Emilyn bounced around on her toes, making her black hair sway. Then, she ran straight to Ainsley. “Night. I can’t wait to see you again.”
“Me either, Squirt.”
Next, she came running up to me. “I like you. Will you come over again sometime? My mom is trying to set Ainsley up with a guy named Joe, but I like you better than him.”
My initial instinct was to set everyone straight that I was the only man in Ainsley’s life, but I tempered my emotions. Ainsley had awakened a possessive side of me that had been asleep for years. I only had exclusive partners, but the possibility of them going to someone else had never bothered me as long as they ended it with me first. If they did move on before ending it with me, we would be history anyway, so it wouldn’t matter. They had all been a way to pass the time while getting off and having fun.
I gave Emilyn a hug back. Then, I pulled back and winked. “Well, I guess I’ll have to make sure I stay on your good side, so you keep liking me better than this Joe. We all can go for ice cream sometime, if that sounds good.” The words were out before I’d had a chance to process what I was saying.
This was all part of redrawing the lines. It was okay to be here, to be a part of Ainsley’s life in this sense. I swallowed, trying to find my balance in all this again. It was like taking a detour and not knowing when I’d end up back on the route I was used to.
We all said our good-byes. At the sound of the door clicking, I waited for a few seconds and then turned to Ainsley.
“Ainsley, we need to talk.”
Her face dropped from the teasing smile she’d had, and her eyes got wider.
Then, it sank in how I had worded it. Those were the dreaded four words to any relationship.
“Shit, I don’t mean it like that. I meant, I want to change some things about our agreement. I’d like to extend the borders of where we have sex, if that sounds good to you.”
She sat back on the couch, and I followed. While she twirled her ring, I could tell she was still cautious.
“What kind of new borders? What made you change your mind?”
That’s a fair question.
I was about to change everything up, and she deserved some answers, especially since we had only started this a few days ago.
“Honestly, Ainsley, I like fucking you—a lot. If we both understand the score, it shouldn’t matter where we do it. Why not make it easier on ourselves? The concept still stays in place.”
She cocked her head at me. “So, basically, we’re going out together in public now, but everything is still with no attachments.”
My hands moved through the air to emphasize my point. “No attachments. Just pleasure anywhere we want it.”
“Then, what happened at the supermarket today?” She was obviously analyzing the situation.
Why, oh why, couldn’t I keep my cool today? Who am I kidding? I went ballistic, thinking someone else was trying to move in on what is mine—for now.
“Honestly?”
She folded her hands in her lap. The no-nonsense Ainsley I liked was here in full force.
“Are you anything but honest with me? Yes, I want to know what the honest answer is. Adam, I don’t need an attachment, but I do need to know that you’re being honest with me. I can’t handle lying.”
I felt like I was screwing this up all to hell, and I needed to get this back on track. “Ainsley, I am always honest with you. I won’t lie to you. I didn’t expect to see you at the store today. I had wanted to text you all day. Then, I saw you, and all I could think about was you naked beneath me. When that asshole tried to get a date, something that I wasn’t aware was still in me came to the surface. It’s why I normally refuse to take what I do outside of the club. I’m territorial, Ainsley. I don’t share what I consider mine, and I wanted to beat the shit out of that guy for looking at you the way he did.”
She visibly flinched and stood up before going across the room. I could feel the emotional distance she had put between us. The feeling left me bereft. I wanted her to be connected with me again.
I stood and walked toward her. “What did I say wrong? Talk to me, Ainsley.”
She froze, and for some reason, I needed to touch her to console her. She was as stiff as a board, and she looked around the room as if she were plotting her escape.
“Are you a violent man, Adam?”
“What?” My voice sounded confused as I tried to process everything.
“You said you wanted to beat the shit out of the cashier. Are you normally violent? I need you to be honest with me.”
I touched her face. “Hey, look at me, Ainsley.”
She slowly glanced up, and the worry in her eyes cut through me.
What happened to her?
I needed her to trust me. “I would never hurt you. I’ve been in fights and broken up fights, but I’ve never nor would I ever hit a woman. Have I ever made you feel uncomfortable until now?”
