But when I saw the way the trees started to appear again, the whole burned-out, shriveled up sight of them, I tossed that feeling aside and instead dropped down to my knees.
I was staring at my dog, having no idea what to do, when Bodhi said, “What’s his problem?” He glanced between Buttercup and me with a confused expression that served as a perfect match for my own.
I lifted my shoulders and sighed. As hard as I’d tried, I couldn’t recall one traumatic moment in Buttercup’s life—or even his death for that matter.
He’d just seamlessly transitioned from a breathing state to a not-breathing state as though it were really no different. Making straight for the bridge with no hesitation, his tail wagging, paws scurrying, as though some wonderful adventure awaited us all.
I placed my hand on his head, combing my fingers through a soft tuft of fur just under his chin before scratching the spot between his ears. Figuring that if I was connected to all those other souls, connected to the energy of the very ground I knelt upon, then why wouldn’t I be connected to Buttercup too?
I concentrated on merging my energy with his, allowing it to stream and meld until I found myself inside his canine head, where I was amazed to see my dog’s own personal version of a hellish experience:
The moment he was pulled away from his mama and his five other littermates so he could come live with us.
I admit, the second I saw that, I started to feel angry again, but knowing that came with consequences, I quickly moved past it. Still, what was I supposed to make of that? I mean, really—was he serious? Had he really viewed the move to our house as some kind of wretched experience?
But then I remembered.
Remembered how he actually spent that first night—or, should I s
ay, how we all spent that first night.
All of us forced to take turns getting out of our beds so that we could try to comfort him as he cried and whimpered and refused to relax.
It was awful.
For us—for him—but probably mostly for him.
He had no way of knowing that the way he felt at that moment wouldn’t go on forever.
He had no way of knowing just how good it was about to get.
Though I had no idea how to get that point across to him, had no idea where to even begin.
Thanks to Rebecca and this horrible bubble she’d created, Buttercup was stuck in the one and only truly bad moment he’d ever known, and as far as he was concerned, he’d never known anything else.
So, I did the only thing I could think of—I curled up beside him and continued to scratch that spot between his ears. Trying to fill my mind with vibrant, happy memories of all the fun times we’d shared, hoping they’d somehow find their way into his brain and maybe even carve out a little space for that sweet, quiet silence to creep in.
And it wasn’t long before the whimpers died down, the whining ceased, and Buttercup lifted his head, popped his eyes open, and jumped to his feet.
Bodhi heaved a big sigh of relief, as I wrapped my arms around my dog and gave him a giant squeeze. Cradling his muzzle with both hands, I peered deep into his big brown eyes to make sure he truly was back.
Then I looked at Bodhi and said, “We have to go find the prince.”
But Bodhi was already shaking his head.
Already lifting his arm and pointing toward the very spot where Rebecca now stood.
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Her dog stood right alongside her, looking nothing like the Snarly Yow/Black Shuck/Hell Beast I remembered from before.
This dog was tiny.
And nervous.
The kind with yippy barks and dancing paws.
While I’d done my best to fill Bodhi in on everything that I’d learned about Rebecca, when we were still searching for Buttercup, while I’d tried to make it clear just how dark and evil she was, one look at his face was all it took to see he wasn’t quite sure if he should believe me.