He looked regretful at my response. I knew that a lot of the issues were mine to deal with. I just hoped he saw that too. He’d had his past thrown back in his face enough to last a lifetime.
“Well I have…. For you.”
I couldn’t help putting my head on his chest, it felt natural to sit with him like this.
“So what happened when you left and went to your Nan’s? Please don’t gloss over it. I want to know exactly what happened and where this Simon fits in.”
He put both of his arms round me and held me as I recounted the whole sorry tale in as much detail as I could remember. When I was finished we were both crying. He had tears in his eyes and I was full on sobbing.
“Ella, I’ll never forgive myself for not being there with you.”
“You can’t say that, you didn’t even know I was pregnant let alone in the hospital.”
I put my hands on his face and turned him to look at me, I didn’t want him to beat himself up over something he had zero control of. No matter what we’d been through I still loved him.
Then he leaned forward and he kissed me. Soft gentle lips that tasted of whisky and him. My favourite taste in the whole world. I couldn’t stop myself from kissing him back, all the talk of the baby and emotions it had stirred up made me want the closeness, I wanted to feel something other than this searing painful sadness.
He deepened the kiss and I felt a familiar stir in my tummy and between my legs. I wanted him, I felt desperate with need for him. I put my hands behind his head and kissed him back with everything I had, raking my nails through his hair. He groaned into me and pushed me down onto the sofa, pressing his heavy hard body over mine. I felt safe and protected by him, but I needed more, I needed closer.
He continued kissing me his tongue playing and toying with mine as he used one hand to run up the length of my thigh and lift the skirt of my sundress. Then he was pulling, yanking at my underwear, and I let him. I moaned back at him and used both hands to pull on the belt of his jeans and the release the buttons to let his cock spring free. I’d missed him so much I couldn’t wait much longer. I wrapped my fingers round him and rubbed and caressed him as he used his fingers to play with my clit. He pushed his finger inside me and I arched my back into him.
“I need you.” I gasped without a thought for the consequences.
“I know.” He groaned back and before I could catch my next breath he knocked my hand away and pushed his cock into me, no build up just zero to one hundred. His size making me gasp and moan at the same time. The way he stretched me felt too good, I’d missed this so much.
He stilled himself, buried deep inside me and panting over me. He was trying to compose himself.
“This is gonna be quick Ella, I’ve been without you for so long I’m ready to explode.”
Then he was pounding into me, making me cry out loud it was feral, animal fucking. It was what we both needed. I grabbed his ass as he thrust into me, over and over again. He was grunting and crying out with me, we couldn’t get enough of each other. Each time he thrust forward he pushed me further and further up that mountain towards the pinnacle of what would be a mind blowing orgasm after being away from him for so long.
I felt the tingle of nerve endings sparking to life and my muscles started to contract around him, my walls squeezing him and bringing him to his own climax.
“Fuck Ella control it, wait for me.” He gasped, so I held on as best I could, the delicious pulsing driving me wild as they intensified with each second. I was clinging to him now I was so out of control.
A few more hard, directed thrusts and then he shouted, “Now, Ella. Come for me baby.”
My whole body started to shake uncontrollably like some kind of broken washing machine, I was lost to him. My walls around his cock contracted hard and the whole of my pussy exploded around him, my clit throbbing and pulsing out of control, and it went on and on and on. I’d never felt anything like it before. His body went lifeless with the intensity of it all and he lay over me, our joint sweat running off our bodies and our panting so loud I imagined every person in the building had heard us.
We both lay there for an eternity, getting our breath back and finding our voices. When we were both breathing normally he turned his head and kissed me on the neck and then my cheek.
“I love you Ella. Please don’t ever leave me again.”
Shit I had done it again. I’d let him smother me with his affection, that quick sand of lust never failed to trap me, and now I was stuck in the bubble that was Joe. My promise to myself had been broken at the first test. I had zero self-control when it came to him. What had I done?
I braced myself for the after effects of the volcano that was about to explode next to me. “I’m not coming back to you Joe. I’ve already told you I need time to be by myself.”
He raised himself up with his arms to loom over me, a look of absolute disbelief on his beautiful face.
“You played me!”
“I ha
ven’t played you Joe, we both got carried away.”
“The fuck you did, you played me. I know when I’m being played Ella. What the fuck was that?”
“I shouldn’t have let it happen, it was a mistake.” I couldn’t look him in the eyes right now I felt humiliated and embarrassed by my actions.