Before I Die

My touch spurs her on and, much like the first night in the club, she attacks me. Her arms go around my nape and her legs wrap around my torso. I hold her tightly, walking us over to the back patio that’s ready and set up for an outdoor barbeque.

Setting her on the tiled counter, I peel her jeans off her, taking her underwear with them. Completely naked and exposed to the cold air, she shivers slightly. For a brief moment I worry maybe we should go inside. She might be all smiles, but she still has a brain tumor.

But before I can voice my concern, as if she knows exactly what I’m thinking, she says, “I’m okay, Ethan.” Taking my face in her hands, she brushes a teasing kiss to my lips. “Please, just be in the moment with me.”

“There’s nowhere else I’d rather be,” I tell her before I press my mouth against hers. Her lips are cold and soft and plump. I run my tongue across her bottom lip then bite down on it, sucking it into my mouth.

Gripping her hips, I drag her to the edge and, spreading her thighs, bury myself as deep as I can go in her warmth. Her ass lifts and she meets me thrust for thrust. Her fingers stroke my hair while mine stroke her clit.

The only sounds that can be heard are from our bodies meeting and our skin slapping against each other. I find the slender column of her neck, sucking and kissing her overheated flesh. She tastes sweet, and I inhale deeply, needing her like I need oxygen. She exhales a soft moan, and then her walls tighten around me, milking my dick of every drop of cum in me.

We stay like this for several minutes, our bodies staying connected in the most intimate way, while we come down from our high. She’s so quiet, I would think if we weren’t outside in the cool weather, she fell asleep.

That is until I hear a sniffle.

Pulling back, I look into her eyes and find fat tears rolling down her cheeks.

“What’s wrong, Angel?” I swipe the falling tear.

“Nothing,” she says, her voice cracking and several more tears falling. “Everything is absolutely perfect.” She snakes her arms around me and nuzzles her face into my neck. “I love you so much, Ethan. I’m trying to be strong. I’m trying to live for right now, in the moment, but I’m scared. I’m so damn scared I’m going to die.”

I close my eyes and take deep breaths, trying like hell to remain strong for my girl. My heart is constricting and my stomach feels like a two-ton weight has been dropped in it.

Nevaeh pulls back and sniffles. Her nose and cheeks are tinted pink. “When I made that list I didn’t know how to put into words what I wanted, what I craved. I had just found out about my tumor and I freaked out, scared I was going to die before I lived. So I went online and looked up the most popular bucket list items and that’s how my list was formed. But no matter which items I checked off, it still didn’t feel like I was living. I thought it was because I wasn’t doing the fun ones.”

She hiccups through a sob and I want to shush her. Tell her it’s okay, and I get it. But she has thoughts swirling in her head that she needs to get out, so I keep quiet and let her say what she needs to say.

“I didn’t know it at the time, but it wasn’t about the items. It was about the moments, the memories. When I’m with you, my body feels alive. My heart beats harder, faster. Electricity flows through my veins. It doesn’t matter what we’re doing, where we are. As long as I’m with you, I’m living and loving.”

Her mouth tips into a watery smile and, framing my cheeks with her cold palms, she says, “I used to be scared I was going to die before I lived. But now that I’m finally living, I’m scared I’m going to lose everything I have.”

And while I want to argue with her, I can’t, because I’m feeling her every word she’s saying down to my very core.

Nevaeh

“I wish we could travel forever,” I tell Ethan as he pulls into our driveway. After spending a week in the mountains, we spent a few days in Orlando, visiting the Disney parks. We went on every ride at every park that wasn’t too strenuous and wouldn’t risk making me dizzy. We ate our weight in candy and treats, and got to see the most amazing firework show at Magic Kingdom. On the way back, we stopped in D.C. and checked out a bunch of the museums that looked interesting, and even did a tour of the Capitol and the Treasury. The entire trip was beyond amazing.