Welcome to Hell: Rediscovering First Love

Keegan hugged her aunts then eagerly she went inside to see her brother and father.

“God help me,” I said to my sisters who looked at me with puzzlement. “I am as bad as Yancy and to make matters worse she,” I said pointing to the house where my daughter had disappeared, “is going to start driving me crazy with worry just as I drove Yancy crazy.”

We stood on the porch for a moment longer while we laughed at my dilemma. Then we went inside to join the others and to start the celebration. Christmas had always been a festive time in Yancy’s house and this year was no different. Micki had used many of Yancy’s own decorations. The mantle was lined with bows of garland and red glass bulbs. A stocking for everyone hung from the garland.

A seven-foot tree was decorated with ceramic lights of different colors, garland, and glass decorative ornaments, homemade decorations that either one of us had made or my mother or grandmother had made. The handmade patchwork tree skirt spread out in a four-foot diameter beneath the tree was covered in gifts. The house smelled of cinnamon cider and cooking turkey plus other side dishes that filled the air with a sweet aroma. Glancing about the house I knew that I was home

a place I enjoyed, a place that gave me security like no other. Home felt just a little less festive this year without Yancy but I pushed that thought out of my mind quickly as I went to the kitchen to help my sisters with the cooking for tomorrow’s dinner.

Later that evening, I climbed into bed snuggling into Kerry’s warm body.

“You feel good,” I told him. “Nice and warm.”

Snow had begun to fall I noticed looking outside through the bedroom’s window. It would be a white Christmas. He chuckled pulling me tight against him.

“I’m a human furnace.”

“My human furnace.” I moaned a little enjoying his warmth and the feel of his body tucked against mine. “I have a secret.”

His eyebrows raised. He tilted his head a little so he could look down at me. Strong jaw covered in scruff. He was a beautiful man and he was mine. God I loved him. Thank you for him. He was so hard to resist and that my friends is why we were having another baby. Every time he looked at me I wanted to climb him, wrap my legs around him and fuck him silly. That and the fact that we could never seem to find a condom. I thought about going back on the pill but hadn’t. Oh well. Too late now. I smiled a secret smile.

“What Gabby? What are you hiding?”

The hand on my back started sliding up beneath my tank top caressing my naked skin.

“Not hiding anything. I just know something you don’t,” I teased.

With his other hand he began caressing my face a lazy soft way that made my body tingle.

“You’re pregnant.”

I bolted upright and turned and glared down at him.

“How did you know?”

He laughed a deep, guttural belly laugh. I started hitting him with my closed fists not hard but enough that he started yelling hey and ouch until he grabbed me and pinned me beneath him while I struggled against him causing the headboard to bang against the wall loudly and the springs of the old box springs to creak even louder.

“Will you two behave?” I heard my daughter call from the next room. “I do have company with me you know. I would like for him to think I have normal parents.”

“Oh hush Keegan,” I shouted back.

I could hear chuckles coming from other rooms filled with my sisters and their spouses. Everyone had stayed the night at Pop’s house.

“So how did you know?” I whispered against his mouth.

“I have my ways.”

Kerry still on top of me began kissing me with tenderness that melted my insides like butter on a hot pancake.

“You saw the test,” I accused.

“You aren’t going to give it up are you?” He stopped kissing me and was gazing down on me. I shook my head no. “I saw the test,” he agreed.

Then he resumed his assault on me with his sweet, warm lips until I was moaning into his mouth. He yanked my tank top up and his head dropped to my breast. His tongue circled my nipple first one then the other still holding my arms above my head.

“You know this is what gets us into this mess?” I breathed.

“Mm Hmm.” He continued sucking and flicking with his mouth and tongue. “I love it when you are pregnant. You are horny as hell.”