“L-love? So all this time, you’ve been sneaking around behind my back? I kept asking Zach what was wrong, and he said nothing. Neither of you said anything. Were you laughing at me the whole time?” Mia said, stricken.
“No,” Zach said. “Come on, you know us better than that. ”
“Do I? You’re both liars. ” Mia’s eyes filled with tears. She spun on her heels and ran for the row of school buses, climbing aboard just as the doors closed.
Lexi saw Mia on the bus, staring at them through the cloudy window, her pale face streaked with tears, her hand pressed to the glass.
Zach put his arm around her. “It’s okay, Lex. She’ll be okay with this. I promise. ”
“What if it isn’t?” Lexi whispered. “What if she never forgives me?”
* * *
For the next several hours, Lexi sat in her lonely bedroom, staring into a future without Mia’s friendship.
Yeah, she loved Zach. With all of her heart and soul, but she didn’t love Mia any less. It was a different emotion, rounder and softer and more comfortable; maybe it was more solid and reliable, too. All she knew was that she couldn’t trade one for the other. That would be like having to choose between air to breathe and water to drink. She needed both to survive.
She never should have kept this secret from her friend. She should have done the right thing from the beginning—if she had, none of this would be happening now. It was a truth she should have learned from her childhood. Always do the right thing from the start. Instead, she’d done the wrong thing and hurt her best friend’s feelings.
She knew what she had to do. She left her small, tidy bedroom and walked down the narrow hallway to the living room, where she found Eva sitting on the couch, watching TV.
“Can I go to Mia’s house?” Lexi said.
“At this hour? On a school night?”
“It’s important,” Lexi said. She didn’t know what she’d do if her aunt said no.
Eva looked at her. “This about that boy of yours?”
Lexi nodded.
“You going to do the right thing?”
Lexi nodded again, realizing with a jolt of shame that Eva had known what was going on all along. “I have to tell Mia the truth. ”
“The truth is always a good thing. ” Eva set down the remote. The pleats in her careworn face were emphasized by a smile. “You’re a good girl, Lexi. ”
Lexi hated how that made her feel. She hadn’t been a good girl lately. She swallowed hard, smiled one time, briefly, almost desperately, and then she left the house.
In almost no time, the county bus had dropped her off on Night Road. She walked the last few hundred yards to the Farraday house, which was blazing with lights on this dark autumn night. She picked her way through the carefully landscaped front yard and went up to the front door. She hesitated for a moment and then rang the bell.
Long minutes passed and finally Zach answered. “Lex,” he said, looking broken. “She won’t talk to me. ”
“Are your parents here?”
He shook his head. “She’s upstairs. ”
Lexi nodded and moved past him, going up the stairs. At Mia’s room, she didn’t even knock, just pushed the door open and went inside. Mia stood by the big oval mirror. Even in the shadowy light, Lexi could see how wounded Mia had been by them. “Mia,” Lexi said, moving forward. She felt Zach come up behind her.
“I trusted you,” Mia said, her mouth trembling.
Lexi would have preferred anger, screaming; anything would have been better than Mia’s quiet heartbreak. “Mia, you’re the best friend I’ve ever had. I love you like a sister, and I’m sorry if I hurt you. ”
“You did. You both did. ”
“I know. But I want you to know how much you matter to me. No one has ever mattered as much. You have to believe that. If you want me to break up with him, I will—”
“Don’t say that,” Zach said, stepping toward her.