Jared and Evan had stepped out of the tub to grab another beer, and they were talking over near the guest house. That left Gabe and I alone in the hot tub.
“You sure about this?” I asked him, keeping my voice low.
“I am,” he said. “I already told you that I still love you, Hadley. I meant it. And if you want another child, I'd be more than happy to help give it to you.”
“Yeah, but what about them, you know – helping out?” I said, nibbling my lower lip.
Gabe's eyes seemed darker than usual. More brown than green. His face was tilted upward, his chin held out in a defiant gesture, his jaw clenched tightly. The moonlight spilled across him, illuminating his high cheek bones and the exquisite lines of his face. God, he was so beautiful.
I knew that look. It was a look of determination. It was the look he got when he had his mind set on something.
“I'll just have to learn to deal with it,” he said. “If that's what you want, then I'll go along. This is what you want, isn't it?”
I nodded. “I can't explain it, but I like the idea of not knowing which one of you is the father,” I said, a flutter of excitement in my belly. “I think it'll help prevent favoritism.”
He sighed. “Well, it's not like you and I are getting back together anyway...”
My stomach turned hearing those words fall from his mouth. Part of me had hoped there might be a future with him. Deep down, I knew that he couldn't be everything I needed. He went through periods of closing himself off, of focusing on his career, to the exclusion of everything else. I didn't fault him for it in the least. It's what made him so successful – that sometimes tunnel vision.
I needed more than that in life though. Besides, I couldn't deny that I had feelings for Evan and Jared too – something that surprised me as much as anything. As weird as it sounded, I didn't want to lose any of them, which meant I wouldn't choose amongst them.
Maybe it was selfish, but in this regard, I most definitely wanted my cake and to eat it too.
“But you're okay having sex?” I said with a grin.
“Hell yes,” he said. “Sex with you was always phenomenal. And I can only imagine it's like a fine wine – it'll be better with age.”
“Mmm,” I said, leaning in closer to Gabe, “that it was.”
r /> Our lips met, and Gabe took my face into his hands. Unlike our episode in the bathroom, we both knew that this was going nowhere. It was just sex. That was something we could both get on board with, right? It seemed so. Either that or the alcohol lowered his inhibitions because his fingers were moving lower and lower on my body, sliding all the way down until he was cupping my breasts in his hands.
I giggled playfully. “Your brothers are right over there.”
He side-eyed them. “They look lost in their own little worlds,” he said. “I bet Evan is trying to draw up an organized little Excel spreadsheet and a flowchart that says which days we get to be with you.”
I laughed out loud. He was right though, they were off in their own little world. Plus, I found that I didn't really care much. If we were doing this – if we were really doing this – I would eventually be with all of them anyway. The idea of having sex with all three of the Walker brothers only fueled my desire. Gabe brushed his fingers against my nipple, stiff and sensitive, and I whimpered.
I moved quickly, straddling his lap before he could stop me. His hands moved down my sides, grabbing my hips and holding me against him. I gasped as I felt his hard cock pressing against my swimsuit bottom and I ground myself into him, the desire to have him inside of me building with each passing second. He let out a soft groan as I kissed his neck.
“Shh,” I said, pressing my finger to his lips.
He took my finger into his mouth and sucked on it, a mischievous grin on his face. I glanced over my shoulder and grinned. Evan and Jared were too absorbed in their conversation that neither one of them was facing us, so I slipped my other hand down into Gabe's trunks, gripping and squeezing him tightly.
My finger fell from his lips, and his eyes rolled back into his head as I stroked his erection, rubbing it against my body. I leaned into him and whispered into his ear.
“You know, you could get a head start on the baby making thing, if you'd like,” I said. “I'm not on any sort of birth control right now.”
Gabe shuddered against me, as if my words alone touched parts of him no hand ever could. Gabe's hands moved beneath the water and found my bikini bottom. His eyes boring into mine, he answered me without his words, instead, he pulled my bottoms to the side and rubbed my clit with his fingers. I moaned softly as I guided his cock closer. He took it into his hand, pushing it against my opening.
Feeling the tip of him against me sent a surge of power through my body that I hadn't felt in so long. A bolt of electricity shot from my clit, sensation exploding within me that stretched from my toes to the top of my head.
There was some resistance and friction as he slipped into me, thanks to the water washing away most of my natural lubrication. But, I ignored it and lowered myself down on him, taking him all the way inside of me inch by inch. He was long and hard, and stretched me open as he plunged himself into me.
Gabe was fully sheathed within me. He filled me up completely, and I swear, it felt just like old times. His hands guided my body as I ground myself down onto him. Both of us straining to be quiet and keep the water from sloshing too much, as we fucked in the hot tub, not even ten feet from where his brothers stood.
He glanced over my shoulder, even though from where they were standing, it could look innocent enough. We were kissing. Making out. Nothing more, right?
Then, they weren't stupid either. I was sure that if they happened to look over, they'd figure out what was going on pretty quick.