“I'm so sorry,” I said, backing away. “I thought I saw someone come in here and--”
Natasha swung her legs down and straightened her skirt. She pushed her hands into her knees, took a deep breath, and stood. Her breasts heaved in her straight-?cut strapless dress and she yanked it up under her arms to cover a bit more of her cleavage.
“I'll just go,” I said, feeling threatened.
“Don't,” Natasha said.
I froze. There were about a hundred thousand places I would have rather been just then, but I couldn't move.
“You can't tell anyone about this, Reed,” Natasha said, a plea in her voice. “Please. I know you pretty much hate me, and with good reason, but I'm begging you. Don't tell a soul.”
I swallowed hard and looked from her to Leanne, who was averting her eyes, her hands flattened on the chaise at her sides.
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Was Natasha begging me? Had she really just admitted I had reason to hate her? Natasha “Do-?As-?I-?Say-?or-?Die” Crenshaw?
“I won't,” I said. “I swear.”
Natasha sighed and looked at the floor.
“Are you two ... going out?” I asked.
Natasha and Leanne exchanged a long glance. Finally Natasha sat back down next to Leanne, her crinoline rustling. They stared into each other's eyes. Outside the music continued to pound.
“Go ahead,” Leanne said finally, deflating. She leaned back against the wall and crossed her arms over her stomach. “Go ahead and tell her. She should know what they're really about.”
Why did I have a feeling that this was going to make a little more sense than I needed it to?
Natasha lifted Leanne's hand and laced their fingers together. She looked up at me and nodded. “Yes. We're a couple,” she said flatly. “We've been together since sophomore year.”
“That's why you made me sneak around,” I said, sitting on a bench across from them. “That's why you wanted Leanne back so badly.”
Natasha tipped her head forward and sighed. “Reed, the blackmail was all a setup. I wasn't really blackmailing you. Noelle was blackmailing me.”
I shook my head slightly as this piece of information attempted to penetrate. “Excuse me. I think I just got whiplash,” I said. “What?”
“They told me to take those pictures, Reed,” Natasha said, leaning forward. “They told me to blackmail you.”
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I felt like one of the acrobats had just swooped in, tossed my feet over my head, and dropped me back down to the floor. I stared at the wall between Natasha and Leanne and tried to suck in a breath. Tiny black dots marred my vision and I closed my eyes against a wave of swirling nausea.
“Are you okay?” Natasha asked.
I placed my cool and clammy hand against my hot-?as-?fire forehead. “Why? Why? Wh--” It was the only word I could form. I opened my eyes and attempted to focus on Natasha. “Why would you do this to me?”
“Because they threatened to tell everyone about us,” Natasha said, glancing at Leanne.
“So . . . what? You were afraid of being disowned by your Republican parents? Is that it?” I asked.
“No! It wasn't for me,” Natasha said. “My parents know I'm a lesbian. I've been out with them since I was thirteen. They think it's cool. Like it gives them edge or something.”
“So why?” I asked. “I don't understand.”
“She did it for me, okay?” Leanne shouted. “God, how thick can you be? If my parents found out about us, I would be out on the street like that,” she said, snapping her fingers. “They would not only disown me, they would destroy me. I would be lucky to get a job at the freakin' Gap, okay? She did it for me.”
I felt my mouth hanging open. I stared as Natasha leaned back and touched Leanne's face gently with the back of her hand. Leanne drew in a shaky breath and quickly wiped back a tear.