“You don’t have to stay with me tonight Kai. I understand if you see me differently.”
“What gives you that idea?” he sounds offended.
“Because you act like you are afraid to touch me right now. You either think I am dirty or made of glass.”
He grabs my face and smashes his lips into mine harshly. “Nothing could ever make me think you are dirty Kat. I just didn’t want to take advantage of you when you are upset. I. Love. You.”
I feel relief wash over me because Kai accepts me, dirty, broken and used.
“I just want to forget that part of me,” I tell him.
“Baby, that makes you who you are. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You did nothing wrong, that was all whoever hurt you.”
“Please Kai; I just want to block it all out again. I don’t want to remember, help me forget that anyone has ever touched me but you.”
He gets up and locks my door, taking his shorts off as he comes back to bed.
Chapter 19
The next few days of our trip pass by us in a blur. Kai and I have grown closer if that is even possible. Khloe has kept us busy from sun up until sun down. That kid has crazy energy, even with the sun draining us each day. We’ve built sandcastles and played in the waves. I am pretty sure I have sand stuck in places that I didn’t even know existed on my body. We stuff ourselves with corn dogs and cotton candy. Kai won both of us stuffed dolphins playing one of those silly carnival games where you shoot water at ducks and try to knock them over.
The rest of the band is coming sometime today. Kai is using the excuse that the guys need to crash in his room for another reason to sleep in my room with me. His mom is on to him though. She tells him that we can ask for a roll away bed for him, and he can either sleep on it in her room or his, but not in mine. I thinks she knows Kai and I are intimate, with how touchy feely he is with me. If Kai is isn’t holding my hand or kissing me, he is staring at me. Not that I am complaining.
I have been getting sad face texts from Raven all day telling me I had better keep Jake in check for her. They are playing tomorrow night at some club, and then we are leaving Friday morning. Jake said I might not get into the club since I am not eighteen. Kai says he will tell them I am their backup singer if he has to.
I cannot wait to see him play on stage. I know I have watched the guys practice but that is nothing compared to this. Raven has me on strict orders to take a video of their performance so she can post it to their site and YouTube channel once we get back home.
Kai has gone to meet the guys downstairs and bring them up to the room. Kelli said she is treating herself, Khloe and me to an evening at the spa. We are getting facials, mani-pedis, and massages. I am looking forward to being pampered. It gives Kai a break from us too. I don’t want him to get sick of me, because we are always together now that I live with his family.
Jake, Hunter and Vance come straggling through the door looking rough. They drove straight through only stopping for gas and piss breaks as Vance puts it. Khloe says, “Bad Vance you owe Khloe a dollar.”
He gets his wallet out and hands her a five. “Here this should cover the rest of the day,” he jokes.
Kai’s mom shakes her head and tells Khloe and me to come on before we are late for our evening of pampering.
By the time, I leave the spa, I feel buffed and polished all over. There was an awkward moment when Mrs. Cooper and I talked about getting Brazilians. She said she didn’t even think of it when she made my appointment, it came with the package. I am sure Kai will appreciate it greatly, but I didn’t tell her that.
Back in the room, I have a note from Kai telling me he went out to dinner with the band. I am glad he is out having a good time. I eat dinner with Khloe and Kelli in the room. She ordered from the hotel restaurant and had it brought up for us. This is the sort of thing a girl should be enjoying, with her own mom, and my heart aches for what I have never had with my own mother.
I notice it is getting late and Kai and the guys haven’t come in yet. Guess he will have to wait until tomorrow to hear about my new look, in my intimate area. When I get in my bed, I pull my phone out and see that I have a missed text from Raven.
Raven: Are you out with the guys?
Me: no, been hanging with Kelli and Khloe, why?
Raven: Jake sent me a picture of them at the club they are performing at tomorrow night and there was a bunch of slutty looking bitches sitting with them.
She forwards the image to me. My stomach drops seeing a pretty, busty blonde sitting between Kai and Hunter. I remember his words, ‘there will be lots of girls and I will flirt with them for my music.’ I am trying not to let it get under my skin, Kai wants to be a musician, groupie girls comes with that life.
Me: I am sure it is nothing. Don’t worry.
Raven: Easier said than done. Jake has never been a one girl kinda guy.
Me: I wish I had something wise and reassuring to say right now but I don’t. Just trust that he wants you to be the only girl for him, but if he doesn’t then screw him.
Raven: Aren’t you pissed at Kai? He is out with other girls without you!
Me: I trust him. Is there a reason I shouldn’t?