You’ll Never Have Me (Never 3)

“No, I think you should stay,” Harrison barks out, his tone short as he closes the door and seals us all within a room that once felt spacious, but is now making me feel incredibly claustrophobic.

“Sit down Henleigh,” hey he can’t boss me around, and I’m going to make that clear. “Woman, sit the fuck down,” he orders and my traitorous body does as its told. What are you doing girl?

“Come on Harrison, there’s no need to be like this with her,” Noah says with his hands held out in front of him, I don’t think a placating gesture is going to work right now.

“She confesses her love for me and I’m not even in the room to hear it, oh no, that's you Noah boy. So yeah, I think I can be given a little slack, all things considered,” his tone is as sharp as a Katana blade and I don’t doubt just as deadly.

“You’re right and I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said it,” I say weakly, staring at my hands as I chip away at the varnish on my nails.

His heavy steps sound loudly across the floor until the tips of his boots are in my eye line and he’s crouching in front of me. Gripping my chin and lifting my head so our eyes are connected.

“Don’t say that, because that would mean you regret it and something like that would slay me. I just wish you had told me first, why didn’t you?” His eyes are showing me so much vulnerability and my heart is bleeding at the pain I see reflected within.

“It scares me to feel like this for you, we haven’t even spoken since we had sex. We just went back to normal, minus that toe curling kiss before we came here of course. What if you didn’t feel the same way? I couldn’t face finding out,” sliding my fingers across the stubble on his face, I can’t help but chew on my bottom lip and his eyes are zeroing in on the action.

“Have you forgiven Noah?” He’s going to give me whiplash with all this back and forth. I wonder if he could find a job as a human boomerang. This is not the time for jokes.

“Yes, it still hurts that he kept it from me but after everything that’s happened. Clearly life is too short to stay mad forever,” I say softly, while looking at Noah who has the sweetest smile on his face.

“Good, because I don’t have any idea how to share you and I’m smart enough to know that being with you means having to accept that I'll have to learn. Whether it’s just with Noah or those other arseholes, I don’t know. That’s entirely up to you but I’m going to need a little help with this one,” his dark eyes are smouldering as he frees my lips and sucks it into his mouth, biting on it himself before letting it go.

I wish I was strong enough to hold in my moan, but it feels too damn good. Especially as his hand gently circles my neck and his other massages my hip. I pull away slowly, breathing deeply.

“What do you want me to do?” Noah asks and I really shouldn’t, but I can’t help laughing, he sounds so worried. Maybe I should be, but there’s too much relief coursing through me for anything else to register.

“I’m not going to be like dickias,” Harrison says and my face must look so confused because he’s rolling his eyes at me before he continues, “Amias, woman. I don’t want to be like him, if you have more than one guy then you should be able to kiss them whenever you want because I know I won’t hold back kissing and touching you just because Noah is in the room,” he’s giving me another lingering kiss to prove his point and Noah doesn’t even look away.

“How are you okay with watching that?” He asks, as he stares at Noah causing him to come closer.

“I had a bit more time to get used to it, plus Elijah has four dads and I’ve seen the way they interact. Besides how can I get jealous when me and Lija tag teamed on the foreplay the day after prom,” slapping him across the chest feels justified with his tag team comment. Seriously, you’re smarter than that.

“Sorry my love, that came out wrong I just wasn’t sure how else to word it,” he says sheepishly as he goes the colour of a tomato. Even his neck is flushing red, it’s adorable.

“Is that what you want woman, to have both of your guys at the same time,” his thick voice is making my stomach pool with desire as he strokes his hands up the insides of my thighs.

“I... don’t know, I never thought about it,” I say breathlessly, as my head drops back and I can see Noah sitting down behind me so I can rest my head on his shoulder.

“Well then, maybe you should start. I love you Henleigh and I want to make you happy, you deserve to feel happy woman,” his eyes are hotter than pools of lava, but his smile is soft and it’s such a fucking contrast.

Can I do this, be with both of them at the same time.

“We have to go again Harrison, we can’t stay and you know I won’t let Noah come with us. How would this be fair to any of us,” a broken record seems the most fitting analogy with the way my voice keeps cracking.

“I know that my love, but I won’t let you stay gone forever. Why can’t we be together one last time until the rest of our life can begin properly?” His words are a balm to my frazzled and damaged soul, maybe I should stop thinking for a moment.

Threading my fingers through his hair, a breathless “okay” slips free and his head drops down to my neck while he slips one of his hands down the front of my top. I arch into his hand while Harrison leans away and watches, I feel awkward as fuck with him watching us but I’m not sure what else to do.

“Touch yourself for me,” Noah says, causing both me and Harrison to stare at him in shock. Before Harrison grabs hold of my leggings and pulls them from me.

Noah tugs harder on my nipple as Harrison watches my hand glide down my stomach and brush the triangle of my thong to the side. His eyes are heated as he watches me glide my fingers through my wetness and dipping them inside myself. I can’t take my eyes off him, I’m transfixed by his stare, I feel as though he’s devouring me with one look and my body feels as though I’m burning up from the inside out.

I push my head into Noah’s shoulder harder as he begins playing with both my nipples, tugging and twisting as Harrison grabs my ankle and starts kissing up my leg.

Pulling my hand away, he places his on top and shakes his head. “Don’t stop,” he says deeply, lust deepening his voice beyond familiarity.

I start stroking myself again as he drops his mouth over my centre and thrusts his tongue inside, “oh god,” I moan out as Noah pulls my top off over my head before lying me back and he closes his mouth over my nipple.