I leave her and return to Killian’s bedside. I don’t need her adding to my stress.
Chapter 3
Killian
The loud music is back. I can feel someone stroking my face and hear a soft but melancholy voice in my ear.
“Come back to me, babe. I need you, Killian.”
“I need you.”
“Don’t leave me.”
“I love you. I’m sorry.”
“I forgive you.”
“Fight for me.”
“Fight for us.”
I’m fighting, baby. I’m fighting so damn hard, but it hurts.
Fast cars. Fast girls. Powder blue eyes that set my soul on fire. Liri Hart owns me. Always Liri. I wanted to marry that girl one day. I ruined us. I ruined her. I ruin everything I touch. She’d be better off without me, but I love her, and I can’t give her up.
I’ll come back to you, baby. I’m coming back to you.
Round and round on this carousel.
I’ll set this world on fire to get to her.
Flashing lights. Her ass in those damn pink tights with hearts on them. Her face lights up, and I sink inside her and forget all the bad. I push all the hurt away.
Just let me hold you, baby.
“You were such a jerk.”
“I knew when you kissed me, I’d never want to kiss anyone else ever.”
“Come back to me, Killian.”
“Can you hear me?”
“Please, Killian. I don’t want to be without you.”
Her fingers caress me, and I try so hard to reach out and touch her.
Don’t ever let me go.
I feel you, baby.
I hear you.
Don’t give up on me.
The slideshow of my life returns.
Liri is gone and all I see is a rainy day. I’m riding my bike. My stupid brother forgot about me. My sneakers squeak on the linoleum.