“So what the hell do we do? Just keep running?”
“We have to go back,” she says.
“Shit.”
I demand to grow gills.
“Yeah,” she says. “So, will we call them at the same time?” She checks her phone. “There’s decent reception here.”
“I don’t know,” I say. “I wanted something symbolic to send to him. Something that means I’m serious.”
“Like leaving didn’t make him think you were serious?”
“I don’t know. I just thought we’d have a list, I guess.”
Hannah grabs a napkin from the shiny stainless-steel napkin dispenser and pulls out her pen. She writes:
We’ve kidnapped ourselves.
We’re safe.
We’re sick of how you treat us.
She takes a picture of the napkin with her phone. We make it lighter and more contrast-y through some app she has, and we crop it, but we leave in the random pepper shaker because it seems to add to the whole thing.
She sends it to me.
Once I get it, I attach it to a text for my dad: I’ll call you later.
We count to three and hit SEND.
We stay at another motel because I don’t feel comfortable barging in on Joe Jr. late at night. Plus it gives me time to send him two more texts. I even call him twice, but he lets it ring out. While Hannah is in the bathroom, I try to look the circus website up on her phone, but the reception is terrible.
Breaking rule #5 again puts me in a new state. Magic. Postal abbreviation MG. It doesn’t need a zip code because it’s too big.
But just like FS, it follows you around.
As we drive into Joe’s circus town, using the address I scribbled on a napkin from the lobby where I looked up the website on the computer this morning, we are both still in MG. I aim to keep it that way no matter what awaits us.
I called my dad last night.
He said he didn’t think the kidnapping note was funny.
“I won’t come back until Tasha is gone or I can live somewhere else,” I said. “I’m willing to move into my own place. I think I can find a roommate.”
“I’ve been fighting with your mother since Friday night,” he said.
“Good for you. A little late, though, don’t you think?” I asked.
“Will you tell me where you are?”
“Nope.”
“You know that’s my car, officially.”
“So?”
“So I can have you arrested for stealing it.”
“Geez, Dad.”
He was silent.
“Did you really take a girl with you? Is that who this we is on your little note?” he asked. I could hear him squinting.
“I didn’t take her. She ran away with me. Big difference.”
“You know that won’t look good on your record.”
“Since when does having a girlfriend go on a kid’s record?” I said. “I’m sick of having such a messed-up life.”
“Me, too,” he said. I wasn’t sure what he meant.
“Look. I’m going to go now. But I’ll call you tomorrow night,” I said. “Think about what our life is like at that house. It’s not safe there, Dad.”
“That’s going a bit far, isn’t it?”
“Call Lisi. She’ll explain. I’m not coming back until I don’t have to live with Tasha anymore. Sorry to be dramatic or a douche or whatever you want to call me, but it’s just time I stand up for shit, you know? Just talk to Lisi. She’ll tell you the truth.”
I hung up then, thinking it was good to end on something edgy. Maybe then he wouldn’t drink himself into a coma and forget the whole conversation happened. Maybe if he heard it from Lisi, he’d know it was true.
Hannah’s mother panicked at the note, but she also wrote some sane things sandwiched between her insane things.
I still can’t find my white bra.
I’ll find other help.
This isn’t fair to you.
We’re eating cereal because I can’t use the stove.
I’m afraid of the stove.
We should have asked other people to help, too.
We’re sorry.
Hannah just stared at the texts as if she couldn’t see the sanity there. I said, “Now that’s progress.”
“You think?”
“Beats what my dad said.”
“Which was what?”
“He isn’t taking it seriously at all.”
She ran her fingers through my hair and curled it behind my ears, which put me back in MG. MG is a hundred times better than Gersday. For one thing, it’s real. We broke rule #5 a few more times before we took off this morning for Joe’s house.
As we’re driving up the road to our destination, I realize that Joe Jr. either doesn’t know I’m coming or doesn’t want me to come. Hannah doesn’t know this, or else she does, and doesn’t care. I am either about to f**k everything up or make it better. That should be my motto for this whole trip.
An hour later, Joe has us cornered in some sort of barn, where the trapeze rigging lives among trampolines and nets and straps, and the decorations on the walls show decades of circus history. I can’t help but stare at them while he yells.
Hannah and I hold hands.
I don’t think she likes him yelling like this, but I don’t mind, because I like how honest he’s being.
“What the $%#* did you think you’d $%#*ing find here? A $%#*ing job? A new family? Did you see those ass**les out there? You really want a bunch of circus freaks to be your new family? And what the hell can either of you do, anyway? Nothing. You can’t do shit. You work at a food stand. You can make change and fry shit. How’s that any good to us? And how’s working with us any good to you?
“And next time you drop in on people, why don’t you call first? $%#*. I could have at least warned them that you were coming so they’d be more sane.”
“I called like twelve times. You need to turn on your $%#*ing phone,” I say. “Anyway, I like your dad.”
“Then you’re an idiot,” Joe Jr. says.
“Which one was your dad?” Hannah asks.
“The biggest prick you saw today.”
“Stop, Joe. He’s not that bad. He has redeeming qualities.”
“Like what? Being able to $%#* over his own family for money? Working us like $%#*ing animals?” Joe looks toward the door as if he’s afraid someone might hear him. “Look. If I was you guys, I’d get the $%#* out of here now. Before he puts you to work and you can’t get out.”
o;So what the hell do we do? Just keep running?”
