that I was pulling away, that I was distracted by something else. He asked me what was wrong but I couldn't, not now, not this weekend. Instead I put on my best smile and big girl pants and asked him if he wanted to go on the Ferris wheel, just me and him. Nothing better than a slow amusement park ride to distract you from asking yourself ‘What if’.

We paid for the tickets and jumped on the next carriage that arrived. It was a beautiful night with a clear sky. The moon was shining bright and if you stared long enough, you could catch a glimpse of a shooting star. There were only a few people riding it but no one in the carriages that immediately surrounded us. We sat there silently. He asked again if there was something wrong but I brushed him off and I knew I had to distract myself with something sexual because now was not the time to start chipping away at my walls. It was like he could read my mind.

He pulled me in close to him and I couldn't help but smell his scent, intoxicating me. I placed my lips on his, kissing him. He returned the kiss and this is what we did until the Ferris wheel stopped because more people were getting on. I wanted more, something dirtier than just kissing on the Ferris wheel.

I felt his hand graze my thigh but instead of lifting my dress, he slid his hand behind and under my ass. My body shivered in anticipation, the movement of the carriage, the warm breeze and the loud noises that surrounded us. He moved slowly until he found what he was looking for. I could see the turmoil in his eyes as he slowly slid a finger into my pussy. I gasped as he pushed in deeper. Closing my eyes momentarily, feeling the rush. He pulled me in closer so he could whisper in my ear.

“Another finger?” he asked while nibbling on my ear.

My thoughts were suddenly incoherent so I just nodded as he slid in another finger. I squeezed my legs tight which only added to the intensity. It wasn’t like he had small fingers, they were your typical man hands but again I wanted more. I wanted to push the boundaries that we never could push before.

“Should I be a nice husband and make you cum on the Ferris wheel?”

I turned to look at him, my eyes wild as I was borderline ready to explode. I moaned, my breaths deepening. Of course I wanted to cum, he had been teasing me all day. The carriage swayed as we sat at the top. I couldn’t admire the view, it was all a blur. There was no one around us, no one that could see us anyway.

“Answer me,” he demanded.

“Yes, make me cum...please.” I didn’t care that I was begging. I was already sitting in a pool of wetness and just this slight push, that’s all I needed as he thrust his third finger in and I could see it, the light at the end of the vagina tunnel. It was shining bright and it shone brighter and brighter until I was falling. Falling into a beautiful abyss. Struggling to control my body, I buckled in his embrace, bowing my head as I let the feeling take over me. I knew when I opened my eyes it would be over and I didn’t want to face that reality. My body started to gain its composure and slowly I opened my eyes. The first thing I noticed was his arousal that stood up like an eyesore, a beautiful eyesore mind you. He smiled at me while taking his fingers out and then he asked me to open my mouth. As he grazed my cheek with his other hand, he placed them inside my mouth demanding I suck my cum off his fingers. HOLY MOTHER FUCKING FUCK!!! And now we were back to square one again.

I attempted to fix my dress so it wasn’t obvious that I got finger-fucked on the Ferris wheel. If anyone could spot that it would be Bull’s. So of course it wasn’t a surprise when Bull’s laughed at me on the way home, pulling me aside asking me if I enjoyed my Mark Wahlberg Reese Witherspoon moment. I swear she had some sex radar, it was frightening.

It was a little after ten when we decided to head back home as Will looked tired. I felt the same after last night’s poker shenanigans. Of course Will was sugared up but after a few minutes he looked exhausted and started to complain about the long walk home. Lex offered to piggyback him to the house which he gladly accepted. Will went on and on about the magician and how cool it was when the rabbit disappeared. Lex smiled, nodding along with everything Will said.

“I know what you’re thinking, Bull’s,” I said as she watched them.

“Go on then, Charlie. What am I thinking?”

“That I should stop. That he’s no good for me.”

“I never said that.”

“But I know that’s what you’re thinking.”

She remained quiet after I said that. It was unusual for Bull’s to have no opinion. Really unusual. “Charlie... He’s not who I thought he was.”

“Oh?” That surprised me. I was waiting for the ‘he’s a jerk that will just hurt you again’ speech. “Do you care to elaborate?”

We were interrupted as Rocky put his arm around Bull’s and whispered something into her ear. She giggled and I knew I didn’t want to ask what he had said. I could have sworn I heard the word strap-on. Again I didn’t want to ask.