Into the Darkness
ing at him again, the blood bouncing off his face as he screamed my name yelling at me, the voices around me in a panic. The image of Charlotte as she pulled Julian back caressing his face only added to the violent behavior that had consumed me. Kate was calling my name, pulling my arm back, begging me to stop. I turned to face her but as soon as she had my attention she released a breath
“Mr. Edwards, don’t do this. You will regret this and lose her forever.”
Was that true? If there was anyone who knew how Charlotte really felt it would be Kate, her new confidant. The adrenalin was still running through me. I turned to face Charlotte ready to apologize for my behavior. I really had no option, I had to man the fuck up.
“Lose me forever? Too fucking late, Lex. You lost me a long time ago. I was just stupid enough to think it was repairable,” she shot back.
The apology was devoured now by rage which again was rearing its ugly head, the hurt and pain of her words stabbing me in the heart. I needed to let it out, how I really felt. But people watched, waiting for my reaction. This wasn’t some soap opera. This was our life and I didn’t want them to hear the words I was just about to speak.
“¿Por qué no puede usted ver cuánto Te amo? Que cada momento en el que no está conmigo, me muero un poco todos los días. Este error no era mío, que quería mi confianza? así que tal si gana la mía también. No todo es culpa, mía Charlotte. Usted quiere hacerme daño por lo que te hice, Charlotte? Bueno, usted ha tenido éxito. Para citar a usted, he terminado.”
It was the only way I could say how I really felt, what was deep inside eating away at me. It wasn’t my fault. Call me arrogant, call me whatever the fuck you want. I knew when I fucked up but this wasn’t one of those times. I lost my trust in her. I no longer wanted to play this sick twisted game. I never gave up but I also didn’t settle for second place. If only she didn’t run to him, if only he wasn’t touching her, if only I didn’t see a spark in her eyes as he leaned in to kiss her.
She stood there, smothering Julian who quickly walked away. As she began to walk away too she turned back to face me one more time.
“I was actually here to tell him it was over.” These were the words that I needed to hear only minutes earlier.