Promise Me

“Are you?”

I looked at my brother then back at Skylar. We were getting closer to the girls. “Fionn, I think I am.” My voice had gone soft. “He’s my son.”

“Pretty powerful feeling huh?” He slapped my back.

“It is.”

“When are you and the parents going to make up?” Fionn asked me.

I snorted. “I don’t think that is up to me.”

He rolled his eyes at me. We reached the girls. He bent down and kissed Aine. “How was the appointment?” The sick calf kept him home.

“I’m still where I was last week. She wants to see me Friday. If I don’t progress, she’s inducing me. She doesn’t want me to go any longer. Gracie was a big baby and this child is big enough. She did an ultrasound and thinks she’s between eight and half and nine pounds.”

My brother cringed because my sister-in-law insisted on natural childbirth. “First one couldn’t wait to come out. This one doesn’t want to come out,” Skylar teased Aine. I glanced down at Sky and put my arm around her shoulders eliciting a smile directed at me. I gave her a little squeeze.

“How’s the calf?” Aine asked.

“I think he’s okay,” Fionn responded. “I’ll watch him for a day or two.”

“Are you ready to go home?” I asked Skylar.

As the words flew from my mouth they felt both strange and natural. We had been living at coach’s cabin for two weeks. She moved her stuff from her parent’s house. Rhett and Tegan came by; I thought to see what the living arrangements were. I think they were almost relieved that we were sleeping in separate bedrooms. I just wanted to take care of her. I felt like I’d made her life hard enough by getting her pregnant. Teg tried to talk to me about Mom and Dad too. I still didn’t think it was my place to approach them. Dad was pretty clear about his thoughts on me.

I held the door of my truck open for Skylar. She was approaching six months so she was having trouble getting up into the truck. I put my hand on her ass without thinking and boosted her into the vehicle. She turned to me when she was seated. I don’t know which of us was more embarrassed? Shutting her door when I was sure her legs were out of the way, I went to the driver’s side and climbed inside. I wondered what she was thinking. Skylar was very quiet. Maybe I shouldn’t have touched her ass. “You okay?” I asked.

She nodded. “Want to tell me what you are thinking?”

“I wish you could remember sex between us,” she said honestly.

“Me too,” I replied.

“Want to do it again?”

I almost choked on my tongue and her face turned a shade of red that I didn’t think was humanly possible. “Forget I said that,” she whispered. I didn’t think that it was possible to forget that Skylar said that to me.

Turning into the drive, I parked behind her car. I dropped her at the farm that morning before practice so we didn’t have separate cars although I was sure she was wishing that she wasn’t riding with me at the moment. Our ride to the cabin had been painfully quiet.

She went straight to the kitchen to cook dinner while I went to the shower. I stripped down naked and realized I hadn’t brought clean clothes with me. I had a towel only because the linen closet was in the bathroom. This place was pretty small. Sure Skylar saw me in my underwear and I had seen her in hers. The first time was amazing.

Her belly was rounder and it was smacking me in the face that soon we would have a baby together. There was no sexual reaction to her body. Just awe. I wanted to reach out and touch her bare belly but I didn’t want to upset her and the look on her face let me know that she wouldn’t be happy if I groped her. She only tolerated me touching her through her clothes, I think.

I stepped beneath the water spraying from the shower head and let it beat over my head. I should have tried to talk to her. I just didn’t know what to say. She defini

tely shocked me with her proposition as tempting as it was. She was a stunning girl. Young woman. She was pregnant with my baby. There were so many things that could get messed up with us jumping into bed together especially since I overdosed only six weeks ago. I hadn’t been clean long enough to figure out what I was capable of as far as relationships go.

Putting my hand against the wall, I closed my eyes and relaxed. I let the water take me to a place where the thoughts weren’t so chaotic. Sex? What did it mean to me? Always had been a way to get off. A quick and easy means to my pleasure. A warm, hard body to stick my dick in. I was shallow and I knew it.

Love? Mainly, a word I used in regards to my friends and family. Skylar was included in that but had never been in a romantic way. Why couldn’t I remember that night?

I finished showering. Standing beneath the water wasn’t providing any answers that I needed other than having sex with Skylar right now wasn’t a good idea. It would only complicate a complicated situation. I towel dried my hair and ran my fingers through it. Then I wrapped the towel around my lean hips. I opened the door and was surprised to see her coming down the hall. She was just as surprised to see me in only a towel. She quickly lowered her eyes to the floor.

“I have to pee really badly,” she explained.

I tried to smile at her but she wasn’t looking. Dinner was ten times worse. She was quiet. I cleaned up afterwards while she went to take a bath. I could hear her splashing about in the tub. I finished the last dish and put the leftovers away then I went to the living room.

I stretched out on the sofa and picked up her iPad to read a little. She had downloaded several books for me to her Kindle app. Then I heard her. A soft low moan. I leaned forward on the sofa and laid her iPad on the table in front of me.