He glanced at the razor on the workbench and longed to make a few quick slices into his flesh to ease the tension. Simple straight cuts that weren’t too deep would make him feel so much better. But as tempting as it was to release into the pain, now was not the time for games that would weaken him.
He reached for a piece of wood and a knife. He began to carve the rounded end into a sharp tip.
He didn’t need more stakes, but he needed restraint. Strength. Courage.
This time he was killing The One that had enticed him to the dark side eighteen years ago.
She’d been called Grace then. Now she fancied Charlotte. Either way, she and her assistant were next.
Chapter 21
Saturday, October 30, 7:14 a.m.
Early Saturday morning, Charlotte wore her faded cutoffs, a black T-shirt, and tennis shoes. Her hair was pulled into a topknot. She’d been working since dawn assembling the last of the boxes and getting ready for movers scheduled to arrive between eight and ten. Sleep had been impossible. Thoughts of Mariah tumbled and prodded her each time she’d closed her eyes, so in the end she’d just given up on sleep.
As she glanced around the condo at the piles of boxes, she conceded to a sense of relief. There was a time when she’d convinced herself that this place had fit her like a glove, but much like the too expensive outfit that couldn’t be returned, she’d often not felt wholly comfortable here. She’d never gotten past the feeling that the real owners would burst into the space and demand that she leave.
The front bell buzzed and she glanced at her red sports watch. Seven forty-five. The movers were early.
The one time she needed them to be late, they were early.
She hurried to the door and, without looking in the peephole, snapped it open. Rokov stood at her threshold holding two cups of coffee.
“Detective.”
“Counselor.” He handed her a coffee. “Moving day?”
“It is. And it is not a good time to visit.”
“Never a good time to visit with the cops.” He smiled and sipped his coffee. “Let’s chat.”
“I can’t. Not now. I’m under the gun with this move.”
A smile that wasn’t a smile tipped his lips. “I’ll help.”
“I don’t need your help.”
He shrugged. “Too bad.”
“Leave.”
“No.” He stepped over the threshold and brushed past her. He surveyed the collection of boxes, set down his coffee cup, and shrugged off his sport jacket. “When did you say the movers were coming?”
“About an hour. And I refuse to pay them extra while they wait and watch me pack.”
“Then we better get busy. Where do we start?”
“The kitchen.”
He nodded and moved into the kitchen. He whistled his appreciation. “So this is how the other half lives?”
She’d only heated soup and made toast in the space, but it was a designer’s dream. A muted palate of blues and greens stood as a backdrop to white Carrera Marble countertops, a crystal backsplash that mirrored hanging lights, stainless steel Wolf appliances, and a wine refrigerator stocked with expensive wines.
This was the kind of kitchen she’d dreamed of as a kid, and for a time all her dreams had come true. But now she could no longer support the dream.
She grabbed an empty box and handed it to Rokov. “You can start wrapping the dishes in the cabinet.”
“Why not have the movers do this?”
“I don’t trust them with the delicate stuff.”
She turned her attention to a stack of pots, which she’d laid out on a farmhouse-style table surrounded by eight upholstered chairs. Grabbing newspaper, she began to wrap.
“You mentioned that Mariah had a date that last night.”
“Yes. I got the impression he was a local and he’d come to see the carnival. We always had a lot of local boys coming around the carnival looking to hook up or seeing if they could score drugs.”
He raised a brow.
“You’re wondering if I’m guilty of either.”
“I’m a cop. I’m paid to wonder.” He filled a box with wrapped plates and sealed it with a packing tape.
She shoved aside the old defensive feeling. “Sorry. I guess you can take the girl out of the carnie but not the carnie out of the girl. I’ll never forget how people looked at me when I was a kid.”
“That why you’ve perfected the polished image?”
Two pots clanged together as she dropped them in a box. At this point she didn’t care so much about her stuff. She just wanted it moved and gone. “After Mariah died, I knew I had to leave. I swore the rest of my life would be different.”
“So you rejected all things carnie and became the uptight snob?”
The fitting description rankled her nerves. Several counterpoints danced on the tip of her tongue.
“Trying to decide which argument to hurl at me first?”
She smiled. “Am I that obvious?”
“I’m learning to see through the veneer.” He winked at her and carried the two packed boxes to the foyer by the front door.
Irritated, she picked up another empty box and dumped a couple of never-used copper pots inside. “You cannot read me.”
He reappeared with an empty box in hand. “Yes, I can.”
“Just because we had sex doesn’t mean that you know me.”
“But I do.” When she opened her mouth to argue again, he shook his head. “Tell me about the night Mariah died.”
Sighing, she shook her head. “She was working and then she had a date with a boy I’d never met. He was taking her to dinner and a movie in town. She was excited because he was taking her on a real date. Meaning, a lot of boys showed up with a bottle of wine and an offer to park somewhere. This guy, she said, had been a gentleman.”
“Did she date a lot?”
“From the time she turned fourteen, it was impossible to keep her around the carnival. She searched for every chance she could to get away.” Sudden emotion choked her throat. “Mariah was so desperate for another life. I saw it, but I couldn’t help her. I was consumed with my own fears and dreams. I wish I’d paid more attention to her. Maybe she would have stayed in that last night.”
“You were just a kid. Don’t carry that burden.”
But she did carry the burden along with another far heavier. “That last night, Mariah said that Grady was very angry about her date. She took pleasure in making him worry. She bragged that he had given her an expensive necklace, and she was going to wear it on her date.”
“He was possessive.”
“Very.”
“Where was Grady that night?”
“Working the rides. Making sure everything ran smoothly. We only had a couple of nights left in town, and it was the big push to make cash.”
“But he could have been anywhere that night?”
“Yeah.”
“Could he have killed Mariah?”
“You asked me that last night.”
“And you’ve had a chance to sleep on it.”
She sighed. “I don’t know now. Maybe. He wouldn’t be the first man to kill someone he loved.” She was unable to say the word lover. “Her date gave her a rose when he asked her out.” She’d forgotten that detail. “But I guess that doesn’t help too much. Eighteen years and a rose purchase.”
“Not likely.”
She closed her eyes and let her mind drift. She’d spent so many years forgetting that her ability to remember had grown rusty. “She also said he was uptight. A straight arrow. He had taken a semester off from school but planned to return in January.”
“Why had he dropped out?”
“He’d been sick.” Images were pushing their way to the forefront of her mind. “And he was worried about going back. It was important to him that he succeed in school.”
“Did he say which school?”
“No.”
“A fall dropout eighteen years ago from a college n
ear Alexandria.”
“He told her he could barely afford the instate tuition.”
Rokov retrieved his notebook from his jacket pocket and scribbled down the details.
“Why would he start killing again here and now?” she asked.
“We think he’s killed other women in Raleigh and Athens.”
“Those towns were major carnival stops.”
“What were some of the other cities?”
“Nashville. Charleston. Roanoke, Virginia. Asheville, North Carolina. Atlanta. Grady would have the full list. He was good about keeping notes on the different stops.”
“Did you keep any kind of log?”
“No. No records. It was all informal.”
“You ever read anyone that really gave you the spooks?”
“Well, there were the guys that tried to get more than a reading. I kept a baseball bat under my table for those guys. But there were times when the random person came through, and you could feel the resentment and anger.”