I’m not perfect. I’m tainted. He touched me. He violated me.
Will gently spread my legs apart.
The moment he touched me, I screamed out, “Stop! I can’t! I can’t!” I instantly began crying.
Will jumped off the bed and away from me. I frantically began searching for my shorts and panties. I slipped them on as Will just stood there.
“Lex, I didn’t mean to push you into…I mean, I thought you wanted me to…I thought that’s why you wanted to come here.”
I wiped my tears away and grabbed my keys. “I just need time.”
I turned to open the door when Will grabbed my arm.
“Lex, stop pushing me away. Why are you pushing me away?”
My head was spinning, and all I could see was Blake’s body over mine as he reached his hand inside my p
ants.
Oh God, make it go away.
I swallowed hard. “I’m…I’m no good for you, Will.”
His mouth dropped open. “What? Lex, what in the hell do you mean? You’re my everything. You mean the world to me.”
I shook my head and pushed him away from me. “No, he ruined it.”
Will used his hand to shut the door. “He ruined what, Lex? Please talk to me, baby. Please tell me what you’re thinking.”
I knew the only way Will would let me go was if I told him he was scaring me. In my heart, I knew Will would never hurt me, but I wasn’t ready to talk about this with him.
I looked him in the eyes. “You’re scaring me.”
Will immediately dropped his hand from the door and took a few steps back. The look in his eyes and on his face gutted me. I never wanted him to think I was afraid of him.
“Lex, I would never…” His eyes began to fill with tears.
I wanted to tell him that I didn’t mean what I’d just said. I went to say something, but he turned and picked up his truck keys. He came back to the door and reached around me to leave the clubhouse. I stood there, not knowing what to do. I’d just hurt the only person I ever loved.
He began walking to his truck.
Say something, Alex.
“Will! Will, please wait,” I said as I began running to him.
He jumped into his truck. “The last thing I’d ever want to do is scare you.”
I shook my head. “No, no, Will. I just didn’t want—”
“I get it, Lex. You need time. I’ll leave you alone for a bit.”
I started crying harder. “Will…I didn’t mean that.”
“I saw it in your eyes.” He threw his truck into drive and started driving off.
I stood there, alone.
I’m all alone.