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the Legacy. If that was the case, I was sure he wasn't going to let a little holistic treatment get in his way.
I mean, okay, Thomas wasn't good for me. He was probably right about that. Technically, after the first week or so of total bliss, all he'd caused me was confusion, pain, and embarrassment. But that bliss part? That had been really good. So good that I had slept with him. And I couldn't just forget about that. He couldn't just take my virginity and slink off into the night leaving nothing but a note. What we had done meant a lot to me, and Thomas needed to know that. He needed to know that I wasn't just going to forget him. That I would never forget him, even if we weren't ever going to be together again. I cared about him. And that was that.
I slipped into my terry-?cloth robe and cinched it, then grabbed a towel and started rubbing a
t my hair hard, as if I could rub out all the confusion as well. My head was tipped forward as I walked out of the steamy bathroom, so I didn't see Natasha standing there until I had walked right into her.
“Oh! God! Sorry,” I said, jumping back. My free hand flew to my chest and I laughed. 'You scared the crap outta me."
Natasha didn't crack a smile. She didn't move. Her stare had “doom” written all over it.
“What?” I said nervously. Had she found the note? Oh, God, had she somehow found the note?
“We need to talk,” she said gravely.
“Okay,” I said, trying to egg her into a smile with my own. No such luck.
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She walked over to her laptop and flipped it open. “Sit,” she said, pulling out her desk chair for me.
I shot her a quizzical look but did as I was told. “What're we doing?”
“Just a little slide show,” Natasha told me.
She leaned over me, her breast grazing my shoulder and making me flush with embarrassment, and clicked open a window on her computer. What I saw on the screen at first made no sense to me. It was a photograph of what looked like a tongue. A very up- close shot of a tongue being stuck out at the camera. Then suddenly the view went wide and my heart dropped.
It was a tongue. My tongue. It was me. And my eyes were half- closed. And I was laughing.
“When did you take this?” I asked, glancing over my shoulder.
“Just watch,” she said.
So I did. The next picture featured me chugging a beer in the woods. The next, me with my hands on Whittaker's chest. Me and Whittaker walking away from the clearing together. Me with my arms around Whittaker, my mouth hanging open sloppily, a flask of liquor in my hand. Whittaker with his mouth pressed to mine as I held his face with my hands. Then Whittaker's hand on my breast.
Dread and shame overwhelmed me as I stared at my own face. My head was tipped back and it looked like I was moaning in pleasure, when in fact I had been about to throw up. It made me look like a slut, like a drunken whore who had lured some guy out to the woods.
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“Why . . . why are you showing these to me?” I asked, as the slideshow started up all over again. I turned my face away, from her, from the screen, from the truth of what I'd done.
“Because I want you to understand how very serious I am about what I am about to propose,” Natasha said. She grabbed the chair and spun it around on its wheels so that I had to face her. Bracing her hands on its arms, she leaned forward and looked me dead in the eye. “You do know what these pictures mean, right? You do realize that if I choose to do so, I can get you booted out of here so fast your head will spin.”
Tears prickled at the corners of my eyes. She was right, of course. She had photographic evidence of me breaking some very serious school rules. Even worse, it looked as if Whittaker and I had done it all alone. Even though there had been close to a dozen other people in the woods that night, not a single one of them appeared in these pictures.
“Why are you doing this?”
What was wrong with me? I had believed her when she told me she wanted to be my friend. When had I become so gullible?
“Because there's something I need you to do for me,” she said, standing up straight.
“What?” I was already her indentured servant. Did we need twisted espionage in our relationship?
“Noelle Lange and her friends are responsible for getting Leanne kicked out of school,” Natasha said. “They set her up.”
Her accusation did not surprise me. On the day that Natasha's