Wallingford hung up, doubting that Marilyn would call back--she didn't. But after that, he had a lot to say to Monika with a k; they hadn't had the best night's sleep.
In the morning, at the Great Ganesh, the way everything had started out seemed a little anticlimactic. The ringmaster's repeated complaints about the Indian government were not nearly so sympathetic as the fallen trapeze artist's description of the ten-armed goddess in whom all the aerialists believed.
Were they deaf and blind in the newsroom in New York? That widow in her hospital bed had been great stuff! And Wallingford still wanted to tell the story of the context of the trapeze artist falling without a safety net. The child performers were the context, those children who'd been sold to the circus.
What if the trapeze artist herself had been sold to the circus as a child? What if her late husband had been rescued from a no-future childhood, only to meet his fate--his wife falling into his arms from eighty feet--under the big top? That would have been interesting.
Instead, Patrick was interviewing the repetitive ringmaster in front of the lions' cage--this commonplace circus image being what New York had meant by "additional local color."
No wonder the interview seemed anticlimactic compared to Wallingford's night with the German sound technician. Monika with a k, in her T-shirt without a bra, was making a noticeable impression on the Muslim meat wallahs, who had taken offense at the German girl's clothes, or lack thereof. In their fear, their curiosity, their moral outrage, they would have given a better and truer depiction of additional local color than the tiresome ringmaster.
Near the lions' cage, but appearing either too afraid or too dumbfounded or too offended to come any closer, the Muslims stood as if in shock. Their wooden carts were piled high with the sweet-smelling meat, which was a source of infinite disgust to the largely vegetarian (Hindu) community of the circus. Naturally the lions could smell the meat, too, and were vexed at the delay.
When the lions began roaring, the cameraman zoomed in on them, and Patrick Wallingford--recognizing a moment of genuine spontaneity--extended his microphone to within reach of their cage. He got a better kicker than he'd bargained for.
A paw flicked out; a claw caught Wallingford's left wrist. He dropped the microphone. In less than two seconds, his left arm, up to his elbow, had been snatched inside the cage. His left shoulder was slammed against the bars; his left hand, including an inch or more above his wrist, was in a lion's mouth.
In the ensuing hullabaloo, two other lions competed with the first for Patrick's wrist and hand. The lion tamer, who was never far from his lions, intervened; he struck them in their faces with a shovel. Wallingford retained consciousness long enough to recognize the shovel--it was used principally as a lion pooper-scooper. (He'd seen it in action only minutes before.)
Patrick passed out somewhere in the vicinity of the meat carts, not far from where Monika with a k had sympathetically fainted. But the German girl had fainted in one of the meat carts, to the considerable consternation of the meat wallahs; and when she came to, she discovered that her tool belt had been stolen while she'd lain unconscious in the wet meat.
The German sound technician further claimed that, while she was passed out, someone had fondled her breasts--she had fingerprint bruises on both breasts to prove it. But there were no handprints among the bloodstains on her T-shirt. (The bloodstains were from the meat.) It was more likely that the bruises on her breasts were the result of her nightlong lovemaking with Patrick Wallingford. Whoever had been bold enough to swipe her tool belt had probably lacked the courage to touch her breasts. No one had touched her headphones.
Wallingford, in turn, had been dragged away from the lions' cage without realizing that his left hand and wrist were gone; yet he was aware that the lions were still fighting over something. At the same moment that the sweet smell of the mutton reached him, he realized that the Muslims were transfixed by his dangling left arm. (The force of the lion's pull had separated his shoulder.) And when he looked, he saw that his watch was missing. He was not that sorry to have lost it--it had been a gift from his wife. Of course there was nothing to keep the watch from slipping off; his left hand and the big joint of his left wrist were missing, too.
Not finding a familiar face among the Muslim meat wallahs, Wallingford had doubtless hoped to locate Monika with a k, stricken but no less adoring. Unfortunately, the German girl was flat on her back in one of the mutton carts, her face turned away.
Patrick took some bitter consolation from seeing, if not the face, at least the profile of his unfazed cameraman, who had never wavered from his foremost responsibility. The determined professional had moved in close to the lions' cage, where the lions were caught in the act of not very agreeably sharing what little remained of Patrick's wrist and hand. Talk about a good kicker!
For the next week or more, Wallingford watched and rewatched the footage of his hand being taken from him and consumed. It puzzled him that the attack reminded him of something mystifying his thesis adviser had said to him when she was breaking off their affair: "It's been flattering, for a while, to be with a man who can so thoroughly lose himself in a woman. On the other hand, there's so little you in you that I suspect you could lose yourself in any woman." Just what on earth she could have meant by that, or why the eating of his hand had caused him to recall the complaining woman's remarks, he didn't know.
But what chiefly distressed Wallingford, in the less-than-thirty seconds it took a lion to dispose of his wrist and hand, was that the arresting images of himself were no
t pictures of Patrick Wallingford as he had ever looked before. He'd had no previous experience with abject terror. The worst of the pain came later.
In India, for reasons that were never clear, the government minister who was an activist for animal rights used the hand-eating episode to further the crusade against the abuse of circus animals. How eating his hand had abused the lions, Wallingford never knew.
What concerned him was that the world had seen him scream and writhe in pain and fear; he'd wet his pants on-camera, not that a single television viewer had truly seen him do that. (He'd been wearing dark pants.) Nevertheless, he was an object of pity for millions, before whom he'd been publicly disfigured.
Even five years later, whenever Wallingford remembered or dreamed about the episode, the effect of the painkiller was foremost in his mind. The drug was not available in the United States--at least that was what the Indian doctor had told him. Wallingford had been trying to find out what it was ever since.
Whatever its name, the drug had elevated Patrick's consciousness of his pain while at the same time leaving him utterly detached from the pain itself; it had made him feel like an indifferent observer of someone else. And in elevating his consciousness, the drug did far more than relieve his pain.
The doctor who'd prescribed the medication, which came in the form of a cobalt-blue capsule--"Take only one, Mr. Wallingford, every twelve hours"--was a Parsi who treated him after the lion attack in Junagadh. "It's for the best dream you'll ever have, but it's also for pain," Dr. Chothia added. "Don't ever take two. Americans are always taking pills in twos. Not this one."
"What's it called? I presume it has a name." Wallingford was suspicious of it.
"After you take one, you won't remember what it's called," Dr. Chothia told him cheerfully. "And you won't hear its name in America--your FDA guys will never approve it!"
"Why?" Wallingford asked. He still hadn't taken the first capsule.
"Go on--take it! You'll see," the Parsi said. "There's nothing better."
Despite his pain, Patrick didn't want to go off on some drug-induced trip.
"Before I take it, I want to know why the FDA will never approve it," he said.
"Because it's too much fun!" Dr. Chothia cried. "Your FDA guys don't like fun. Now take it, before I spoil your fun by giving you some other medication!"