“We have to go back,” she says.
“Shit.”
I demand to grow gills.
“Yeah,” she says. “So, will we call them at the same time?” She checks her phone. “There’s decent reception here.”
“I don’t know,” I say. “I wanted something symbolic to send to him. Something that means I’m serious.”
“Like leaving didn’t make him think you were serious?”
“I don’t know. I just thought we’d have a list, I guess.”
Hannah grabs a napkin from the shiny stainless-steel napkin dispenser and pulls out her pen. She writes:
We’ve kidnapped ourselves.
We’re safe.
We’re sick of how you treat us.
She takes a picture of the napkin with her phone. We make it lighter and more contrast-y through some app she has, and we crop it, but we leave in the random pepper shaker because it seems to add to the whole thing.
She sends it to me.
Once I get it, I attach it to a text for my dad: I’ll call you later.
We count to three and hit SEND.
We stay at another motel because I don’t feel comfortable barging in on Joe Jr. late at night. Plus it gives me time to send him two more texts. I even call him twice, but he lets it ring out. While Hannah is in the bathroom, I try to look the circus website up on her phone, but the reception is terrible.
Breaking rule #5 again puts me in a new state. Magic. Postal abbreviation MG. It doesn’t need a zip code because it’s too big.
But just like FS, it follows you around.
As we drive into Joe’s circus town, using the address I scribbled on a napkin from the lobby where I looked up the website on the computer this morning, we are both still in MG. I aim to keep it that way no matter what awaits us.
I called my dad last night.
He said he didn’t think the kidnapping note was funny.
“I won’t come back until Tasha is gone or I can live somewhere else,” I said. “I’m willing to move into my own place. I think I can find a roommate.”
“I’ve been fighting with your mother since Friday night,” he said.
“Good for you. A little late, though, don’t you think?” I asked.
“Will you tell me where you are?”
“Nope.”
“You know that’s my car, officially.”
“So?”
“So I can have you arrested for stealing it.”
“Geez, Dad.”
He was silent.
“Did you really take a girl with you? Is that who this we is on your little note?” he asked. I could hear him squinting.
“I didn’t take her. She ran away with me. Big difference.”
“You know that won’t look good on your record.”
“Since when does having a girlfriend go on a kid’s record?” I said. “I’m sick of having such a messed-up life.”
“Me, too,” he said. I wasn’t sure what he meant.
“Look. I’m going to go now. But I’ll call you tomorrow night,” I said. “Think about what our life is like at that house. It’s not safe there, Dad.”
“That’s going a bit far, isn’t it?”
“Call Lisi. She’ll explain. I’m not coming back until I don’t have to live with Tasha anymore. Sorry to be dramatic or a douche or whatever you want to call me, but it’s just time I stand up for shit, you know? Just talk to Lisi. She’ll tell you the truth.”
I hung up then, thinking it was good to end on something edgy. Maybe then he wouldn’t drink himself into a coma and forget the whole conversation happened. Maybe if he heard it from Lisi, he’d know it was true.
Hannah’s mother panicked at the note, but she also wrote some sane things sandwiched between her insane things.
I still can’t find my white bra.
I’ll find other help.
This isn’t fair to you.
We’re eating cereal because I can’t use the stove.
I’m afraid of the stove.
We should have asked other people to help, too.
We’re sorry.
Hannah just stared at the texts as if she couldn’t see the sanity there. I said, “Now that’s progress.”
“You think?”
“Beats what my dad said.”
“Which was what?”
“He isn’t taking it seriously at all.”
She ran her fingers through my hair and curled it behind my ears, which put me back in MG. MG is a hundred times better than Gersday. For one thing, it’s real. We broke rule #5 a few more times before we took off this morning for Joe’s house.
As we’re driving up the road to our destination, I realize that Joe Jr. either doesn’t know I’m coming or doesn’t want me to come. Hannah doesn’t know this, or else she does, and doesn’t care. I am either about to f**k everything up or make it better. That should be my motto for this whole trip.
An hour later, Joe has us cornered in some sort of barn, where the trapeze rigging lives among trampolines and nets and straps, and the decorations on the walls show decades of circus history. I can’t help but stare at them while he yells.
Hannah and I hold hands.
I don’t think she likes him yelling like this, but I don’t mind, because I like how honest he’s being.
“What the $%#* did you think you’d $%#*ing find here? A $%#*ing job? A new family? Did you see those ass**les out there? You really want a bunch of circus freaks to be your new family? And what the hell can either of you do, anyway? Nothing. You can’t do shit. You work at a food stand. You can make change and fry shit. How’s that any good to us? And how’s working with us any good to you?
“And next time you drop in on people, why don’t you call first? $%#*. I could have at least warned them that you were coming so they’d be more sane.”
“I called like twelve times. You need to turn on your $%#*ing phone,” I say. “Anyway, I like your dad.”
“Then you’re an idiot,” Joe Jr. says.
“Which one was your dad?” Hannah asks.
“The biggest prick you saw today.”
“Stop, Joe. He’s not that bad. He has redeeming qualities.”
“Like what? Being able to $%#* over his own family for money? Working us like $%#*ing animals?” Joe looks toward the door as if he’s afraid someone might hear him. “Look. If I was you guys, I’d get the $%#* out of here now. Before he puts you to work and you can’t get out.”