Deviant

I was almost in my head when she rested hers on my shoulder and I almost buried my nose in her hair. What in the blue fuck is this shit? I gritted my teeth and pretended I was doing it to keep from telling her to move. But deep inside I knew it was to fight my own need.

How the fuck had she done this to me? How had she slipped under my guard so effortlessly? I should’ve known something like this would happen after the third night that I sat watching her sleep. The feelings I had then were like a damn alarm bell going off in my head.

It’s because she was nothing like I’d expected. I hadn’t been prepared. I didn’t expect as I watched her move around her place that her cute little mannerisms would get to me. Or that listening to her give advice and offer help to a friend in need would touch the heart that I’d believed long dead.

I came looking for a female version of the fuck I was after, only to meet this one. Unless she was a prevalent actress she was the last of a dying breed. One of those women who were beautiful both inside and out. And her virgin blood on my cock was fast convincing me that she was more the second than the first.

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“We’re here.” I had to wake her up once we pulled through the gates of home. I didn’t take her to the apartment in the city, another one of my family’s residences but had brought her instead to the country estate. The place where I’d spent most of my childhood.

Just the sight of the home where my dad had spent his last days was enough to bring me back around and remind me just what the fuck I was doing here. She had no idea of the change that had come over me as I led her into my home.

“Why don’t you go have a soak while I make some calls. I’ll see about getting us both something to eat when you’re done.” She seemed only too glad to be rid of me and I’m guessing she was recalling the last few hours on the plane. The red hue of her cheeks was a dead giveaway.

Was she remembering the feel of my tongue on her clit? Or the silky glide of my cock as it slid in and out of her wet heat? I brushed my fingers down her cheek before I turned and left the room. I don’t know why I did that shit either but by the time I closed the door behind me I was back in control.

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AVA

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I dropped down on the bed as soon as he left and looked around the well-appointed room without really seeing anything. The last few hours replayed themselves over and over again in my head leaving me weak.

I’d acted so out of character In fact since the moment we met I haven’t been behaving normally. If I didn’t know better I’d swear that he’d drugged me but I knew that he hadn’t. Unless you count the hypnotic power of his eyes when they looks at me.

I lost my virginity thirty thousand feet in the air. After years of safeguarding it I guess I could’ve done worst, but it was all hitting me hard as I sat alone there on the over sized bed and the past few hours played over in my head on a reel.

I’d always thought I’d lose my virginity on my wedding night, to someone who would love me more than his next breath. Someone, who would take care with me, someone, who would cherish the gift of my virginity.

Instead I’d lost it to a total stranger who I’d only met the day before. It didn’t seem real, almost like I was having an out of body experience, or like someone else was pulling my strings somehow, making decisions that the real me would never have made.

I finally got to my feet and headed for the bathroom that he’d pointed out before he left. I had the wayward thought as I perused the opulent room that he must’ve entertained any number of women here.

Why hadn’t I thought of that before letting him do all those things to me? Why was it only now that I felt able to string two thoughts together?

I ran the water hot and added some salts that I found on the vanity. Adding to my belief that I wasn’t the first female he’d brought back here. As I lowered myself into the scented water I felt shame for the first time.

I buried my face in my hands and bemoaned my stupidity. How could I let this happen? Where had all my common sense gone? My sense of decency?