Under His Roof - Love Under Lockdown

Chapter 1

Cassie

I wish I could lose my virginity to my boss…

It’s a bad thought to have, I know, but I’ve been having it, a lot.

Even right now, as I drive into work, I’m having that thought.

Is it just a way to pass the time or do I really wish he could strip off my clothes, bend me over his desk and penetrate me for my very first time?

Sometimes I don’t even know anymore. But the fantasy has been one that resurfaces a lot. I tell myself not to worry about it, and to pay attention to driving so that I can make sure to get myself to work in one piece.

I’m a personal assistant at a very busy top law firm in the city. The work is pretty enjoyable, and is made even more enjoyable at times thanks to this secret crush I’ve developed on my boss, Matt Barnes.

That wasn’t difficult, because I work in close contact with him every day. He is a partner at the firm, so naturally this keeps us both on our toes and forces us to be together a lot. That’s not always a bad thing. In fact, it’s usually something that makes me happy, though I would never admit that to anyone.

It’s the only guilty pleasure I have in life. I don’t know whether that is pathetic or disappointing.

I guess it depends on your point of view.

I think it’s normal to crush on your boss, since a lot of people that I know have been in similar situations.

So, it must be pretty common, I’m starting to think.

Not that it matters to me.

Or maybe it does.

I can’t decide.

I’ve clearly tried to convince myself that this is no big deal, when in reality I would die if he ever found out how I felt about him, though I have fantasized often enough about that exact thing. I know he would never return my feelings – he’s very professional, and that would be a very unprofessional thing to do – but it’s still fun to pretend that he might. I constantly try to keep myself from feeling these things, but it’s impossible for me not to.

I have a lot of daydreams and fantasies about him. I can’t help it; he’s just so damn handsome. I must spend about ninety-five percent of my time daydreaming about him, and the other five percent telling myself to get over him, that it’s never going to happen.

That is easier said than done, though. I always find some way to bring my thoughts back to him. I realize that I’m starting to sound a little obsessed.

Thank goodness no one can hear my thoughts, I joke to myself.

I even laugh a little at that.

Lame, I know.

But my silly crush on my boss has me feeling like a schoolgirl. It has a happy effect on me, making everything feel as if I’m floating on a cloud despite all the trouble going on in the world down below.

“He’s way out of your league, stop thinking about him,” I tell myself aloud.

If I keep this up, I’m going to crash my car. I stare moodily ahead out the windshield for a few minutes before giving my head a slight shake.

I need to get him off my mind, so I try concentrating on something else. This is easy to do because there is so much going on in the world right now.

I was watching the news this morning while I got dressed, before I left for the office and honestly, what I heard left me a little paranoid. I’m sure others must feel that way too. I quickly move on to another train of thought, because I don’t need to have a panic attack before work. That would be an absolutely horrible way to start my day.

I sigh as I think about how busy I’ll be today. That’s the way it usually is now. It’s taken a lot to get used to working like this. Even today, it still feels weird being at the office at times.

Since this virus started going around – Coronavirus, they’re calling it, and what a weird name that is – a lot of people have been calling in or just not showing up. This means those of us that remained in the office are stuck with the extra work that they left behind.

It’s good, in a way, because I don’t mind the extra pay, or time with my boss, but I feel so exhausted by the time I get home that I always end up falling asleep in front of the TV. Not much of a life to speak of, but that’s typical of so many now.

I get a little depressed at that thought, but brush that feeling off. Life is like an emotional roller coaster at times, but we get through it as best as we can. At times it’s not easy, but it’s what everyone has to do.