She breathed deep into her stomach, held it, then exhaled slowly, seeing her father and mother in her mind, so in love and yet so apart now.
What is this doing to Dad? To Mom?
Gretchen felt sick at these questions and wanted to cry again.
He doesn’t deserve this. Neither does she. Haven’t they suffered enough, God? Haven’t they suffered enough?
She thought of her best friend forever, Susan, and her sometime boyfriend Nick. What are they thinking? Are they trying to find me? Is anyone?
Curling up into a fetal position, Gretchen tried to find strength in prayer and in her belief in the good. But the questions kept circling and elbowing their way back into her thoughts.
Why am I here? Why is this being done to me? What did I do, God, to deserve this? What if I never see Dad or Mom again?
The soft squeal of metal on metal stopped her thoughts, made her sit up and stare in fear at the crude door with the two dead bolts. It had never opened before.
The door swung inward.
The teenager’s hand flew to her mouth, and she stifled a scream.
He was football-player big and dressed in black, from his motorcycle boots to his wool cap and tinted paintball visor. There was a blinking GoPro camera mounted in a harness on his chest. But she was focused in terror on his right gloved hand, which held an ornate knife with a curved and wicked-looking blade.
“Hello, Gretchen,” he said in a strange electronic voice. “Are you ready to play a game for us?”
CHAPTER
27
I SLIPPED INTO bed shortly after one thirty in the morning, unsure of how much of Neal Parks’s story I believed and too tired to think about it anymore.
It felt like only minutes passed between my head hitting the pillow and someone shaking my shoulder.
I came to consciousness thickly and cracked open a groggy eye to see Jannie and Ali standing by my bed, dressed for the morning jog I’d promised them. I could feel the heat of Bree’s body behind me, and not wanting to wake her, I held a finger to my lips.
They nodded and crept out of the room. I got up, feeling a little dizzy and wanting three, maybe four more hours of sleep. But these days a promise to my kids was a promise I tried to keep.
I got dressed in the closet and eased out of the room, smelling coffee brewing downstairs. I went to the kitchen, where Nana Mama, in her navy-blue nightgown and robe, was already pouring me a small cup of coffee. Jannie and Ali were tying their shoelaces.
“Bless you,” I said when she handed the cup to me.
“You fall asleep in front of the TV again?” Nana Mama asked.
I nodded and took several reviving sips of the coffee.
“I think that TV should have an automatic shutoff,” my grandmother said.
“It does,” Ali said. “Or the cable box does.”
“Let’s go,” I said, wanting to end the conversation. I set the empty cup down. “I have a new client coming this morning, and I don’t want to be late.”
We went outside. The first light of day showed in the sky, and the air was cool when we started to run. We took a route that led to Lincoln Park and back, about four miles round trip.
When I ran alone, I rarely thought, and yet I often got home to find I’d figured out one problem or another. The subconscious at work and all that. But a mindless run was impossible with Ali, especially once Jannie picked up her pace after a mile and left us in the dust.
“Dad?” Ali said, jogging beside me. “Did you know that running for more than thirty minutes promotes brain-cell regeneration?”
I glanced down at him, in wonder again that a nine-year-old, my nine-year-old, could know about brain-cell regeneration.
“Can’t say that I did,” I said, puffing along. “I mean, I know it’s good for your heart.”