“Aunt Sara?” Jared jogged toward her with his father’s easy gait. He knelt in front of her, hands on her shoulders. “Are you okay?”
“I thought you were—” She put her hand to Jared’s face. “You look—” She threw her arms around his shoulders and pulled him as close as she could. Sara couldn’t help herself. She wept like a child. All the memories she had kept at bay for so long came flooding back. It was almost too much to bear.
Jared rubbed her back, soothing her. “It’s all right,” he whispered. “It’s just me.”
His father’s voice. Sara wanted to close her eyes and pretend. To lose herself completely. How many times had she stood in this parking lot with Jeffrey? How many mornings had they driven to work together, kissed each other goodbye in this very parking lot? And then he would stand at the door to the station, watching her make her way up the hill, checking to see that she got inside safely. Sometimes, she could feel his eyes following her, and it took everything Sara had not to run back across the street for another kiss.
Jared asked, “Are you all right?” There was a tremor in his tone. She was scaring him. “Aunt Sara?”
“I’m sorry.” She dropped her hands into her lap. She didn’t know why she was apologizing, but she kept repeating the words. “I’m so sorry.”
“It’s all right.”
“I thought you were—” She couldn’t finish the sentence. Couldn’t say his father’s name.
Jared helped her stand up. “Mama says I look just like him.”
Sara couldn’t stop the tears streaming down her face. “When did you find out?”
“It’s kind of hard to hide.”
She laughed, the sound high-pitched and desperate in her ears. “What are you doing here?”
He glanced at Will. Sara hadn’t noticed him walk up. He stood a few feet away, obviously trying not to intrude. She told him, “This is …” She forced herself to say the name. “This is Jeffrey’s son, Jared Long. Jared, this is Will.”
Will’s hands were shoved deep in his pockets. He nodded at the boy. “Jared.”
“Why are you here?” Sara asked. “Is it because of Frank?”
Jared scratched his eyebrow with his thumb and forefinger. Sara had seen Jeffrey make the same gesture countless times. It meant he was upset, but didn’t quite know how to talk about it. Jared looked at Will again. There was something going on between them that Sara couldn’t follow.
She repeated her question. “Why are you here?”
Jared’s voice cracked. “Her car is here. I don’t know where she is.”
“Who?” Sara asked, but she already knew the answer. Lena’s Celica was still in the lot.
“She was supposed to be home six hours ago.” He directed his words to Will. “I’ve been to the hospital. I tried to get in touch with Frank. I can’t find anybody who knows where she is.”
“No,” Sara breathed.
“Aunt Sara—” Jared reached for her but she put her hand flat to his chest, holding him back.
“You can’t be seeing her.”
“It’s not what you think.”
“I don’t care. It’s wrong.”
He reached for her again. “Aunt Sara—”
She stepped back, stumbling into Will. “You can’t do this.”
“It’s not what you think.”
“Not what I think?” she demanded, her voice rising in anger. “What am I thinking, Jared? That you’re sleeping with the woman who murdered your father?”
“It’s not like—”
Will grabbed Sara by her waist as she lunged at Jared. “She killed him!” Sara screamed, pushing Will away. “She killed your father!”
“He killed himself!”
She raised her hand to slap his face. Jared stood absolutely still, facing her, waiting for the blow. For her part, Sara felt frozen. She couldn’t strike him, but she couldn’t drop her hand, either. It divided the air between them like a knife waiting to fall.
“He was a cop,” Jared said. “He knew what the dangers were.”
She dropped her hand, because now she really wanted to hurt him. “Is that what she told you?”
“It’s what I know, Aunt Sara. My father loved being a cop. He was doing his job, and it got him killed.”
“You don’t know who she really is. You’re too young to understand what she’s capable of.”
“I’m not too young to know I love her.”
His words were like a punch to her chest. “She killed him,” Sara whispered. “You don’t know what she took from me. From you.”
“I know more than you think.”
“No, you don’t.”
Jared’s voice turned sharp. “He was doing his job, and he pissed off the wrong people, and nobody could’ve stopped him. Not you, not Lena, not me, not anybody. He made his own decisions. He was his own man. And he was stubborn as hell. Once he made up his mind, there was no talking him out of doing exactly what he wanted to do.”
Sara didn’t realize she was backing up until she felt Will behind her. She gripped his arm, forcing herself not to falter. “She’s twisted the story to fool you into feeling sorry for her.”
“That’s not how it is.”
“She’s a master at manipulating people. You can’t see that now, but it’s true.”
“Stop saying that.” Jared tried to take her hand. “I love her. And Jeffrey loved her, too.”
Sara couldn’t speak to him anymore. She couldn’t be here. She turned into Will, burying her head in his chest. “Get me out of here. Please, just take me home.”
Jared said, “You can’t leave. I need your help.”
Will kept his arm around Sara as he guided her across the street.
Jared jogged to keep up. “You’ve gotta help me find her. I don’t know where she is.”
Will’s voice was hard. “You need to move on, son.”
“Somebody sliced her tires. She’s not answering her cell phone.”
Will kept his arm around Sara, helping her up the hill. She looked down at the grass on the front lawn. The roots had been washed out. Clumps of mud slipped beneath her shoes.
Jared said, “She called me on her cell at six o’clock. She said she’d be home in an hour.” He tried to block their path, but Will swept him away with one hand. “She quit her job!” he screamed. “She told me she quit!”
They had reached the clinic parking lot. Will opened the car door and helped Sara inside.
Jared slammed his hand on the hood. “Come on! She’s missing! Something’s wrong!” He rushed around the car and got on his knees in front of the open door. His hands pressed together as if in prayer. “Please, Aunt Sara. Please. You’ve got to help me find her. Something’s wrong. I know something’s wrong.”
There was so much anguish in his face that Sara felt herself falter. She looked at Will, saw the concern in his expression.
His voice was low, steady, when he told her, “She hasn’t checked in with me.”