I had to fix it and seduce him before I got back in the saddle, because if this was what it felt like after just a trot, I was going to be out of commission for months after a proper ride.Chapter SixLeviI couldn’t focus on work or sit still. Two days ago I’d had Lottie in my house and naked in my bath. Naked, as in no clothes at all, and I’d been on the other side of the damned door. I couldn’t even count the amount of times I’d asked her if she was ok or if she needed anything, really hoping she’d say yes and I’d get to go in. Getting a ‘no’ back each time had been frustrating as hell, and I still couldn’t get rid of the tension from it. And trust me, I’d tried everything.
And just thinking about it now was making me shift in the chair in my office, and I had to reach down to adjust myself because my poor dick felt like it was being strangled. It sucked. I swear I had more control over my body than this, hell I’d even jacked off in the shower this morning, but nothing was working.
Just as I was getting up to go and try walking it off, there was a knock on the door and the cure to my problems opened it – my best friend Luna, along with her daughter Jamie who was sitting on her hip smiling at me.
“Hey, Uncle Levi,” Luna called out, closing the door behind her. “We just thought we’d come in and say hi to you.”
My problem solved, I reached out for my niece. “Hey, mama. Hey, precious girl.”
Passing her over, Luna snickered when Jamie leaned forward and gave me a slobbery kiss on the cheek and rubbed her nose in my beard. I loved when she did that unless she had those runny booger things kids got – that shit just wasn’t cute.
The first time it’d happened, I’d almost said fuck the beard and ripped it all out. I like to think I’d matured since then, though, and I always made sure I checked the kids’ faces before I held them now.
“Thank you for my loves, Jamie,” I chuckled, grinning down at her. “And I’m definitely happy to see my two favorite girls.”
“Oh, the lies,” Luna sighed dramatically. “We both know who your favorite is now. She sometimes wears scrubs, has blonde hair… goes by the name of Charlotte.”
Leaning against my desk, I tilted my head when Jamie buried her face back in my beard. “Well, it had to happen at some point, and technically you ditched me as your numero uno first.”
“He’s nicer to me,” she shrugged. “In fact, just this morning he…”
“Finish that sentence, and I’ll never speak to you again,” I growled, glaring at her. See what I mean? My problem from seconds ago was totally cured. Hopefully not for life, though, but it definitely wasn’t an issue now.
Shooting me a wicked grin and a wink, Luna leaned back and crossed her legs. “So, how are things going with the beautiful Charlotte?”
Sighing, I adjusted Jamie, realizing that she was almost asleep in my beard, and moved around the desk to sit back down. I was always afraid I was going to drop one them when I was standing up as it was, and when I was sitting down I could lay her out on my lap so she could sleep properly.
“I want more, Luna.”
Tilting her head, she frowned at me. “More?”
Looking out the window, I thought about how to describe it properly, but the only thing that came to me was, “I want her. I love being with her…”
“Unless you’re jumping out of planes,” she interrupted, understanding perfectly how terrifying that was seeing as how Noah had done the same to her.
“Yeah,” I muttered, not wanting to relive that moment. “But I love being with her. When I’m away from her, I’m thinking about her. When I’m with her, I want to be closer to her. I’m turning into a freaking middle school girl.”
“Don’t be dramatic or sexist,” she snapped, shaking her head. “Men get feelings like that too, so it’s totally normal. So, do you just want her, or do you want something deeper than that?”
I knew what she was asking – was it sex, or did I want a relationship. It wasn’t even hard to answer that question. “I want everything with her.”
“So what’s holding you back?”
I had to think about how much I could tell her without being the dick that told everyone someone else’s business. “She’s been hurt by family and shit like that. And there was this chick who did some of that card reading stuff on her, and she told her that her life would change when she hit twenty-one.”