He wipes his blade on the bedding, lovingly polishing it with the sheet. The creatures finally end their death throes as he leaves.
Amazingly, I’m still asleep back in the living room. Of course, I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in days and I was practically unconscious from exhaustion. My body is shivering on the couch. The cold seeped in while the bedroom door was open.
Raffe pauses and leans against the sofa, catching his breath.
I whimper in my sleep, trembling below him.
What’s he thinking?
That if any of the hellions are watching, it won’t make a difference whether we lie on different couches or the same one? Or that I’m already doomed because I’ve been in his company for too long?
I whimper again, pulling my knees to my chest under the thin blanket.
He leans over and whispers, “Hush. Shhh. ”
Maybe he just needs to feel the warmth of another living being after going through such a traumatic amputation. Maybe he’s too exhausted to care if I’m a Daughter of Man, as weird and barbaric as the Watchers’ wives.
Whatever the reason, he reluctantly pulls the cushions from the back of my couch. He pauses, looking like he’s about to change his mind.
Then he slides in behind me.
At first, his hold is stiff and uncomfortable. But as he begins to relax, the tension in his face eases.
He strokes my hair and whispers, “Shhh. ”
Whatever comfort he’s giving me, I’m giving at least that much back just by being a warm body for him to hold at a time when he needs it most.
I snuggle closer to him in my sleep and my whimpering subsides to a contented sigh. It almost hurts to see Raffe closing his eyes and holding me the way a kid might hold a stuffed animal for comfort.
I reach out my phantom hand to stroke his face. But of course, I can’t feel him. I can only feel what the sword remembers.
I run my hand along the lines of his neck and the
muscles of his shoulder, anyway.
Imagining the smooth warmth of him.
Remembering the feeling of being held in his arms.
Chpater 24
IT’S DARK when I wake. I float back into reality, still mired in my dream.
I stroke the soft fur of the teddy bear. My dream had more comfort in it than a fighting lesson has any right to have. It’s as if the sword picked a soothing memory on purpose and I’m grateful.
It takes a minute before I remember why I’m sleeping in the backseat of a car.
Right. We’re prisoners in a police cruiser.
Then the rest of it floods back and I’m wishing I could return to my dream.
Outside, hulks of cars dot the roadway and moon shadows of branches shift back and forth in the wind. Like many places, the streets turn surreal and creepy at night.
Something moves outside the window.
Before I can identify the shadow, it taps on the window.
I yelp.
Silently, my mother clutches my arm, urgently dragging me down into the footwell with her.
“It’s me, Clara,” whispers the shadow.
A key turns and the driver’s door opens. Luckily, someone has turned the car’s overhead light off so we’re not a beacon.
Her too-thin form slips into the driver’s seat.
“You’re the dead woman,” says my mother. “All shriveled up and looking like you crawled out of the grave. ”
“She’s not dead, Mom. ” I climb up from the footwell and sit on the seat.
“I sometimes wish I were,” says Clara. She turns on the engine, which sounds startlingly loud.
“What are you doing?” I ask.
“Getting you out of here. Away from these horrible people. ” The car moves into a wide S-curve to avoid other cars.
“Turn off the headlights,” I say. “They’ll attract too much attention. ”
“It’s the daytime lights. They can’t be turned off. ”
As she swerves around the obstacles, our lights hit Mom’s stack of bodies. Apparently, no one wanted to touch them despite Obi’s orders.
The gruesome-looking body sitting on top of the stack sluggishly tries to raise his hand to shield against the light.
“The dead are being resurrected,” says my mother. She sounds excited, like she always knew this would happen.
“He wasn’t dead, Mom. ”
“You were the first to be resurrected,” says Mom. “The first of the dead. ”
“I wasn’t dead either,” I say.
“I hope he finds his family and they accept him back,” says Clara. Her tone makes it clear she doubts it.
I try not to think about the rest of the victims.
Ironically, my mother may have saved the only scorpion victims who will survive this night.
ONCE WE put some distance between ourselves and the Resistance headquarters, Clara stops the car so I can sit shotgun. Since my mother doesn’t want to be in the backseat jail any more either, we all cram into the front seat with me in the middle.