She does trust me. God, I don’t know why, but…she did let me go when she could’ve turned me in. And then she rescued me and bled for me and fought with me…
“I know what you do to parents who hurt you,” she finally says, returning to our discussion. “Do you really think I’d put her in your path if I weren’t sure?”
My mouth curls a little, amused. “You scared of me?”
“Oh, lots.” She nods exaggeratedly.
I laugh and turn around, relaxing a little as I walk to the sink and fill up a glass of water.
I gulp down all of it as she pulls some things out from the refrigerator.
She pulls her hair up into a bun and takes out a slice of bread, scooping some tuna onto the slice.
A hunger pang hits at the smell, and I realize all I had to eat today was that half sandwich a half hour ago. Coming to stand at her side, I take a slice out, too, and scoop some tuna salad onto the bread.
“Charles,” I repeat the name of whom she was just talking to. “Kincaid?”
As in our old dean, who’s still dean of Thunder Bay Prep and helped Winter’s father take me down the morning I was arrested?
Rika smiles to herself, and I look down to see her take her single slice filled with tuna and fold it in half, peeling off the top crust. I falter, glancing down at my sandwich, which is already folded the same way. Huh.
“I’m giving the orientation speech tomorrow for the incoming seniors,” she explains, taking a bite.
“And Michael and Kai are in London,” I add, “trying to wrangle that architect.”
I was there, too, until Winter decided to be funny.
So Rika had no one to escort her, except me.
She trails around the island, sitting down on a stool.
She props her elbows up on the counter. “I mean, you don’t have to escort me,” she explains. “I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself. And the Andersons will be there, not to mention Kincaid still hates you, so...”
Is she trying to get me excited?
“You just might steal the show.” She feigns a sigh, sounding forlorn. “And I know how you like to keep a low profile.”
I chuckle, peeling off my crust. She’s as good as Winter at playing me, but I can’t say I don’t enjoy it.
But…I also know she wants a show of trust, too.
I don’t want Ivarsen around Rika’s mother. But I’m not entirely sure it’s because I don’t trust her.
Maybe I want to punish her. Maybe I’m jealous that he gets to have what I didn’t.
I stare down at the sandwich I can no longer eat, my stomach churning and the hint of bile in my throat.
If I want Rika, and I want my kids to have her, there’s no getting around Christiane. I don’t want to have to explain to them why they can’t see her or why they can’t come here.
Fucking fine.
“He can stay the night,” I tell her, “and we’ll see how it goes.”
She’s silent, but I can see her looking at me out of the corner of my eye. “Anything beyond that goes through me.” I look over at her. “You understand?”
She nods.
And if Christiane disappoints me, she will meet her maker before she ever meets another kid of mine.