"I'm not going to worry about it," I decide. "It's Christmas Eve. I doubt he's even decided what he's going to do, and he's certainly not coming to talk business."

"Maybe not, but I bet he'll want to talk to you, anyway. You look hot, as always."

I roll my eyes, although the truth is that I know I look good. I'd splurged on a new red holiday dress with a fitted bodice and flared skirt. It has a retro Marilyn Monroe thing going, and I paired it with exceptionally uncomfortable but sexy shoes that truly make the outfit.

Since I work out of my bedroom, I rarely have the chance to dress up. And even though I got more than my fill when my mother was forcing me to do pageant after pageant, when it's for my own pleasure, I enjoy the whole makeup and hair and pretty outfit routine.

Next to Jamie, however, I'm a slacker. She's in a skintight black dress that accentuates every one of her many curves. If there are directors at the party, I bet each and every one of them will want to sign her to their next movie.

"This is it," Jamie says, pulling up in front of a stunning Malibu house. "I've been here once before. Her view of the beach is awesome. And her boyfriend is way younger and paints really erotic stuff. She'll probably have his pictures on the walls, so fair notice. It's good--really good--but a little over the top."

"No problem," I say, and now I'm more than a little curious.

A hired valet takes the car, and I follow Jamie to the door and am delighted when Evelyn herself greets us. She envelops Jamie in a hug, then turns and does the same thing to me. "So good to see you again. Let's get you inside and put a drink in your hand."

Since that sounds like a good plan to me, I happily follow her--only to stumble just inside the door.

Evelyn catches my arm and looks at me with concern, but I barely notice her. Instead, my eyes are glued on a man who is halfway across the open area, just one of many guests and yet he commands the entire room.

His face consists of hard lines and angles that seem sculpted by light and shadows, making him appear both classically gorgeous and undeniably unique. His dark hair absorbs the light as completely as a raven's wing, but it is not nearly as smooth. Instead, it looks wind-tossed, as if he's spent the day at sea.

That hair in contrast with his black tailored trousers and starched white shirt give him a casual elegance, and it's easy to believe that this man is just as comfortable on a tennis court as he is in a boardroom. His famous dual-colored eyes capture my attention. They seem edgy and dangerous and full of dark promises.

I know that I am staring, but I'm struck with the oddest sense of deja vu. As if all of this has happened before, but not in this reality. In a dream. In another life. In--

"Sorry about that step, Texas," Evelyn says, holding me steady after my near fall. "I should have warned you."

"No, it's okay." I tilt my head up and see that she is frowning at me with maternal concern. "That man--that's Damien Stark, right?"

"Hard to miss, isn't he?" she asks, and I nod, just a little dumbstruck.

Jamie takes my other arm. "Nik? Are you okay? Did you twist your ankle?"

"I'm okay," I say, but that's a lie.

Because I'm not okay--not anymore.

I'm not okay at all.

Chapter 6

I order a double Scotch from the bar near the door and toss it back as Jamie looks at me, bemused.

"What is up with you?"

I just shake my head and ask the bartender for another. I'm amazed by how much the mere sight of Damien Stark has affected me. I've never had such a visceral reaction to a man in my life, and it's unsettled me so much that I'm deliberately not looking in his direction. I'm too afraid that my knees will go weak and I'll fall on my face.

"You're worrying me today," Jamie says.

"I'm fine. I swear, I'm fine." I draw a breath and tell myself to shake it off. I can do this. Haven't I lived my entire life wearing various versions of myself? I just need to get steady. To put on my Social Nikki mask, carry myself with the poise and confidence that my mother drilled into my head--and try my damnedest not to look in that man's direction again.

"I tripped. That's all." I look at Jamie, who clearly doesn't believe my pronouncement. "It's been a strange day, I'm feeling light-headed, and I tripped. That's all. Go mingle. This is a Hollywood party. You should be out charming people who can get you work. Not babysitting me."

I watch the debate play over her face. The potential for a gig--or a hot guy--weighed against best friend karma.

"Seriously," I assure her. "I'm fine." I tug my phone out of my tiny purse. "I'll text if I need you. Promise."

Jamie points a finger at me. "You better." She gives me a quick hug, takes a glass of wine from the bartender, and heads out.

I consider finishing my Scotch and going for another, but decide to just nurse the one that I have. Better to stay at least a little sober.

I hold on to the glass as if it were a life raft, then wade out into the stormy social seas.

I don't see Stark, although I tell myself that I'm not looking for him. Because it's really best not to do that until I'm sure that I've got my shit together. Instead, I'm looking for any friendly or familiar face. A port in the storm. And when I see Charles Maynard, Ollie's boss, I breathe a sigh of relief. I don't know him well, but I've met him at a few of Ollie's firm functions. And I certainly know him well enough to pop over and say hi at a party.

