“God, you are so beautiful,” he moans. “You have no idea how thrilling it is for me to look at you.”
I get what he means though, not when it comes to me but I haven’t ever laid eyes on anything as gorgeous as him either. He literally blows my mind because he is so stunning. I just want to touch him all over.
It isn’t long until I finally feel all of him. He swells inside of me, touching every inch of my insides, making my head spin all over again. The sounds of our bodies clapping together with each and every thrust intensifies the warm feelings inside of me. There is passion, there is lust, there is something much deeper as well. It could be me falling head first in to love, I’m not quite sure. It shouldn’t be, I need to be more careful than that, but if it’s happening then there isn’t anything that I can do to stop it. I am really losing it for this man…
The next time I’m swallowed up with pleasure, Will is with me, he is erupting in sheer bliss at the same time as me. We kiss one another to swallow up each other’s screams which only increases our bond. I feel even more connected to him, which is dangerous, it’s scary. I cling to him tightly, I try to hold him with every single part of me, I want to gasp through the last orgasmic blissful breaths together, just in case something drastic happens next. However much my brain has switched off, I can still feel the creeping sense that something needs to happen soon. I just don’t know what and I don’t know when we will be able to address this…
The post orgasmic happiness doesn’t last for long. It isn’t too much time before the ice cold creeping sense of dread overcomes me and I can’t ignore it any longer. The lust totally overshadowed my brain, it took any rationality away from me, it stopped me from thinking about anything and everything sensible.
But now…now I can’t think of anything else. I pull the covers up to my chest to hide my body away while I think about what we should do next. I can’t continually lose myself to this man if I’m going to be working with him. That’s why this conversation needed to happen anyway. That’s why I came here and shouldn’t have fallen in bed with him. Now, everything is about to become a lot more complicated.
“Erm, Will…” I practically whisper. “Mr. Brent, I think that we still need to talk about this…”
As I prop up onto my elbows, I see disappointment shining in his eyes. He doesn’t like this at all. I think he assumed that us sleeping together would mean us remaining together, but that isn’t the case. This is why we shouldn’t have gotten into this position. God, I can really feel myself freaking out here, this is a nightmare.
“I still don’t think that we can be together,” I tell him, avoiding his eyes. “Not if we’re working as well and I need the job. I can’t lose the job, you have no idea how much I need it. I can’t explain.”
I slide out of the bed and try to cover myself up once more without making him see me. I don’t want him to look at me now. I want to be as hidden away as possible.
“We can carry on dating in secret, right?” He cocks an eyebrow at me. “We don’t have to let anyone at work know. Surely, me and you can find a way to make this work. It doesn’t have to end right now.”
It’s kinda tempting, I have to be honest about that, but all I can really concentrate on is all the ways that this can go wrong. Considering Alisha and the other guys in the office are almost my friends, I’m too scared for them to learn the truth. It will change things. It will alter my position in the office. I don’t think it will work.
“I don’t know.” I shake my head hard. “I don’t think this can work, Will. I think we should walk away from this and just become colleagues. I think this will get too messy if we try to mix everything together.”
Tears stream down my face as I run towards the door, which only get worse by him calling out after me, begging me to stay, but this has to be the right thing to do. I’m being sensible here. It hurts, but this feels like the right way for us to go…
Chapter 12 – William
I hate this. My heart sinks as I see Serena sitting at her desk in the office, focused on working, trying to be the best employee that she can be. I hate that I can only see her at work now. Ever since she ran out on me the other day, thinks have been strained between us. I don’t ever see her in the apartment block anymore, she is clearly trying her hardest to avoid me, and it sucks. I don’t want us to just be colleagues, I thought I made that perfectly clear, but she doesn’t seem to pursue with our relationship. Unfortunately, Serena can only see what could go wrong with us and not what could go right. This is insane.