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Sisterhood Everlasting (Sisterhood 5)

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Oh, there was local flavor aplenty. There was a riverboat, and there were people shouting and milling about and selling things. She was supposed to be taking in the sights, she knew, but she could only think about the toy car inching out of the pocket of a little boy she would probably never see again.

Bridget slept on the bare mattress on the icehouse floor for a long night and most of a day. Sometimes she felt that her sleeping mind did better work than her waking mind.

She had millions of dreams, it seemed to her, all starting and stopping and twisting together. There was her grandfather, and Billy from her old soccer team in Burgess, Alabama. There was her old friend Diana who lived in a fancy suburb of New York City now with her husband and two kids. She dreamed of Carmen’s kitchen in the old apartment in Bethesda and the shoes she wore to senior prom. She dreamed of getting stung by a bee. She dreamed of the lake at the old soccer camp where she and Eric took out a canoe. That had been in Pennsylvania too. She dreamed of swimming in the turquoise Baja Sea with Eric when she was still fifteen and all she wanted in the world was to make him love her.

She dreamed of the time in Rehobeth Beach before they left for college, when she and Carmen, Tibby, and Lena had found one another at the edge of the ocean in the middle of the night and clustered and talked until morning. In her dream there was a fire in the middle of their circle, both illuminating and changing their faces.

When she finally opened her eyes, Bailey was staring at her, her face about two inches away. “Hi, baby,” Bridget said groggily.

“Hi, Bee.”

She sat up and Bailey climbed onto her mattress with her. Tibby’s little girl. There was no way she could leave this child.

She looked at the yellow light coming down through the skylight. She had no idea what time it was. “What’s up? Did your crib come?”

“Your crib come!” Bailey said.

“Can I see?”

Bailey climbed off the mattress and Bridget followed her to the main house. She kept looking back over her shoulder to make sure Bridget was right there.

For the first time, Bridget wished she had not thrown her phone into the ocean. Carmen was Carmen, Lena was Lena, she was herself, and the past had slipped back into place behind them. They hadn’t failed Tibby. They were infinitely diminished without her, but they were who they thought they were. She missed them. She needed to tell them what she knew. She needed to tell them that Bailey was in the world, brightening it by the hour. God, she missed them, how they once were.

It was not only the crib that had arrived. After the moving truck had fully disgorged its contents, a truck from Pottery Barn arrived carrying three sofas of different sizes, a half-dozen upholstered chairs, dining tables and chairs, bureaus, bed frames, night tables. A different truck brought a bunch of carpets and lamps. She and Bailey sat on the grass cheering like spectators at a soccer game, watching it happen.

She watched Brian directing it all, impressed. She was great at moving and leaving, but not that great at buying things, let alone putting them where they belonged.

Some furniture began to pile up on the grass outside of the icehouse. “Do you mind?” he asked. “I’d thought I’d cover the basics.”

“It’s your house,” Bridget said.

“No, it’s yours.”

“Brian, it’s not.”

“Tibby thought it was.”

She looked at him for resentment, but there wasn’t any. While she’d slept he’d forgiven her for her ignorance. “So can they move the stuff in?”

“Of course,” she said.

She and Bailey watched the men with the wide belts carry in a kitchen table, a desk, a small sofa, various chairs, a bureau, two table lamps and a floor lamp, even a headboard and frame for the bed. Once everything was in, she and Bailey climbed around on it all and played house. It seemed like great fun to both of them.

Bridget thought back to the four-poster bed Eric had bought on the last day that had caused her such trauma. She couldn’t understand it. That person felt like a stranger to her now. She watched Bailey jumping on the high, springy bed, and she couldn’t begin to understand.

Carmen stayed out until dark, just wandering. She was doing a poor job of taking in the external sights, maybe, but she was doing an extensive job of taking in her internal ones. After years of not thinking more than three thoughts in a row, that seemed more important.

Finally she stopped at an Apple store and watched with ambivalence as they got her phone, Tibby’s phone, working again. Particularly when the little icons flashed on, informing her she had twenty-seven phone messages, nineteen texts, and ninety-nine new emails. She felt a pang, a moment of grateful love, for the mysterious and often busted version of Tibby’s phone.

She didn’t check any of them. She just stuck the phone in her back pocket and kept walking. She imagined the train ride in the alternate universe where the phone had worked, where she’d called people and blabbed and answered 145 messages, all while casting nasty looks at the crying baby and the overwhelmed father across the aisle. Carmen felt like a lotus-eater who’d finally woken, looking back over long narcotic dreams.

There was a message light blinking on the phone in her hotel room when she eventually got there. Manager? Agent? Publicist? Mother? Fiancé? She threw herself facedown on the bed and just thought for a while. She was sure getting a lot more attached to the inside of her head.

And then it was time to get up and face the music. With trepidation she hit the message button and listened.

“I just wanted you to know that the formula held out, the Matchbox car was not lost, the diaper was only pee, and we made it safely to Metairie.” There was a noise Roberto made that she couldn’t decipher, like a cough. “Thank you, lovely Carmen … for everything.”

I like my body

when it is with your body.

It is so

quite new a thing.

Muscles better

and nerves more.

—e. e. cummings

Brian joined Bridget on the screened porch of her little house after he put Bailey to bed. He sat on one of the new kitchen chairs he’d brought out and she sat on the creaky iron daybed. They listened to the stream under the floor.

As the light was fading, the rain started. You could hear it drumming against the skylight and see it tapping the surface of the stream. It turned the trees into liquid green. It gave the air on the porch a texture and a taste. This little house was sunny, all right, but it was never more beautiful than in the rain.

“I know it might not feel like it,” Brian said, “but we are rejoining the world here.”

“Are we?”

“Yeah.”

“It doesn’t feel like it.”

“It will.”

“When?”

“Couple of days.”

“Really. How?”

“You wait. You’ll see.”

“Okay.”

“Enjoy the quiet while you have it.” Brian sounded like he was talking to himself.

“Okay.”

He gave her a hug before he started back to the main house. “Oh, one other thing.” He pulled his phone out of his pocket. “You want to borrow this?”

“Your phone?” He tossed it and she caught it. “Why?”

“In case you want to call anybody.”

Bridget sat on the porch with the phone for a long time, but she didn’t call anybody. She dragged the new floor lamp onto the porch with her, glad the cord reached far enough, and turned it on. She sat cross-legged on the daybed and finally opened Tibby’s other letter. She was still two days early, but she wasn’t afraid of it in the same way anymore.



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