“Don’t worry about it. We can take it with us down to the river tomorrow. Jeff and I have a few things to take care of in the morning around the ranch but we are free all afternoon. What do you say you and Ari meet us at the river around one?”Gunner said as he brought the basket back over to the jeep and I folded up the blanket and set it on the back seat.
“Sounds good, but how will we find our way to the river? This place is HUGE!”
Gunner let out a laugh as he went to start the jeep. It wouldn’t turn over. Oh shit. After two more attempts it finally started.
“I need to tell Drake that the battery needs replacing in this thing. Make sure y’all take my truck tomorrow and I will have Grams tell y’all how to get there in the morning. ”
Gunner reached over and gave me a kiss before he pulled out onto the gravel road and headed back to the ranch house. I had never in my life felt as happy as I did at this moment. I never wanted to leave. I thought I was so excited about starting school at UT in the fall but I found myself dreaming of starting a family with Gunner and living here on the ranch. What a silly dream…. he was going to school to become an Architectural Engineer, not a rancher.
We drove in silence until we reached the ranch house. Before Gunner got out I reached over and held his arm to stop him.
He turned and looked at me with a smile. “What’s wrong sweetheart?”
I was not sure why I needed to ask him this but it all of a sudden became very important to me.
“Nothing is wrong it’s just…. well I mean with us talking about wanting kids and everything I just…. . well I just wanted to ask you…. . shit…. this is not coming out right!”
“Ellie, I’ve already told you sweetheart you can ask me anything you want. I’ll never hide anything from you. ”
“I just was wondering where you saw yourself in the future? I mean I know you only have one more year of college and your degree is in Architectural Engineering but you also love football so much. Jefferson mentioned that you already had NFL teams interested in you. Do you see yourself playing pro football?”
Gunner sat back in his seat and pushed his hand through his hair. Holy hell I loved it when he did that and I started to get that damn ache between my legs again. I had to fiddle around in my seat to ease the ache. Gesh how does he turn me on so easily?
Gunner looked over at me after sitting there for almost a minute in silence.
Oh shit…. here it is…. . I just knew he was going to say he sees himself playing pro ball…. did I want to be with someone who would be traveling all the time…. the women who would always be after his attention I just couldn’t imagine it…. my heart just sank.
“Honestly Ellie, my dream ever since I was a little kid was to build and design buildings and to run this ranch. I figured I could do both so that’s why I majored in Architectural Engineering. Jeff and I both are going to get hired on where we have been interning after we get out of school but I already worked it out to where I would do most of my work from out here. My number one dream is to take over this ranch. I would like to get married here, have my kids here and raise them right here on the ranch. ”
I was not expecting him to say that. It felt like at least one hundred butterflies went off in my stomach. Would he ever want that life with…. . me?
“So, no pro football even though you have teams trying to get you signed on?” I asked as I fiddled with my hands.
“No Ells, no pro football. I don’t want to be away from the people I love. Especially with my grandparents getting older I want to be here for them. Take the burden off of them with the ranch and I if I am really blessed I hope to give them great grandkids. ”
“Oh wow…. um…that sounds wonderful Gunner. ” I turned to open the door to get out of the jeep but Gunner grabbed my hand and stopped me.
He started to laugh. “Well that’s not really fair. You get to ask me about my future, what about yours?”
What was I going to say? Oh well okay…I have only known you for a little over a month now but I want to marry you and have your kids and live out here on your family’s ranch. Yeah that would scare him the fuck off!
“Well I guess I’m not really sure where I see my future. I’m starting college soon so I guess that is really about as far as I’m thinking right now just going to college. ” I said with a shrug of my shoulders.
Gunner’s face fell and it looked like he was devastated. What the hell? What did I say wrong?
He slowly gave me a small smile and let go of my hand. He got out of the jeep so fast I almost didn’t see him grab the basket and head to the front door.
OH SHIT! I guess I pretty much just told him I didn’t think I saw him in my future.
OH NO! FUCK!
“Gunner wait a minute! That’s not the truth, that’s not the truth at all. ”
“It’s okay Ellie, we have different ideas about our future it’s not that big of a deal. ” He said as he turned to walk away. How could he say that? Why would he say that?
“Gunner please stop! Don’t walk away from me after what just happened between us. ”
Gunner stopped and turned to look at me. “I would never walk away from you Ellie. Ever…. . ”