Marco desperately wanted to tell Emily how he felt—but this was not the right time. Unfortunately, he had a duty to inform his grandfather first of his intentions. Once he had done that, then he could tell Emily how much he loved her. Did she love him? His heart felt as though there were a knife twisting inside it. But even if she didn't love him he still intended to be a full-time father to his son.
‘I’ll be back in time for the appointment with the cardiac specialist.’
Emily bowed her head. She mustn't let her own feelings swamp her. She had to be strong—for her son. Was it something she had done, or not done, that had caused his heart defect? she had asked the obstetrician.
‘No. Mr Bryant-Jones had told her sometimes the condition ran in families, but sometimes it just happened', without there being any reason.
‘What do you mean you no longer wish to succeed to the throne?'
‘I mean. Grandfather, that I am abdicating my claim to the Crown. I intend to make a formal speech to that effect, but I wanted you to be the first to know.'
Marco told his grandfather calmly.
‘You are giving up the throne of Niroli for the sake of a woman and her child’
Marco could hear the disbelief in his grandfather's voice.
‘My woman and my child. And, yes. I am giving up the throne for them. For them, and for our people.’
'What do you mean by that?’
‘It would never have worked. Grandfather. I could never step into your shoes. Marco saw that the old man was looking slightly gratified.
‘For me they would be constraining, too limiting.’ he finished firmly. We have done nothing but argue since I first arrived. You block every attempt I make to make reforms—‘
‘Because they are not right for our people.’
‘No. because they are not right for you.’
‘What you want to do would cause a schism that would split the island.’
‘If you continued to oppose me then yes there is that possibility. Niroli needs a king who will bring it into the twenty-first century—I firmly believe that. But I also believe now that Nirolis king can never be me. That does not mean that I don't care about my homeland and my people. I do—passionately—but I now know that I can do more for it and for them by working from outside its hierarchy.’
'By spreading anarchy, you mean?'
‘By setting up a charitable trust to help those who most need it.’ Marco corrected him evenly.
There was a certain irony in the fact that, whilst he had refused to wear the heavily decorated formal uniform his grandfather had had made for him on his arrival in Niroli he was wearing it now to take his formal leave. Marco admitted as he waited for the king’s equally elderly valet to finish fastening him into the jacket with its heavy gold braid. But somehow it seemed fitting that, on this one occasion, he should defer to tradition.
The world's media had been alerted to the fact that he intended to make a public speech; TV and radio crews had already arrived and the square below the palace balcony, from which he had chosen to address the people, was already full.
How different he felt now compared with the way he had felt when he had first returned. Then, he had been filled with a fierce determination to fulfil his destiny; it had ridden him and possessed him.
This morning he had woken up with a sense of release, a sense of having gained back a part of himself he was only just becoming aware he had been denying.
The valet handed him his plumed hat. He could hear the shrill sound of trumpets. Walking slowly and majestically, he headed for the balcony, timing his entrance to when the military band broke into the Nirolian national anthem. Then he stepped forward...
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
EMILY stopped outside. A shop window to look at her reflection and push her hair off her face. It was a sullenly hot day and her back was aching. She had been to see a client, but had hardly been able to focus on what the man had been saying to her because of her dread of what the cardiac specialist might say. Part of her wanted to rush the appointment and the specialists opinion of her baby's future forward, whilst another part of her wanted to push it away. She was standing outside an electrical store that sold televisions. Its windows were filled with a variety of large screens. She glanced absently at them and then froze in disbelief when she realised she was looking at Marco. A camera homed in on his face, and then panned to the crowd in the square beneath him.
What was happening? Emily could think of only one thing: Marco must already be formally taking his position as the new King of Niroli. She wanted to ignore the screens and walk on past the shop, but instead she found that she was going inside.