The pill had put Patrick to sleep--or was it sleep? Surely his awareness was too heightened for sleep. But how could he have known he was in a state of prescience? How can anyone identify a dream of the future?
Wallingford was floating above a small, dark lake. There had to have been some kind of plane, or Wallingford couldn't have been there, but in the dream he never saw or heard the plane. He was simply descending, drawing closer to the little lake, which was surrounded by dark-green trees, fir trees and pines. Lots of white pines.
There were hardly any rock outcroppings. It didn't look like Maine, where Wallingford had gone to summer camp as a child. It didn't look like Ontario, either; Patrick's parents had once rented a cottage in Georgian Bay, Lake Huron. But the lake in the dream was no place he'd ever been.
Here and there a dock protruded into the water, and sometimes a small boat was tied to the dock. Wallingford saw a boathouse, too, but it was the feeling of the dock against his bare back, the roughness of its planks through a towel, that was the first physical sensation in the dream. As with the plane, he couldn't see the towel; he could only feel something between his skin and the dock.
The sun had just gone down. Wallingford had seen no sunset, but he could tell that the heat of the sun was still warming the dock. Except for Patrick's near-perfect view of the dark lake and the darker trees, the dream was all feeling.
He felt the water, too, but never that he was in it. Instead he had the feeling that he'd just come out of the water. His body was drying off on the dock, yet he still felt chilled.
Then a woman's voice--like no other woman's voice Wallingford had ever heard, like the sexiest voice in the world--said: "My bathing suit feels so cold. I'm going to take it off. Don't you want to take yours off, too?"
From that point on, in the dream, Patrick was aware of his erection, and he heard a voice that sounded a lot like his own, saying "yes"--he wanted to take off his wet bathing suit, too.
There was additionally the soft sound of the water lapping against the dock, and dripping from the wet bathing suits between the planks, returning to the lake.
He and the woman were naked now. Her skin was at first wet and cold, and then warm against his skin; her breath was hot against his throat, and he could smell her wet hair. Moreover, the smell of sunlight had been absorbed by her taut shoulders, and there was something that tasted like the lake on Patrick's tongue, which traced the contours of the woman's ear.
Of course Wallingford was inside her, too--having never-ending sex on the dock at the lovely, dark lake. And when he woke up, eight hours later, he discovered that he'd had a wet dream; yet he still had the hugest hard-on he'd ever had.
The pain from his missing hand was gone. The pain would come back about ten hours after he'd taken the first of the cobalt-blue capsules. The two hours Patrick had to wait before he could take a second capsule were an eternity to him; in that miserable interim, all he could talk to Dr. Chothia about was the pill.
"What's in it?" Wallingford asked the mirthful Parsi.
"It was developed as a cure for impotence," Dr. Chothia told him, "but it didn't work."
"It works, all right," Wallingford argued.
"Well ... apparently not for impotence," the Parsi repeated. "For pain, yes--but that was an accidental discovery. Please remember what I said, Mr. Wallingford. Don't ever take two."
"I'd like to take three or four," Patrick replied, but the Parsi was not his usual mirthful self on this subject.
"No, you wouldn't like to--believe me," Dr. Chothia warned him.
Swallowing only one capsule at a time, and at the proper twelve-hour intervals, Wallingford had ingested two more of the cobalt-blue painkillers while he was still in India, and Dr. Chothia had given him one more to take on the plane. Patrick had pointed out to the Parsi that the plane would be more than twelve hours in getting back to New York, but the doctor would give him nothing stronger than Tylenol with codeine for when the last of the wet-dream pills wore off.
Wallingford would have exactly the same dream four times--the last time on the flight from Frankfurt to New York. He'd taken the Tylenol with codeine on the first part of the long trip, from Bombay to Frankfurt, because (despite the pain) he'd wanted to save the best for last.
The flight attendant winked at Wallingford when she woke him up from his blue-capsule dream, just before the plane landed in New York. "If that was pain you were in, I'd like to be in pain with you," she whispered. "Nobody ever said 'yes' that many times to me!"
Although she gave Patrick her phone number, he didn't call her. Wallingford wouldn't have sex as good as the sex in the blue-capsule dream for five years. It would take Patrick longer than that to understand that the cobalt-blue capsule Dr. Chothia had given him was more than a painkiller and a sex pill--it was, more important, a prescience pill.
Yet the pill's primary benefit was that it prevented him from dreaming more than once a month about the look in the lion's eyes when the beast had taken hold of his hand. The lion's huge, wrinkled forehead; his tawny, arched eyebrows; the flies buzzing in his mane; the great cat's rectangular, blood-spattered snout, which was scarred with claw marks--these details were not as ingrained in Wallingford's memory, in the stuff of his dreams, as the lion's yellow-brown eyes, in which he'd recognized a vacant kind of sadness. He would never forget those eyes--their dispassionate scrutiny of Patrick's face, their scholarly detachment.
Regardless of what Wallingford remembered or dreamed about, what viewers of the aptly nicknamed Disaster International network would remember and dream about was the footage of the hand-eating episode itself--every heart-stopping second of it.
/> The calamity channel, which was routinely ridiculed for its proclivity for bizarre deaths and stupid accidents, had created just such an accident while reporting just such a death, thereby enhancing its reputation in an unprecedented way. And this time the disaster had happened to a journalist! (Don't think that wasn't part of the popularity of the less-than-thirty-second amputation.)
In general, adults identified with the hand, if not with the unfortunate reporter. Children tended to sympathize with the lion. Of course there were warnings concerning the children. After all, entire kindergarten classes had come unglued. Second-graders--at last learning to read with comprehension and fluency--regressed to a preliterate, strictly visual state of mind.
Parents with children in elementary school at the time will always remember the messages sent home to them, messages such as: "We strongly recommend that you do not let your children watch TV until that business with the lion guy is no longer being shown."
Patrick's former thesis adviser was traveling with her only daughter when her ex-lover's hand-consuming accident was first televised.
The daughter had managed to get pregnant in her senior year in boarding school; while not exactly an original feat, this was nonetheless unexpected at an all-girls' school. The daughter's subsequent abortion had traumatized her and resulted in a leave of absence from her studies. The distraught girl, whose charmless boyfriend had dumped her before she knew she was carrying his child, would need to repeat her senior year.
Her mother was also having a hard time. She'd still been in her thirties when she'd seduced Wallingford, who was more than ten years her junior but the best-looking boy among her graduate students. Now in her early forties, she was going through her second divorce, the arbitration of which had been made more difficult by the unwelcome revelation that she'd recently slept with another of her students--her first-ever undergraduate.