Papa kisses her again and leaves. After Mum closes the door behind him, she squeals.
No kidding. Cynthia Davis squeals and wraps her arms around me. Her happiness is infectious and I hug her back as she whirls me around in place.
“I knew he’d eventually choose me.” She pulls away and flips her hair. “Helen, who?”
“Mum, you don’t have to be a bitch about it.”
“Oh, but I do. She knew about our feelings for each other and pretended to be Mary Sue. I hate her goody two-shoes type.” Mum’s expression falls. “Okay, I lied. I didn’t know he’d eventually choose me. I thought I’d lost him to her for good.”
“I’m afraid to ask, but since when did you two start your affair?”
“Since I came back from France.” She smiles, her cheeks reddening. “Your father was jealous about Lucien.”
After he found out about the cutting. But Mum doesn’t need to know I told him that.
In a way, I participated in this reunion.
I’m happy for my parents, but I feel so sorry for Helen. She doesn’t have feelings towards Papa, right?
“I love you so much, Babydoll.” Mum hugs me again, and this time it feels warmer. “I’m sorry we had to make you live through our fuck-up, but you know, sometimes it takes a loss to realise who you really want to be with.”
“A loss?”
“I lost your father, and that’s when I realised how much you both mean the world to me. Even more than my career, my principles. Everything.”
Mum hugs me to sleep that night — in my bed, not hers. I’ll never sleep in hers after the scene I’ve just witnessed.
Her words keep playing at the back of my mind
. The part about needing to experience a loss to realise who you really want to be with.
The only person who keeps barging into my mind is Cole.
Since that day at the doctor’s office, something shifted and now I know why. I also know why my feelings for him scared the shit out of me in the car park.
It’s because they’re the truest I’ve ever felt. Despite his dickhead nature and how twisted he can be.
I might be his chaos, but he’s also mine.
My chaos and my safety.
Now that Papa will end it with Helen, we can finally have a chance. It’ll take us some time because of the media attention, but we can do it.
I contemplate texting him, but he was so mad earlier. I’ll speak to him in person tomorrow.
The next morning, he texts me first.
I nearly jump out of my skin when I find his text message after freshening up.
Cole: Meet me at my old house.
Silver: Okay! I’ll see you there!
I sounded a bit too excited in that text, but whatever.
After I throw on last night’s dress and a pair of shoes, I snatch my mother’s keys. “I’m borrowing your car, Mum!”
“Hey, where do you think you’re going, young lady?” She emerges from her room wearing a stunning red dress. “Your father will be here any second.”