Until Nico (Until 4)

I grab a beer and lean against the counter to watch her as she measures the flowers, pulls a knife out of the butcher block, lays the flowers over the sink, and then starts to saw the ends off. It takes everything in me not to snatch it away from her and do it myself to make sure she doesn’t cut herself. Once she’s done, she fills the vase with water from the sink’s faucet, drops the flowers in and arranges them, and then sets the bouquet on her table. When she turns around, she jumps like she’s startled.

“You okay?”

“Yeah,” she says, pressing her hand to her chest.

“You forgot I was here, didn’t you?” I smile.

“Maybe,” she says, looking sheepish. She walks over to the stove and checks the water in the big stainless-steel pot.

“Not used to having people in your house?” I question, taking another sip of beer.

“I don’t really know too many people around here.”

I watch as she measures out some pasta before dropping it into the boiling water. “How long have you been in Nashville?”

“Six months. I wanted to buy a house, and I couldn’t do that in Seattle, so I decided to move down here.” She pulls the lid off another pot, grabbing the long-handled wooden spoon from the spoon rest sitting between the burners and starts stirring whatever it is inside.

“You moved by yourself?”

“Yeah.” She shrugs her shoulders and lets out a long breath.

“It must have been hard to leave your friends and family behind to move to another state where you didn’t know anyone,” I say gently, not knowing if this topic of conversation will send her shutting down.

“Not really. I have always kinda been a loner.”

“What about your family?” Even though I already know some about her past, I want her to open up to me.

“My mom died when I was fifteen,” she whispers, “and my dad isn’t in my life. My mom and dad were only children, my grandparents are all dead, and I don’t have any siblings.” She bites her lip and continues to stir the pasta sauce.

“I’m sorry.” I take a step towards her, running my hand down her back trying to comfort her. Her body stiffens under my touch, and I watch as she forces herself to relax. “Are you okay?” I ask softly, feeling like I need to treat her like a skittish cat I really want to pet.

“Yeah, I just… I’m not used to people touching me,” she says, making my heart squeeze. I don’t move away from her. She never said she didn’t like or want people to touch her, just that she’s not used to it. I want her to get used to me touching her.

“So what are you making?” I change the subject, using the excuse of seeing what she’s stirring in the pot to move closer to her.

“Spaghetti with meat sauce,” she replies with a small laugh.

“What’s funny?” I smile automatically.

“Nothing.” She looks at me over her shoulder, her eyes widening when she sees how close I am to her. “Wh—”She clears her throat. “What about you? Does your family live around here?”

“They live about forty-five minutes away. I drive to see them every few days.” I lean back against the counter so I can see her face.

“Are you close to them?”

“I am. My mom and dad are still married and still very much in love. I have three brothers—Asher, Trevor, and Cash. Asher is married and has four girls, Trevor is married and has both a daughter and a son on the way, and Cash has one of each too.”

“Cash isn’t married?”

“He was, and I’m sure he’ll be getting married again soon. His story is long and contains a lot of drama. His ex-wife is certifiably insane. Now he’s back with his first love, and they have their daughter and my nephew.”

“And you? You’ve never been married?”

“No. Have you?”

“No.” She looks at me, and I can see that she wants to say more. “I’ve never been married.”

All I can think is, Thank fuck. Her eyes get big, like she’s read my mind, and I smile as I watch her cheeks turn pink.

“Do you want me to help you with anything?”

“If you can strain the pasta, that would help.”

She walks to the sink and puts the colander down inside it before going to the fridge, where she pulls out a salad. Then she walks over to put it on the table. She makes her way back to the stove to turn off all the burners, and as I finish straining all the water from the noodles, I watch her, mesmerized, as she leans close to the sauce, inhales deeply, and lets out a soft moan. Again, she’s completely unaware of how fucking sexy she is.

I have to force myself to unlock the death grip I’ve unintentionally clamped onto her plastic colander. Luckily, I haven’t snapped it yet. When we have everything ready, we both sit at the table, where she starts putting the pasta on each of our plates.

“This is awkward,” she says, catching me off guard.

“Really? You think so?” I ask, not feeling the least bit out of place.

“You don’t?” she asks in response, her eyes meeting mine.

“No. Do you feel uncomfortable around me?”

“No, I guess not,” she says, taking a deep breath.

“As long as you don’t feel uncomfortable, awkward is okay.” I run my fingers over the top of her hand.

“I guess you’re right,” she concedes with a little shiver.

I unwillingly force my hand away from hers to pick up my fork, and while we eat, the conversation is light and easy. After we finish the simple but delicious dinner she cooked, we both stand in the kitchen, me with my hip to the counter, and her sitting across from me next to the sink after we finished washing the dishes.

“So, your dog is named Daisy?” She laughs as I pull out my phone to scroll through my pictures so I can show her some of Daisy.

“Here she is.” I hold my cell out to her.

She looks at the screen and her eyebrows rise. Then she brings her focus back to me with a curious look on her face. “She’s adorable. And so not the kind of dog I would expect you to have.”

“Why’s that?” I ask with a straight face, knowing the reason. Daisy is a cream-colored miniature Pomeranian who weighed about four pounds the last time I took her to the vet. She looks like she should be some blond-haired, blue-eyed valley girl’s lapdog.

“You just seem like you would own a Rottweiler or Doberman,” she says with a shrug.

“Is that so?” I raise an eyebrow.

“I’m sorry. that was rude.” She looks back down at the phone.

I put a finger under her chin, bringing her eyes back to me. “I’m just kidding. I know she doesn’t fit my image, but she’s mine. I rescued her while I was on a job when she was just a pup, and I had to bottle-feed her. She was so small she fit right in the palm of my hand,” I tell her, holding up my hand and smiling.

“Aww…you’re a proud papa.” The smile she gives me has me wanting to lean in and taste it.

“I guess I am.”

She goes back to looking at my phone, and I go back to watching her. She is beautiful in a way that is completely natural; none of it is fake or for show. It’s just her—who she is. She hands me my phone back, looking around before putting her eyes back on mine. “So, um…do you want to watch a movie or something?”

“Sure, if you’re up to it.”

“Yeah. I have Netflix and On-Demand, so you can pretty much pick whatever.”

I follow her into the living room and sit down on the sofa to watch as she sets up the TV before coming back to sit next to me. Her couch is small, so it forces her to sit close.

“What would you like to watch?” she asks, turning her head to me.

“Doesn’t matter.” I twirl a small piece of her hair that has fallen out of her messy bun around my finger.

“How about The Breakfast Club? I haven’t seen it in a long time,” she suggests, unconsciously tilting her head towards me.

“Sounds good.”

I want to kiss her. My brain is battling

against my body, wanting to get closer to her, wanting to taste her mouth again; it’s taking everything in me not to close the small gap between us. I watch her eyes flare slightly, and then she licks her bottom lip, making me wonder if she is thinking the same thing.

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