Chapter 26 – Garrett
What? Pregnant… Jill is pregnant. With my child, of course. I know that she hasn’t been with anyone else. She just isn’t like that at all. I am about to have a child. This is terrifying.
Jill spins on her heels and runs away from me. She takes off rapidly, not heading towards her office but to the front door. She’s leaving, exiting the building, because I didn’t speak quick enough. I didn’t need to find the perfect words, I just needed to say something, but I let her down again.
“Fuck.” I smack my palm to my forehead. “Fuck, you really are an idiot, Garrett.”
It’s just been such a long time since she actively sought me out, so for her to come for me with that news… I’m sure that was hard. I think, this is great news. I have been thinking for such a long time that fate has been trying to push me and Jill apart, but this is clear evidence that we are supposed to be together.
“Shit.” Without thinking about it for another second longer, I race towards Harry’s office. I want to chase Jill down to speak to her about all of this, but I don’t want both of us to lose our jobs. If we are about to have a child we’ll need money more than ever. There will be so much for us to buy. “Harry… you here?”
I burst into his office to see his eyes wide with shock. He makes some comment about me looking like shit which I decide to dismiss because I really have no interest in how I look right now. That’s not important.
“Harry, Jill is really sick. She just came back to work, but she’s gone again.”
“She hasn’t been looking too well,” Harry agrees with a nod. “I thought that when I saw her before.”
“Right, and I don’t want to leave her alone. As you know, we both have a prior connection…”
“You used to be together,” he declares with a slight twinkle in his eye. I guess right now he’s thinking about me all that time ago when I stormed into his office to complain about her. “I remember.”
“Right, so with her father gone and her being alone, I want to help her…”
“Sure, sure.” Harry waves his hand dismissively towards me with a smile playing on his lips the entire time. “You go. Help her, make sure that Jill is okay before she comes back to work.”
There are some things that I would like to clarify for Harry, to make sure that he doesn’t have the wrong impression, but now really isn’t the time. I need to go. So, I take off. I jump into the car to speed off behind Jill. I’m pretty sure that she went home which is exactly where I need to be. My heart pounds the entire time I drive. I barely know if I’m sticking to the speed limit or not. I can hardly focus.
Jill and I might end up together after all of this, that’s what I want, what I’ve always wanted. It’s a scary prospect. But, I think we would be great parents. Out of all of the tragedy that me and Jill have gone through, we might actually get our happily ever after because of a mistake. But Im okay with that. Loving Jill has never been a mistake.
As soon as I am at Jill’s house, I leap out of the car and run towards her front door. I curl my fist up and bang hard. Harder than I would normally knock on any door, but this is a desperate time. I need to see her.
“Hey, what is going on?” I’m relieved as I hear her yelling through the door.
“It’s Garrett, please open the door. I need to speak to you,” I plead. “I’m sorry. I was shocked when you told me at the office, and I didn’t get out everything that I wanted to. I need to speak to you… please.”
The door opens, much to my relief, and I see a shocked pair of eyes staring back at me. “Garrett?”
“Jill, we are having a baby,” I gasp out. “I know that we have been ‘just friends’ or whatever, and I’ve been trying to give you space, but I want to be with you. I know that we have faced a lot of trauma but I still think that we’re meant to be together. I don’t know about you, but I haven’t ever felt this way about anyone before. You are so special to me.”
She looks awful. I can’t tell if my words are helping my case in getting back together or pushing her to run.
“Erm… do you want to come inside?” she asks me with a trembling voice.
Okay, that’s good. At least she isn’t pushing me away. I nod and follow her inside the house.