Still I gaped. "You would do it? Trap a guy?"
"If the circumstances were right."
"No, you wouldn't. Don't say that!"
"Don't judge me, Cat. I have a seventeen-year-old sister and a sickly mother living in poverty, who go to sleep each night to the sound of gunfire. For them, I'd do anything. Trap a man? In--a--heartbeat. What wouldn't you do for those you love?"
I exhaled. "I'm sorry I was criticona. Judgmental." I'd once read on a T-shirt: The judgiest people are the ones who've lived the least. "But for the record, I did not set out to get prenada."
"It's still an option, you know. There's always next month."
The idea nauseated me. "Ivanna, when I thought I could be pregnant, it was like someone punched me in the throat. I never cry in front of others, but I was about to. I kept telling myself Morning-after pill, morning-after pill like a prayer."
"So that's how you addressed it?"
"No, a doctor came to give me a shot and insert an IUD--to be really, really sure. Each method is ninety-something percent certain. Add those two together and it equals: one paranoid Russian. Still, I was relieved. Getting knocked up would be one of the stupidest things I could do. Sevastyan must think I'm stupid."
I defensively pulled my knees to my chest. For some reason, it was imperative to me that he not believe that. "Why wouldn't he? I guzzled bottles of alcohol and let down my guard with a strange man. I never let down my guard. I won't ever again."
"Apparently, he let his guard down as well. Have you ever considered why he's so paranoid? He's a mobster AND a politician--is there any man more incapable of trust? Surely he's learned that faith in another can invite punishment." Only always! "Perhaps you have an IUD right now because Sevastyan wanted to enjoy you regularly?"
I narrowed my eyes. It wasn't as if I had asked for the thing. "Then maybe he's less paranoico--and more manipulador--than I'd thought."
"Speaking of manipulative, you should know, Sevastyan's man of affairs called me, asking questions about you."
Vasili! "What did you tell him?"
"As little as possible, because that's obviously what you've been doing--and it's working! Count on me not to deviate from this plan. Though I don't know much anyway. I told him that you don't have a car, and you sing a lot. I informed him that when you eat one of those cuppy containers of flan, you are in heaven and smile for the rest of the day. I also mentioned that you adore me and have promised always to take care of me."
I exhaled with relief. "Thank you."
"So, what's it like between you and Sevastyan? Since you're essentially living together?"
"We fight a lot." After sex, as soon as we left the bed--or the couch or the shower or the floor--he would grow ice cold again.
Once we'd recovered from our frenzied fuck yesterday, he'd dragged me into the study, dumping me into a seat in front of a computer. No Internet access, of course. "Make yourself useful." A fifteen-page document in Spanish had been pulled up on the screen. "Translate it, then print a copy. You've got three hours."
The document had been about the Panama Canal. I began to suspect he was in Miami to take advantage of the upcoming canal expansion. Interesting.
Three hours later, I'd found him in the living room on the phone with his brother Dmitri.
Whenever he talked to his younger brother, his mood plummeted, and nothing ever seemed to get resolved. Yet he talked to the man a lot. Sometimes I could even hear Dmitri yelling, but Sevastyan never raised his voice or got angry in return. If I were Maxim's girlfriend and I gave a damn about him, I'd try to limit those calls.
When I'd dropped my printed report onto his lap, he'd ended the call. As if it were a chore to read, he'd exhaled and turned the cover sheet to the first of fifteen identical pages:
I'd turned on my heel and sauntered back to my room.
Ivanna said, "It can't all be bad."
"No, it's not. Sometimes, I like it here with him." Between Sevastyan and the floors of gun-toting mafiya guards, I felt safer than I had in years. Up in his tower, I was getting used to luxury, to not scrubbing toilets, to gourmet food, to views that went on forever. When I looked in the mirror, I saw a changed woman--skin glowing, eyes clear, dark circles gone.
I was officially recharged and heading toward . . . bored. I hadn't been bored in three years!
I'd hit the penthouse library (because ten thousand square feet of space meant it had a library). I'd finished novel after novel by the pool. Then I'd discovered on-demand video. I'd found a yoga class. Somehow I got through it. I would never scoff at yoga again.
"Is the sex amazing?" Ivanna asked.
