With a sigh, I think about what it would be like to share one room with him. I bite my lip as I picture Mark undressing me in our hotel room and making love to me for the first time. That fantasy makes me wet between my legs.
That’s enough of that line of thinking for now, I tell myself, as I turn my attention back to booking our flights. I blush at my wild imagination and make myself focus strictly on work. It’s an honor to be chosen for such an important task. Even if the whole Ozark thing was my idea in the first place, I still need to work hard and make myself look good in the eyes of the company.
If I do a good job in Chicago, it can only help my career in the future. My thoughts take a different turn as I imagine myself receiving a promotion, or even a raise, because of my work on this project. That would enable me to change so many things about my life.
My spirits lifted, I throw myself back into the job.
After finishing the flight reservations, I permit myself a small glance at Mark’s office. I see he is busy at his desk, so I decide to get busy too. I print out copies of everything and make a file just for him.
After the majority of the preparations have been made, I excuse myself to the bathroom, and head out for a quick lunch. After the morning I had, I could really use the fresh air.
Though the hug is still fresh in my mind, I try to push away any dirty thoughts I had been having about my boss and me hooking up on this trip. Although it would be nice to finally lose my virginity to such a gorgeous man, I’m not willing to sacrifice my job or money for it.
Yes, I know I drool over him a lot, and honestly if something did happen between us, I wouldn’t fight him away, but there are just too many intangibles involved that make it scary.
I mean, what if I got fired?
Or he rejected me?
Or we both got fired?
Is it worth losing everything for just a one-time fling?
I know in the movies the woman always says yes, but this is reality. I have to be careful with things at work, because this income is all I have. Plus, with all the layoffs happening due to the pandemic, I wouldn’t be able to find any type of work again.
That thought makes me want to cancel everything and stay home, but I can’t. I’ve put in too much effort and worked too hard to make this happen.
I decide that I will go with him, but I will need to make sure things remain professional between us throughout the entire time. I’m sure he would agree with me. I highly doubt he would be willing to risk his massive salary for a night of fun.
I sigh softly. The thought of doing it is still nice, though. I smile as I remember the hug again. At least I’ll always have that, the way his arms felt around me for a few seconds. I can use that in my fantasies sometime.
I laugh at myself when I realize I have been walking in circles outside the office for 20 minutes. My lunch is almost over.
I hurry back inside to the break room, where I quickly buy a bag of chips and a soda. I eat them as fast as I can before going back to my desk to work. Mark’s office is empty, so I assume he’s out to lunch as well.
I’m a little disappointed but I just shrug a little and tell myself to pay attention. I remind myself of my resolution. I need to work as hard as I can to make it happen. I look around my desk at what needs to be done.
Now that the travel arrangements have been made, I can concentrate on the normal office work. It’s a lot of typing and filing, as several cases have been completed and their paperwork needs to be put away. This kind of work involves details, so I’m thankfully distracted from any further thoughts about Mark for the rest of the day.
By the time it’s five o’clock in the evening, I’m finishing up with the last case. I’m proud of myself for having stayed focused for so long. Not only that, I knocked out all my work for the day.
I switch off my computer and grab my purse. My excitement returns as I realize I can go home and pack for my trip. I’m so excited that I hurry out of the office without bothering to see if my boss already left.
“That’s okay. I’ll see him tomorrow,” I remind myself as I get in my car and drive off.