Boyfriend Goals

“I can do it.”

“I want to.” He lay back while I cleaned him, wiping all the sticky mess from his stomach, the dark hair at his groin, and his soft cock… How was this happening? And I liked it, this feeling of taking care of him. It wasn’t often I felt as though I was taking care of someone, spoiling them and giving them what they needed. It was strangely powerful.

When I finished, I put the rag in the hamper and sat down naked beside him again.

My eyes were drawn to his nipple piercings, so I reached out and fingered one. I wondered what it would be like to lash my tongue over them.

“Are you okay to talk about the virgin thing?” Gideon asked.

“Yes, though I’m not sure what you want me to say. I don’t have a lot of friends…no real ones except you and Rachel. I’ve never had a boyfriend. I refuse to pay for sex. I’ve met a few guys on apps, but when we spoke, they weren’t really interested. I think they thought I was odd.”

“I think I hate them.”

I rolled my eyes. “You don’t know them.”

“I can still hate them.”

“I guess.” I shrugged. “I mean, I probably would have changed my mind if they didn’t because I can’t have sex with someone I don’t trust. And I definitely couldn’t have their tongue and saliva in my mouth or their cum on me. I wasn’t even sure I’d like yours. People in porn sweat so much, and I’m really weirded out about sweating with someone. When you think about it, sex is really gross, and doing that with a random person…or letting them inside your body or being in theirs?” I shivered. “I just…I need to know someone. I need to trust them and feel comfortable with them, and I’ve never had that until you.”

Surprise seized me when he sat up, leaned in, and kissed me again, slowly and lazily. Gideon’s tongue swept my mouth, and mine did the same to him. All too soon, he pulled away.

“Am I good at kissing?” I asked.

“Very.”

“And you liked having orgasms with me?”

He grinned. “Oh yeah.”

This was maybe the most perfect situation in the world. “Do you want to do it again? Not now because I came twice, but I was thinking…if you enjoy it, maybe we can keep doing it. I want to experiment with all kinds of sex. I’m especially interested in blow jobs and fucking, though I don’t think I can let you come in my mouth, and I would probably need to fuck you first because I’m iffy on having someone else inside my body. I might be able to since it’s you.” I worried Gideon would think I was in love with him, that he would be stuck with me and that would make him say no. It was important to me that he knew this was just for the orgasms.

He stared at me for a second like he wasn’t sure what to say. Panic clung to me, weighing me down. “You don’t have to. It’s fine if you want to say no…or, if we do it and I’m not good or you’re bored of me, you can tell me and we’ll stop. If you suck, I’ll tell you too.”

“I have no doubt you will.”

I relaxed. It was so nice having someone who knew me and accepted me, who didn’t care that I might tell him he wasn’t good at something. “Friendship first because I don’t have many of those, and no worries, I don’t want to be your boyfriend or anything. I know I said that before, but it’s true. I just really want to have sex. A lot of it. And you might be my only chance.”

“Um…thanks?”

I rolled my eyes. “You know that’s not what I meant. I told you first I find you attractive, and I said you could see me naked. I just don’t want you to think I’m like, in love with you or something. You’re my best friend…and we’re really good at it, Gideon. We’re bestie goals, but I’m also really interested in your cock.”

He barked out a loud laugh, which made me relax some. “So basically, I’m getting a lot of sex with an incredibly attractive man who I also happen to like spending time with? Where do I sign up?”

“We don’t have to put the deal in writing or anything. If you’d like a contract, I can write one up, though.”

His mouth came down on mine again. Gideon must really like kissing. “I would love to help you explore sex.”

Happiness ballooned in my chest, but then… “Wait. Will you be having sex with other people? Because then I’ll be thinking about that like…what if you swallow their cum and I don’t know, and you come home and I kiss you?”