Sweet Taboo

Annie: Now, have you tried fitting other places?

Me: Years ago. It was perfection.

Annie: So, what’s the problem? Nothing is wrong. Everything is right.

Me: Oh, something is wrong. I have no idea how to trust my damn hormones and my emotions!

Annie: LOL. So, when did you first notice the problem?

Me: I think it began yesterday morning.

Annie: What happened?

Me: He was showering…and I wanted to be the water…

Annie: Perfectly normal! See, worrying for nothing.

Me: OMG. I'm gonna fall hard for him. FML

Annie: No, no FYL...this is good. Fall...let him catch you...he's willing.

All the emotionsthat had been threatening to burst forth finally did.

Me: Tears. Seriously. Tears.

Annie: Hey, Tegyn?

Me: Yeah?

Annie: I think this guy is going to be your happy ending.

Me: I hope so.

Then I pulled myself together.I brainstormed a list of blog topics. From there, I selected one for the first of several posts I’d schedule tonight: Travel to Beat the Winter Blues. And using my travel business back end software, I put together the top seven travel destinations for escaping the long, miserable winter.

Now, if I could just figure out what to do with myself for the rest of the night. I had about three more hours to kill. Of course, maybe I’d better get ready because before he left, I rather strongly insinuated that I wanted to have sex with him. Maybe I should check to make sure we were on the same page. I licked my lips. We would text once in a while when he was at work in the past. I wondered if he could still do it. I seemed to be living my life from one chance to another. What was one text message going to hurt?

Me: Do we have plans when you get home?

My heart racedand my face flamed while I waited for his response.

DeSean: Definitely. I got my paperwork. It’s time for you to start sleeping in my bed, Tegyn.

Me: So, we’re just sleeping.

DeSean: No.

Me: So, we’re having sex.

DeSean: No.

Me: So, we’re training for the Boston Marathon.

DeSean: Not in this lifetime.

Me: Then what?!

I shookthe phone and groaned in frustration.

DeSean: We’ll be making love, Tegyn. I’ve said everything I can to convince you. Tonight, I plan to show you.

My skin brokeout in goosebumps. He planned to show me. Then I probably should tell him.

Me: I’m not on the pill.