I didn’t know what to say or how I should even start it. So, I did the only thing I’d wanted to do since I saw her walk into Jeff and Ari’s house two weeks ago. I inched closer to her, took her face in my hands, and kissed her.
The moan that escaped from her mouth drove me mad, and my dick was hard within seconds. It had nothing to do with the fact that I had not slept with Lynda in months. It was because I was kissing Heather. I craved her kiss and her touch more than anything else in my life.
I pulled away from her mouth, so we could catch our breath. When she closed her eyes, a tear rolled down her face.
I took my thumb and wiped it away.
“I love you, Heather. I’ve only ever loved you. ”
Her beautiful blue eyes opened, and it was like she was staring into my soul.
“I’m so sorry. I never meant for what happened with Jerry to happen. I can’t get it out of my head. I’ve tried to do everything I could think of to just forget it, but I can’t. That was supposed to be you. I wanted that to be you so badly, Josh. ”
She started crying even harder.
I pulled her into me and held on to her.
“I wanted it to be you more than anything. ”
“It’s okay princess. Please don’t cry. It doesn’t matter anymore. All that matters is you and me, Heather. ”
She pulled away, looking at me.
“I know what people think about me, and they’re wrong. I haven’t been with anyone since that night with Jerry. I couldn’t be with anyone else but you. ”
I leaned down and took her mouth with mine. I kissed her with as much passion as I possibly could. I needed to show her how much I loved and wanted her.
Heather pulled away again.
“Josh, I know you’re with Lynda, and I wouldn’t want you to be unfaithful to her. ”
I closed my eyes and let out a sigh.
“Heather, I have no intentions of staying with Lynda. The minute she gets back from Costa Rica, I’m going to tell her it’s over. She knows that I don’t love her. We haven’t even slept together in months. ”
“Really?” Heather asked, her voice a little too excited.
I smiled at her.
“Yes, really. I’ve never loved anyone but you. I only want to be with you. ”
Heather slowly lowered herself onto the blanket. When she was lying back all I could see was her chest moving up and down. I knew she was scared to death.
I got down on the blanket and put my hand on her stomach. I felt her whole body tremble under my touch. I was nervous as hell. I hadn’t felt this way since the day we were in Jeff and Ari’s hallway. I leaned down and captured her lips with mine. Her hands immediately went in my hair, pulling me closer. She was driving me crazy.
Slow, Josh. It needs to be special. This is her real first time.
I slowly moved my lips away from hers.
“Princess, sit up for me. ”
She looked confused for a second, but sat up anyway. I got on my knees and kissed her forehead, then her nose, and then down the side of her face to her neck.
“Oh god. ” she said.
I started to kiss her gently on her lips as I moved my hands to her T-shirt. I only broke the kiss to bring the shirt over her head.
“Lie back down, baby. ” I felt her body trembling as I helped her lie back. I wanted to do everything I could to make her feel loved and wanted.