I looked back at the road and gripped the steering wheel tighter.
Motherfucker. I can’t believe she asked if we have to use a condom.
Yes!
No.
Yes!
Oh fuck.
We drove in silence as everything raced through my head. As I pulled down the driveway, I glanced over at Lex. She was staring out the window and rubbing her hands up and down her legs. She was just as nervous as I was.
After I pulled up and parked, she turned to me and smiled. My heart dropped, and I knew what we were about to do was exactly what we both wanted—and needed.
The way Will was staring at me caused me to smile bigger. I was nervous as hell, but I had no doubt in my mind what we were about to do was going to be perfect. And it was long overdue.
Damn it. My hands wouldn’t stop sweating, and I had to keep rubbing them on my pants.
Will turned his body to face me, so I did the same.
He reached for my hands. “Lex, are you on the pill?”
Oh God. This is getting real. I nodded my head. “Yes. I’ve been on it for the last year.”
His face dropped. “Does your father know?”
I laughed and shook my head. “No. My mother and I talked about it, and even though I told her that I wasn’t sexually active, we both agreed it would be best if I started it.”
Will’s face turned white.
“What’s wrong?” I asked.
“Nothing. I just keep thinking back to your dad telling me he would break both my hands if I ever touched you the wrong way.”
I giggled and rolled my eyes. I brought his hand up to my lips and kissed the back of it. “Well, my dad isn’t here, is he?”
Will slowly licked his lips and whispered, “No.”
“So, are we going to sit in the truck? Or are we going in?”
“Um…Lex, I don’t think I have any condoms.”
I frowned at the idea of having a barrier between us. “I’m on the pill. It’s okay.”
He leaned back and dropped his head on the headrest. “I can’t, Lex.”
I instantly felt sick. I turned and faced forward. “Why don’t you want me, Will?”
He sat up and looked at me. “What?”
I quickly wiped the tear away and whispered, “Can you just take me home?”
Will grabbed my hand. “Lex, look at me.”
I slowly turned and looked at him.
“Lex, I want you so damn much that I can hardly breathe. What I can’t do is make love to you without a condom. I won’t do that to you or me or our future. I promised your dad that I would never hurt you and that I would always keep your best interests first.”