She shook her head. “No, I feel safe and protected when I’ve been with you. Your reaction today shocked me. What came to the surface today? What did you mean by that?”
Double shit.
The last thing I wanted to do was explain my fucked-up past. I brought my thumbs to her shoulders, and I began rubbing them. “I’m glad you feel protected when you’re with me. I want you to feel that way.” I stopped and Ainsley continued to look expectantly at me. Hell, might as well tell her. “In high school and for a few years after that, I had a serious girlfriend—or what I thought was a serious girlfriend. To make a long story short, she cheated on me several times. It’s why I keep things to the club. There’s no need for all the extra bullshit and wondering who might be moving in on your girl.”
I had to know what had happened to her. Right now was not the time to ask. If I started prying too deep it would open up a two-way street I wasn’t prepared to reciprocate. The need to fiercely protect her was surfacing, and I was trying to squelch it. This wasn’t part of the arrangement, but thinking of her ever being with another man pissed me off. She was mine.
I mentally added, For now.
She leaned up on her tiptoes. “I don’t want to talk anymore. I want our escape from reality. Make me forget. You free me in a way I never thought possible.”
“Whatever you want, it’s yours.”
She looked desperate to get out of whatever memory was tormenting her. She stood back, pulled her shirt over her head, and shimmied out of her shorts. I ran my hands along the sides of her ribs.
“I want to forget. Please,” she said.
I pulled the condom out of my back pocket, unbuttoned my pants, pulled my cock out, and put it on. I snapped her barely there panties off of her and picked her up by her ass.
Hell, I’d buy her a hundred pairs just to rip them off her body.
Within seconds, I pushed into her, feeling relieved to be inside her again. The inner beast that had been roaming, trying to obliterate all in its path, quieted. Tonight, she’d forget everything but the pleasure I would bring to her body. Her back was against the wall as I moved in and out of her, pushing my dick along her throbbing walls. I bit her perky nipple and then sucked it hard as she cried out in pleasure. She knotted her hands in my hair. I wanted it quick and fast before I took her over the couch and lost myself in her. I’d draw it out more later.
“I’m almost there, Adam. Harder.”
I did as she’d wished and let go of her nipple to increase the movement. I sank deeper and deeper into her. Her pussy began to clench, and I knew she was close.
Pure heaven.
Her eyes rolled back in her head as she called out, “Yes!”
She was warm and tight as she lost herself in the sensation. I had to focus on not losing my load in her. I rode out Ainsley’s wave of ecstasy. As her head fell to my shoulder, I walked toward the back of the couch as she continued to pulse around me.
I pulled out of her, set her down on her feet, and turned her to face the back of the couch. “Baby, lean over.”
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She complied as I spread her legs. She was still high from her orgasm. Lining up my cock, I rammed myself into her. Ainsley gave a sound of bliss as her head lay on the back of the couch. Inch by inch, I pulled out and then ran my cock up her cleft. Another moan escaped. Lining back up at her entrance, I thrust in so deep that she screamed as her body perked back to life.
“Does that feel good, Ainsley? Do you like it hard?”
“Yes! Again!”
I repeated the motion, but this time, she squeezed me tight, and I had to close my eyes to focus on not coming. I knew I had hit that spot within her again.
She was nearly panting as she bucked into me. “Adam, I need—”
The twisting motion of my hips stopped her mid-sentence. “I’ve got you, baby.”
Holding her hips firm, I quickened my pace. Ainsley tried to use her arms as leverage to push back and meet me, but I didn’t allow her to move. Three more thrusts, and she collapsed on the couch, calling out incoherent words. I let the sensation release my own euphoric orgasm through me. As I pulled out, Ainsley began slipping to the floor. I quickly picked her up before she dropped too far down and cradled her into my arms. She was limp as I carried her to her room.
I need to get this damn condom off.
“Did that give you what you were looking for?”
She nestled further into my chest at my words, but then she stopped. “Are you leaving already?”
I liked hearing the regret in her voice. She didn’t want me to go. I didn’t want to go.
“No, baby, we’re just getting started.”
She giggled. “Good.”