"He puts me . . . he puts me in a chastity belt." Normally, I'd never tell her about this, but I had to vent.
She gave a throaty laugh. "How unexpected!"
"You aren't outraged for me? It's archaic! And I don't have any clothes. I either wear a shirt of his or go without. So basically I'm left naked and available for his use whenever he wants me."
"Your accent just thickened, and your voice grew husky. He's not the only one enjoying your situation."
I lay back, staring at the ceiling. "All I can think about is him. His body. It's like I'm drugged. My brain goes on a loop, replaying things we've done, imagining things we'll do. I walk around in this lust-fueled haze."
"It sounds enchanting."
"Have you ever had a man put you into chastity?"
She sighed. "I've never had one who cared enough to."
Care? He'd assured me he would toss me out as soon as he was done using me. And where would that leave me? Crushed. "I don't think that man's capable of caring. Ivanna, he can be so cold. Por Dios, I'd get whiplash if I tried to keep up with his moods."
And yet . . . he could also be a dream. This morning when he'd made love to me, he'd pinned my wrists over my head. But then he'd threaded his fingers through mine, locking our hands together.
Lock and key. Intertwined.
The pleasure he continued to give me was indescribable. And in those sweet twilight moments after sex, he drew me like no other man before. Earlier, as we'd caught our breath, he'd confessed, "I have little control with you. Stranger still, I'm making peace with it." Yet then he'd grown chilly once more.
Ivanna said, "Despite his moods, it seems as if you like him."
If I was honest with myself, I'd say that I did. I enjoyed his tricky mind and his intensity. His passion. But only an idiot would get attached to a guy like that.
Besides, if I developed feelings for him, then that meant he was trouble. Any impulse I had to like him or trust him should be taken as irrefutable evidence to do neither. You can't argue with science.
I told Ivanna, "I just want my freedom."
"Could you fall for him?"
"I . . . maybe?" Idiota! "I don't want to find out! Which is why I need to get away from him as soon as possible!"
"Why wouldn't you want him? Cat, are you already involved? Do you have a man?"
One hunting the city to kill me! I gave a humorless laugh. "Yeah. You could say I'm involved with another man."
"Do tell!"
I sighed. "Another time maybe."
"Very well. Then let's think about your end game. With as much access as you've been given to Sevastyan, have you learned any scoop to tell me about his past? His deep dark secrets? We could sell such a story."
"His deep dark secrets? Those are the kind I keep best."
"So you won't tell me what he's doing in Miami?"
If I had to guess, Maksimilian Sevastyan was buying up as much of the city as possible. From what I could glean, Miami was the closest ultra-deep port to the Panama Canal, which meant tons of new shipping traffic for the city--traffic that would demand warehouses, infrastructure, and rail spurs.
Yet I told Ivanna, "He's here to work on his tan?"
"I see," she said in a knowing tone. "Chin up. Now that you have a phone, you can call others. Maybe another friend could do more than smuggle in contraband?"
"You're right. I'll burn up the wires, dialing everyone I can count on. . . ."
After we'd hung up, I threw my arm over my face, tempted to fling the phone across the room.
I was still friendless. Still trapped in this belt. Trapped with a man who looked forward to the day when he could discard me. I was about to scream with combined frustration when I shot upright, remembering Mrs. Abernathy's threatening message. Mierda! If she called INS . . .
I dialed the woman up. "Hi, Mrs. Abernathy, it's Cat. I'm confirming for the thirty-first. Si, senora. I'll be there at nine a.m. sharp. Gracias." My jaw dropped when she started a lecture about work ethics.
Work ethics. From someone who didn't have a job.
I'd just hung up and hidden the phone in the guest room closet when I heard Sevastyan return.
Already? The sun was still high in the sky. I smiled when he bellowed, "Fucking come to me, witch."
CHAPTER 20
Knowing how much it would piss him off, I'd added a sixth slash to Sevastyan's mirror this morning.
Not long after, he found me in the pool, doing topless laps to music as per my usual. As per his usual, he was dressed to the nines. His tailored dark blue suit lovingly fit his broad shoulders and lean hips. His sunglasses made his hotness catapult off the charts.
He always looked flawless--except on those occasions when I could muss his hair. He picked up the remote, turning down my tunes.
"You and your clothes, Ruso. How much did that suit cost?"