Dirty talk used to make me feel shy and un
certain, but now we both felt the rush of heat that my body responded with. I imagined something in my head and pulled away, reaching down to stroke him with my hand. Austin looked like he was in pain. He let out a ragged breath. He was still big, something I remembered well, and I scooted back on the mattress as he stared at me. “Rebecca, what are you doing?”
“I’m not a kid anymore,” I told him as I moved down to swirl my tongue around his tip slowly, making him slip one hand into my hair. I’d done this when we were together before, but hesitantly. Maybe I knew that he wasn’t going to be around forever and didn’t feel safe giving myself fully to him. I wasn’t even sure that I wouldn’t regret this, but I wanted Austin. I slid down him, taking his thick length in my throat slowly. He was large, and I sucked around him. He groaned. I tasted myself and Austin with every movement. He was close to release, and I moved up and down his body. I lifted my ass into the air for a better angle.
“Fuck me, Rebecca. You feel so good.” Austin tangled both hands into my hair, releasing the clasp as he gripped me hard. He rose with me, meeting my mouth with slow thrusts. “I want to come inside of you. Are you on anything?”
“Still on the pill, so life is a little easier.” I wasn’t referring to sex since I’d only slept with one guy since Austin left. He wasn’t here anymore, having been one of the people who were forced to move. Liam always felt like a mistake to begin with. I knew that Austin understood I was referring to bad periods. He was the one who suggested the idea, though he was pleased with the idea of dropping the use of condoms as well. I wasn’t so sure about that now with all the women I’d seen him with. “Are you clean?”
“Yes. The media makes me look worse than I am, Rebecca. I haven’t slept with all those women you’ve seen. There’s been some, but I’m always careful. Always.” I finally lifted my head and looked into his eyes, seeing the sincerity of his words. “With them, I never felt the way you make me feel.” Austin pulled my head close to his for a long, deep kiss. I felt the emotions in it, knowing that my own were a tangled mess inside. When he pushed me back and hovered over me, I looked down between us. I never thought that I’d see this again. He paused at my entrance.
“Make love to me,” I whispered.
He slid home. I wrapped my legs around him and felt his mouth on mine. He filled me, pausing to let me adjust to him. I felt so complete, and part of me wanted to cry as I slipped my arms around his neck.
“So tight. So perfect.” Austin eased back and plunged forward.
He filled me again, and I moaned. We moved together after a few thrusts, our bodies rocking together. I felt him stroke me right where I needed him.
“Austin,” I croaked. Something washed over me, sending me over the edge as he held me. He started to move again, hard and fast for a few more thrusts. I cried out. He filled me with a low groan.
I knew that I was complete at this moment, and it scared the shit out of me.
Chapter Fifteen
Austin
I woke up to the sun shining through the blinds and pressed myself against the warm body beside me. Rebecca was curled up against my chest, sleeping soundly. I kissed her messy hair. I looked down at her for a long moment, then around the room. A sense of peace filled me.
Is this what I’d been looking for all these years in New York?
I smiled as I imagined her there with me, waking up every morning in my bed. Last night was perfect, and I knew that we would be great together. My heart soared when I played the night before through my head.
I pulled her against me gently. I’d stay in this bed until I convinced her to leave with me. I knew that my feelings never ended for Rebecca, and last night only made me realize how much she meant to me.
I could never regret feeling her around me again. Hell, a few years of experience made it that much more intense. Still, I would erase everything I’d ever done with any woman besides Rebecca. I didn’t care about any of them. I thought back to the short discussion about regrets and realized I regretted touching any other woman now. I had the one I was meant to be with in my arms.
I had to accept that life happened as it was meant to. I also hoped that it would continue to do so.
I listened to the sounds of the wind outside, memorizing the warmth of her skin and the citrus scent that would always remind me of her.
In about half an hour, Rebecca stirred in my arms and graced me with a brilliant smile. “Hi,” she told me.
I pushed her hair back to see her face. She was so flawless, and I didn’t think she’d ever see that. I loved the glow of her skin this morning, hoping that I had something to do with it.
“Morning, Austin.” Her lips moved against me, brushing mine softly.
“Good morning, beautiful,” I replied.
She looked down between us and blushed. “A lot changes in eleven years. I think that you got better with age.” She kissed me again.
“I can say the same about you, Rebecca. I think that being alone in a house with a bed helps, too. That was rare when we were still in school.” She laughed against me. “I loved how much you wanted me.”
“Wanted? I still do.” She pushed me to my back and crawled over me. I raised an eyebrow as she leaned down to kiss my neck, drawing the skin between her teeth.
It was slow this morning. I felt her above me, wrapped around me as our lips met in soft kisses. Her body was so sensual as she moved. I held her hair with one hand and her hip with the other, feeling the pressure building inside of me.
Once we were both sated, she dropped against me with a happy sigh. “Are you hungry? I can make something for us.”