“Maybe,” I answered apathetically.
“Yeah, I thought so,” she sighed, pushing off from the doorway and sauntering over. Her black boots clanged against the hardwood floor as she bent over beside me and peered at the canvas. “You know, whatever it is that you hate about your art these days, I just don’t see it. This looks just as fucking fantastic as your usual shit.”
“Shit being the operative word,” I replied, wandering towards the kitchen to give her privacy with the painting. After hours of being in the zone and away from my bodily needs, I was positively parched.
“You know what I mean!” She called out from the studio room. “I just don’t get it. People would kill for talent like yours. Tell me, explain it to me… what makes this suck to you?”
Pouring myself a glass of water, I ripped the scrunchie from my hair. My mane fell over my shoulders, the unfurled locks eager for release.
“I don’t expect you to get it,” I answered truthfully. “There’s something missing. A spark…” I walked back down the hall, settling against the doorway as she had before.
“Well, I’ll trust your judgement,” Reiko grinned over her shoulder, before her smile faded into concern. “But you’ve been on this warpath against your own work for, what, months now? I know you say you lost your spark or whatever, but maybe this stuff is better than you think?”
She turned back to the mostly finished landscape, clearly admiring my efforts. “I mean, this doesn’t belong in your Closet of Doom. If that’s what you’re doing with it, let me put this up on my wall. I need art for my bare ass apartment anyway. Hell, I’ll take half of that closet right now.”
“You know I can’t let you do that,” I reminded her. “I can’t let this out into the wild. It’s fine here… where it’s safe… at least, until I can figure out what’s wrong with it, maybe clean it up.”
“Yeah, yeah, I know…”
She looked a little glum, but I appreciated that Reiko understood my artistic selfishness. The idea of something inferior that I’d created with my own hand being out there, even on a close friend’s wall… the idea bothered me.
Hell, Connor had tried to sneak off with one of my castaway closet paintings, and I’d furiously banned him from my apartment for two months. It had been a breach of my trust as a friend and an artist.
Reiko understood.
“Alright, well, I know there’s no convincing you otherwise,” she finally conceded, standing up straight. “Anyway, I like it. It’s good.”
“Yeah, yeah,” I smiled.
“…Oh! I almost forgot the whole reason why I’m here!”
She grinned ear to ear, clasping her fingerless gloved hands together. “Get yourself cleaned up, woman. We’re going to the French Quarter tonight.”
“Oh yeah?” I tilted my head. “Why’s that?”
“Because the guitarist in that band I like is a bartender down there, and he tells me that this rugged, British dude showed up a few days ago. He’s been coming in every night since, mostly keeping to himself. I think you need a little something different, so you’d better get glammed up and get your flirt on.”
Now that was intriguing.
“I don’t know… Maybe I don’t feel like going out tonight,” I replied, trying to bury the little devil of excitement creeping up inside me.
“That’s exactly why you need to get out. You’ve been holed up in this apartment trying to get your mojo back. Maybe you’re looking for spark in all the wrong places,” Reiko said, grinning mischeviously.
“And you think I’ll find inspiration in some British guy’s pants?”
“It worked the last time, didn’t it?” Reiko laughed.
I wanted to protest, but she was right.
One of the more defining characteristics of myself, besides my penchant for painting, was that I was a total Anglophile. I religiously watched the BBC America channel, following such British staples as Doctor Who and Sherlock. I’d only been to England once on a summer’s break, but it had confirmed my every suspicion:
I loved England.
I’d come back from that trip full of inspiration.
Everyone close to me knew that… and to hear that there was a British guy here in town who’d fallen into routine at a nearby bar… Maybe I was due a little fun…
Besides… This was our usual night to go barhopping. We’d skipped the last few when she’d been overwhelmed with work, and I hadn’t really been myself lately. Knowing that the English card was on the table added a whole other layer of excitement.
“What makes you think that he’s into someone like me?” I asked thoughtfully, casting her a look.
