Shit. My hair hangs in my eyes, and I wipe the water out of my eyes.
“Misha,” she grits out, staring down at him. “We’re having a conclave in one month. You just got yourself invited.”
And she stalks off, setting the glass pitcher down on the island.
Misha sits up, flipping me the finger. “Prick.”
I push myself to my feet. “Babysoft.”
Sea is a great place to bury bodies, you know? Deep breath, asshole.
RIKA
I blow out the smoke, most of it filtering out the window. Normally, I’d go outside, but it’s still raining, and I’m too frazzled to care about one cigarette in the house.
Misha. Damon. Will.
Student. Mayor. Aunt.
Sister.
I drop my eyes, taking another drag.
Michael.
I want to do all of it. I hope I can do everything else I want to do, too.
A lump lodges in my throat at the thought of Damon’s conclave. There are things I need to say before I leave that boat, but I’m scared.
“I kind of regretted you never grew up with siblings,” my mother says, approaching my back, “and now that you have one, he’s an immediate bad influence.”
She wraps an arm around my waist and smiles at me, cocking an eyebrow at the cigarette in my hand. I laugh, grinding it out in the dish I brought over. Damon and I have stashes in several locations, but none here. I guess if Ivar spends more time here, Damon will, too. May as well arrange one more stash, then.
I look down at the old black and white photos in silver frames adorning the little table in front of me.
My great-grandfather, circa 1900, sits on a horse at the family ranch in South Africa.
I run my finger over his ten-year-old face, the black hair and eyes like coal in the photo. “Ivarsen has the hair,” I remark. “Not the eyes, though.”
Ivarsen’s eyes are blue, like his mother’s.
“No,” my mother replies. “It skips several generations. None of yours or Damon’s children will have both.”
My children. A sinking feeling aches in my stomach.
I take a breath and pull away from my mother, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek.
“I’ll take the baby monitor in my room,” I tell her. “I want to get up with him if he wakes.”
And I start to walk away.
“When are you going to tell him?” she calls out.
I stop. But I don’t turn around, my heart beating faster. “Tell him what?”
“That your father’s will accounted for you and any other children I’d have,” she says. “When are you going to tell Damon?”
My shoulders relax. Oh, that.