Stumbling Into Love (Fluke My Life 2)

It doesn’t feel right to tell anyone about the baby when things with Wesley and me are so up in the air. I don’t want the announcement of being pregnant to be followed up with my telling everyone that Wesley and I won’t be raising it together. The idea of doing that makes me feel even more sick.

“I don’t know,” I admit.

“You’ll know when you’re ready.” She sits up. “I have to head to Tony’s. Do you want me to bring you a slice of pizza home for dinner?” she asks.

My mouth waters at the offer, but not in a good way. Ugh. I can’t even stand the thought of pizza now, and I love pizza—or I did. Yesterday, when Libby came home in the middle of the night smelling like it, I had to run for the bathroom.

“No, thank you.” My face scrunches up.

“You haven’t been eating much. Maybe you should ask your doctor about prescribing you something for the nausea.”

“I’ll call tomorrow,” I agree.

She nods as she puts on her coat. “See you later.”

“Later.” I watch her shut the door, and then I lie down on the couch and feel sorry for myself while watching garbage TV. Eventually, I fall asleep.

WESLEY

After knocking, I take a step back and wait for someone to answer.

“Wesley! What are you doing here?” Katie asks, opening the door for me and then ushering me inside and out of the snowstorm that started about an hour ago.

Leaning down, I kiss her cheek. I’m half-surprised she doesn’t smack me upside my head. I deserve to be smacked, and I also deserve to have my ass kicked.

“I stopped by to see Aiden. Is he around?” I follow her down a long hallway that’s lined with photos of all three of the Reed girls.

“He’s out back, in the shop.” She stops at the glass double door in the kitchen and points to the backyard, across toward a large metal shed. “The snowblower is acting up, so he’s trying to fix it before we get too much snow.” She smiles. “Go on out, but make sure you stop back in before you leave. I made Mackenzie’s favorite cookies—you can take her some,” she says.

Pain rocks through me at the mention of her name, but so does a little bit of hope. Clearly, she still hasn’t told her parents about our fight, which means she hasn’t completely given up on me—or us—yet.

“Sure.” I open the door, then head across the snow-covered lawn toward the shop. I can see Aiden inside, bent over a wooden workbench.

“Don’t tell me you took my daughter to the courthouse and eloped,” Aiden says by way of greeting when he spots me.

I smile for the first time in days.

“If you did, I suggest you turn and start to run, because I will shoot your sorry ass.” He wipes his dirt- and oil-covered hands on a red towel before resting his hands on his hips.

“No, I didn’t marry her. But when I’m done talking to you, I still may find myself needing to run,” I say truthfully.

His brows pull together as he studies me with a fist on his hip and his feet spread wide. His size makes him an intimidating man, and so does his shaggy red beard. From his slightly defensive stance, I know I need to phrase what I’m about to say very carefully.

“What happened?” he asks, or rather growls.

Stepping into his shop, I take a seat in an old metal folding chair. I need to open up to someone, and I trust he’ll understand.

I tell him everything. I tell him my reasons for moving to New York, about getting Mackenzie pregnant, and then finally I tell him about losing her because I’m a hardheaded idiot. When I’m done talking, he doesn’t look happy, but I can tell that he doesn’t hate me, either.

“You screwed yourself, didn’t you?” he finally says.

I let out a long breath.

“Yeah.” I swallow, leaning back and crossing my boot-covered feet and my arms over my chest. “I fucked up and lost the best thing that has ever happened to me.”

It feels good to admit something that has been killing me since I forced Mackenzie to walk away from me.

“Is your heart still beating?” he asks.

I nod.

“Nothing is impossible unless you’re dead. You’re not dead, so you can still fix this.”

“So how do I do that? How do I get her back?”

“I think the question you need to ask is how you fix yourself. You have to do that before you can fix what happened between you two. You’ve been torturing yourself because of what happened. You need to deal with that first, before you try and talk to Mac.”

“You’re right.” I rub my hands against the stubble covering my jaw.

“Talk to someone about what happened. Be honest about how you feel, and then tell Mac. If I know my girl at all, I know she wanted to help you. You took that from her. Our girl may act like she’s hard, but she’s sensitive—she always has been,” he says.

I know he’s right, and that just adds to the guilt I’ve been feeling. I hate that I hurt her and that I didn’t give her what she needed. I didn’t open up to her, but that is all she was asking me to do.

“You’re right.”

“Now”—he leans back, crossing his arms over his chest—“let’s talk about you getting my daughter pregnant without her having a ring on her finger.”

“I—” I start to tell him that if I had my way, she would already have a ring on her finger, but he cuts me off.

“Save it. I don’t expect you to marry her right now. Actually, I’d prefer if you didn’t. What I want is for you to do right by her—and my grandchild.”

“I always will!” I state vehemently. Family is the most important thing to me.

“Good,” he says. His eyes and his voice both soften. “Now tell me—how is my grandbaby?”

“Healthy. I . . .” My lungs burn as I attempt to breathe through the sadness in my chest. I missed Mackenzie’s doctor’s appointment, but Libby sent me a text letting me know that everything was perfect. The doctors determined that Mackenzie was a

lready about nine weeks along, so she must have gotten pregnant the day she came to get her phone.

“It will be okay.” Aiden pats my shoulder, bringing me back from my thoughts. “You haven’t lost her, so stop acting like you have. Women are crazy creatures. There are times you two are going to fight and think this is it, this is the end of us. Then the next day, you’ll wake up with that dispute being nothing more than a memory. My daughter loves you, and I know you love her, so that right there will get you through everything.”

“Thanks.” I run my hand through my hair, then tuck my hands in the front pocket of my jeans. “I’m gonna head out before the roads get bad. They’re predicting that the storm will dump eight to ten inches between tonight and tomorrow.”

“I need to move to Florida.” Aiden shakes his head.

I start for the door, smiling, but he stops me.

“Wesley?”

“Yeah?” I turn to look at him.

“If you need to talk, I’m here.”

“Thanks.” My throat clogs with emotion.

He lifts his chin by way of farewell, and I lift mine in return, then head out the door.

“Wesley!” He calls to my back again when I’m halfway across the yard.

I turn around once more. “Yeah?”

“You tell Levi when you see him that we are gonna have a few words next time I see him, so it might be best he keeps his distance for a bit.”

“Will do.”

I grin when I turn around and head back inside. I pick up the cookies from Katie for Mac before I get back in my truck and head home. Part of me wants to drive right over to Mackenzie’s and tell her that I now understand what she was saying. That I get that she just wanted to help me. But I need to fight that urge until I take care of a few more things—even if it is killing me to stay away from her.

Cutting open the top of one of the packing boxes that I have ignored since I moved to New York, I take a breath. When you spend your whole life in one city and grow up with the same group of friends, good and bad memories tend to be connected to the objects you own. Dustin was part of most of the things I’ve kept locked away and unpacked so I wouldn’t have to face the pain of losing him all over again. I didn’t realize until I talked to a counselor who suggested I speak with his parents about that fact that I feel responsible for his death. The counselor said that talking with them might give me some closure, that hearing from them that they forgive me might set me on the road to healing.