“Geoffrey tells me that this guy’s been turning down the most sex-starved vapid chicks around,” Reiko recalled. “Hell, he’s wandered back out alone every damn night. Whether or not he scores later, there’s no telling, but none of them are successful, award-winning artists… maybe he’s into someone with a few brain cells?”
“What’s he look like?”
“Why don’t you just go find out for yourself?”
“Your guy must have told you something,” I insisted. “Dish out the details. Get me amped to get pretty and scope this guy out.”
The door clattered open again, and I inwardly sighed. I knew exactly who it was, although Reiko didn’t appear to hear the sound of encroaching footsteps.
“Fine, fine,” Reiko conceded, thinking for a moment. “Usually comes in wearing a nice suit… sandy-brown hair, broad but streamlined build… handsome as fuck… that’s all that the dude told me.”
“Handsome as fuck? Did somebody call me?” Connor asked, poking his head through the door.
With his floppy hair and boyish good looks, enhanced by squared glasses, Connor completed our happy little triad. If only he wasn’t so obviously attracted to me, I thought to myself as he flashed me a sly smile.
“Nah, wasn’t describing you, bro,” Reiko sneered playfully.
He shrugged off the retort. “Who else could it have possibly been?”
“Just this rugged, British dude down at the bar,” she answered enthusiastically. “I’m trying to convince Riley that we need to go check this guy out, because seriously I think she might be able to score him.”
I couldn’t figure out if she was blissfully ignorant of his fixation on me, or if she was just effortlessly cruel, but Reiko offered this tidbit of information up with the giddiness of a schoolgirl.
“Oh, I see,” Connor answered quietly, retreating into a stoic face. “Is he at our usual spot?”
“Sounds like it,” I shrugged. “I figured it was worth a check. You up for tagging along?”
Connor looked crestfallen, but he bravely slapped on a smile. “Fuck yeah, I’ve been looking forward to this drink all goddamn day.”
“Rough day at the record store?”
“Definitely. Ever since Bowie shuffled off the mortal coil, we’ve been sold flat out of his records. Meanwhile, we’ve been swamped.”
“Would have thought you’d like the business,” I shrugged. “Aren’t you having trouble making the lease some months?”
“Well, yeah,” Connor grinned. “But it’s just me and Tiana there during the day and, well, we’re not staffed to deal with a glam rock god up and dying on us… if it’s not people pissed that we’ve run out of his discography, it’s people bugging us with a ton of questions about related artists…”
Overlooking the one-sided romantic fixation between us, I carried a lot of respect for Connor Carelli. While I was in some galleries and Reiko managed someone else’s sandwich shop and followed around that band, Connor had chased his dream of owning a bonafide record store.
The location was shit, the parking was worse, and the place was held together with a barebones staff and a lot of improvised renovations… but Connor’s little record shop was his. Not only that, but he’d developed a reputation for carrying a carefully curated selection of classic obscurities and important memorabilia.
; “Just to let you know, the guy usually leaves around 9PM,” Reiko cut in. “So, if we’re going, we’d better get down there soon. Unless you think you can seduce him in half an hour, at any rate.”
I glanced at the clock. Despite the fact that the sunlight outside was only just waning now, it was already 7:30 PM. “Fuck these summers and their long hours…” I muttered to myself. “You two make yourselves comfortable. I’ve gotta get changed.”
“Don’t forget, your head is a canvas!” Reiko reminded me. She was used to me completely forgetting to wipe the paint smears off and apply a little makeup. “Put that artistic touch to work and get your face on!”
“Yeah, yeah…” I smiled, pushing past them to dive around the corner and into my bedroom. I reached into wardrobe and snagged a couple of items – a nice dress, a decent belt, a few accessories...
As I whipped off my oversized tee and my pair of black leggings, I suited myself up for what could be an interesting night.
I scanned my face in the mirror, tugging over my makeup bag from the top drawer beneath my sink. A little foundation, some contouring, maybe just a little refined shape to my eyebrows… I had the time to put this together.