Sex would change us.
I would break her heart.
Logically, that meant I needed to stop.
I tried pulling back, but the vixen hooked her feet behind me, trapping me in the most perfect hell I’d ever experienced, where the heat from her tight walls nearly suffocated me—brought me sweet death and then constricted, releasing me, only to tighten again. And from the look on her face, she was doing it on purpose. Tightening and releasing, tightening and releasing, building a rhythm I became driven to match. Looser . . . press forward, tighter . . . pull back. In and out. I was past that point of no return, past rational thinking and into straight-up pleasure.
So I stayed.
I tried to control it.
But the thing about sex—when it’s with someone you have feelings for, you can’t hold back.
She moaned.
We locked eyes.
I thrust harder.
She groaned louder.
Her lips parted.
I captured her mouth, my body slamming into hers in a punishing thrust as I gripped her hips and kissed her, bruised her mouth in an effort to make sure she never forgot it was me, it was us—together.
“Thorn—”
I pulled back and clenched my teeth in an effort to make the moment last longer—you’d think with all the sex I’d had, it would have been a simple matter of control.
But that’s another thing—when you’re with the right woman, you can’t help it.
One last thrust, and she clawed at my back and screamed my name so loud that I was pretty sure the neighbors were going to complain.
Release exploded through me with Avery Black’s name on my lips. I lowered my head and fused my mouth to hers, swallowing her cries as she contracted around me.
My heart would never be the same.
Because when we both pulled away from one another, I could have sworn I saw her grab the still beating vessel from my chest and hold it in the palm of her hands.
Without her—I felt empty.
Or maybe I’d always been that way.
The moment was crushed when she burst into tears.
I was still inside her.
And she was crying.
“Did I hurt you?” I tried to sound gentle rather than horrified that I might have harmed her physically.
Her answer was to shake her head and cry harder. Tears streamed down her cheeks to her swollen lips—and damn, I knew she was crying, but could she have looked any more beautiful?
“Avery, you gotta help me out. I don’t know how to fix it if you don’t tell me what’s wrong.” I wiped her tears away with both of my thumbs and waited.
She sniffled. “I kind of wish you were a jackass right now. Quick, do you think you can go back to being really insulting?”
“I’m still inside you. We just had sex,” I said slowly. Incredible, brain-numbing, heart-stopping, wanna-do-it-again-soon sex. “And you want me to . . . insult you?”
She nodded quickly and then pounded a fist against the mattress. “Damn it, Thorn!” Her eyes widened. “Insult me!”
“You’re, um”—I coughed—“short?”
Avery flicked my nipple.
“Hey!” I swatted her hand away. “What the hell kind of postcoital ritual is this?”
With a grin, she shrugged. “I just needed a reminder.”
“A reminder,” I repeated. “Of how to inflict pain on me?”
“No.” Her expression sobered. “That I’m not different.”
“This is a fun game, Avery Bug, really, talking in circles and then hitting me every time I do exactly as you say . . .”
“Never mind.” She waved me away. “Also, you’re really heavy.”
“It’s called muscle.” I rolled my eyes as I pulled away from her and dropped back against the feather pillows. I thrust my hands behind my head to keep myself from grabbing her again and asking for another round.
Asking.
Since when had I ever asked?
“Thorn?”
“Hmm?”
Avery scooted toward me until her face was in the crook of my arm, her hand pressed against my chest. “Will you do me a favor?”
“Depends. Will you tell me why you cried?”
“I’m a girl.”
“Woman,” I corrected. “And what’s this favor you speak of?”
“Can we have steak in bed?”
“As opposed to the table?” I smiled, unable to help it. “Oh, I see what this is—you like all your meat in bed.”
A pillow pummeled my face, once, twice.
Laughing, I grabbed it and let it fly against her face.
She cursed. “THORN!”
“Ah, there it is. You know how many times you screamed my name during—”
The pillow cut me off, and then I found myself getting strangled by a curvy vixen who, not five minutes ago, had been sobbing in my arms.
I liked her this way better.
“Are you trying to beat me up?” I burst out laughing. “And stop squirming if you don’t want to end up tied to this bed, Avery.”
Her eyes lit up.
I groaned.
“What?” She lifted a shoulder and gave me a coy look. “I bet you tie good knots.”
“Hmm, maybe after we eat the steak?” I was about ready to beg for her body, when she hopped out of bed and grabbed my shirt from the floor.
“I agree to these terms.”
I quickly disposed of the condom and wrapper, then pulled on my briefs, only to see her staring at me, jaw nearly hitting the floor.
“Avery?” I snapped my fingers in front of her. “Steak?”
Her eyes never left my cock. “I could just eat you.” And then slowly, her gaze lifted to my face and she winked. “But steak first.”
“Tease.” My body strained toward her.
She shrugged and skipped out of the room, leaving me too aroused and confused for my own damn good.
Chapter Thirty
AVERY
Be normal. No sweat. I could totally be normal after having the best mind-blowing sex of my life. Admittedly, that wasn’t saying much, given my lone previous disaster in the sack, but that was already ancient history, and my body was still overheating at the memory of his hands, my hips, or his mouth.
That.
Mouth.
I took a deep breath and braced my body against the kitchen sink. All I needed was air, just a bit of air, and I’d be totally fine.
Air and steak.
In that order.
The microwave dinged.
But when I turned around to bolt toward the food, Lucas was already there, pulling out the plate, serving it up for both of us—nearly naked.
His body glistened—seriously, it glowed with a mixture of sweat and awesomeness.
How did I get myself in this situation?
Oh, right, it all started with wine.
Most poor life choices start and end with alcohol.
But tonight?
I was completely sober.
And I had still jumped into bed with the devil. What was worse? I enjoyed it.
“Avery”—Lucas didn’t look up from the steak—“you’ve been staring at me for a good four minutes, and it’s starting to freak me out, even if it is a bit flattering. You keep eying the knife too, so could you move that sweet ass over here and eat before I use the plate as a cock shield?”
Rolling my eyes, I moseyed over to him in what I thought was a sexy, confident stroll.
Fake it ’til you make it.
Don’t cry.
I was torn between wanting more of him and making up some lame excuse about being sick so I could make a run for it.
One session in his arms was incredible.
But two? Two would be like poison.
Suicide.
Another round would kill me.
I was sure of it.
I’d be down for the count.
Lucas patted the barstool next to him. I climbed up onto it and
inhaled the aroma of steak, closing my eyes as the scent of pepper and spices filled my nostrils.
A fork was placed in my hand. I opened my eyes. “You’re giving me weapons?”
“Just be careful where you point the sharp points, Avery Bug.” He winked.
I grinned and stabbed a piece of meat, then shoved it into my mouth. The steak, even though it was reheated, was amazing.
“So . . .” Lucas ate a bite.
I ate a bite.
It felt normal.
Push it away, Avery, he doesn’t want normal.
He wants a different girl every night. The steak almost got stuck in my throat—I had to chug water to wash it down.
“So . . .” I licked my lips.