I'm heading that direction, when a group standing behind him parts like the Red Sea, and there's Damien Stark again, striding through the gap to make his way to Charles.

I freeze, mission aborted.

They chat for a minute, and it's clear from where I'm standing that these men know each other. Ollie doesn't talk about his work much, but I think he mentioned that the firm represents Stark International, and for a moment I idly wonder if Ollie has met Stark.

The thought makes me frown--something about the two of them knowing each other rubs me the wrong way--and it's then that Stark shifts his attention from Charles to me. The moment his gaze hits me, I gasp, then take an unexpected step toward him, compelled by nothing more than the force of his will.

One step, then another, and then I recover my senses and force myself to stop. I'm standing beside a Queen Anne-style chair, and I reach for the back and hold on, as if that will keep me from walking farther toward this man who has thrown me so off balance.

I see a frown touch his lips, and then he says something to Charles. A moment later, Damien Stark is walking toward me, and my stomach lurches. His eyes are on me, full of heat and awareness, and once again I feel as though this has happened before. That I know him--really know him. And that, somehow, I have lost him.

My fingertips tingle as I imagine the feel of his skin beneath my hand. And my own body heats from the memory--no, not a memory, the fantasy--of his lips dancing over me, making me crazy. Making me wet.

I have absolutely no idea what is wrong with me, and I want to turn around and run, but I can't. I'm stuck where I am, transfixed by the heat in his expression. By the dark promise of his onyx-colored eye. By the wild passion in the amber one.

I think that I will stand here forever if that's how long it takes him to come to me, and even as I think it, I want to kick myself, because that isn't how I think. I am not prone to lust. I do not throw myself at men. On the contrary, I'm careful. I'm private.

And yet despite all of that I find myself taking a step toward him. As I do, I see the welcome and the relief on his face--and then, just moments later, I watch as his expression closes and his face goes hard. Unreadable. Inscrutable.

I stop, confused, and then gasp with shock and disappointment as a tall, thin, utterly gorgeous woman swoops up to him, hooks her arm through his, and kisses his cheek.

"Carmela D'Amato," Jamie says, making me jump when she appears behind me. "She's a runway model--pretty hot these days, actually. According to gossip, they've been dating on and off for years."

I had shifted to look at Jam

ie, and now I shift back. Stark is no longer looking at me. Instead, he's turned away and is leading Carmela toward the balcony door. Bitch.

"Were you working up the courage to ask about the license?"

"Yeah," I lie. My business was the furthest thing from my mind, and, frankly, that simple truth pisses me off. What the hell has happened to me? Does the man emit some sort of Nikki-attracting pheromones?

"We could follow them out to the balcony. Want me to go with you?"

I shake my head. "It's okay. Let the man have his Christmas party." And let me get myself together again.

I follow her around for the next hour or so, and we chat with various Hollywood types I've never heard of while Jamie gushes and quotes lines and talks about her favorite movie scenes or television episodes. After a while, I can feign interest no longer and excuse myself to go look at some of the artwork that is, as Jamie had warned, placed throughout the house.

I'm gazing at a particularly stunning portrait of a nude woman standing so that her hands extend out of the top of the canvas. Though we can't see it, her wrists must be bound with the red ribbon that dangles between her breasts, covering just enough of her crotch to be more modest than revealing, and all the more sensual because of that.

The portrait shows her bare feet on a hardwood floor, and there is a shadow on the ground, as if someone is standing just out of the frame, watching her. Her eyes are open, her back slightly arched and her nipples are erect.

The title of the portrait is Anticipation, and though I've never been tied up and naked and on display, there's something about this image that excites me, enough so that when Evelyn comes up to me, I actually blush.

"Stunning, isn't it?" she says. "Have you met Blaine? He's lost in the crowd somewhere." She lifts an unlit cigarette and takes a long drag. "Damn things will kill you. And if that's not bad enough, nowadays you're vilified if you want to light up."

I make an effort to look sympathetic.

"Jamie said you're pitching a project to Damien."

"Sort of," I admit. "A friend submitted a proposal to Preston Rhodes for me. I guess it's on Mr. Stark's desk now."

"Have you asked him if he's seen it?"

"No." I lick my lips. "I was going to, actually. But he was with that model. Are they serious?" I ask the question casually, and hope that Evelyn can't tell that the answer matters to me. Stupidly, ridiculously, I actually seem to care.

"Honestly, Texas, I've known that boy for years, and I don't think he's ever been serious about a woman." She takes another fake puff on her cigarette. "Damien's...well, the truth is that I adore the boy, but he keeps himself locked away. As for that one, I think it's gone on longer than most."

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